Sex a Powerful Force. (Powercast)

Powerful Eric: Welcome to season two of the Porn Talk Power Cast, this is Powerful Eric. When you hear Power Cast, know you’re getting a short burst of energy right between the eyes directly from me, Powerful Eric.


I just got back from watching Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker with my family, we loved it. Like the rebels in Star Wars, if you’re listening to the show, then you are probably a little rebellious yourself, not allowing yourself to be put in the stranglehold of conventional or out dated ideas.


The word pornographic or pornography is derived from the Greek word porn, meaning prostitute or harlot and graphene meaning to write, hence, pornographic. The word was originally defined as any work of art or literature depicting the life of prostitutes. It is also akin to the word pernani meaning to sell. But today I’m going to expand the meaning of the word pornography to mean ideas or writings that society says seems absurd or unbelievable. These are unpopular are unwanted ideas going against societal norms. These are rebellious ideas, mutinous ideas, inflammatory ideas, or even sack religious ideas.


Using the new definition of the term then, here’s some of my pornographic ideas. 12-step meetings are not the best ways to get sober. Defining yourself as a sex or porn addict is not good for you. What? And here’s the most pornographic of all, is that, you are powerful. Yes, I am powerful. You are powerful. Yes, you listening to my words right now, take back your power. You’ve been giving it to porn for so long. I do believe in a higher power or force or God, and I don’t believe that force wants us to feel powerless.


What is the opposite of the word powerful? Weak! Do you want to be weak? What is the ultimate loss of power? Death. You’ve been giving your power away to porn for too long. I’ve been giving my power away to porn for too long. Let’s take that power back. When I first launched Powerful Eric website, and the Powerful Eric Facebook page, to say that people were pissed off by me saying I’m powerful is to say the least. People could not believe that I could call myself powerful. How can you say you are powerful? What gives you the gall to say you are powerful? Here’s one guy that said, “you’re not powerful, you’re just an ordinary guy”. And here’s what I say to that, I say, “every ordinary guy out there, every ordinary woman out there, every ordinary person out there is powerful. But the question is, are you going to claim it? Are you going to claim your power?”.


See, I was in and out of 12-step meetings and other countless therapies for 20 years, I said I was powerless. And finally, one day, I discovered the science of mindfulness, and I said, “No more”. I’m redefining this, I was creating a login for this mindfulness program. And I said on a whim, “I’m going to put Powerful Eric as my login name”. That was the day that powerless Eric died, and Powerful Eric was born. I invite you to reinvent yourself, to name yourself Powerful Steve, Powerful Mike, Powerful Kathy.


Are you fearful, like I was? Are you afraid of the future? Are you afraid of other people? Are you afraid of yourself? Well, I was, I am. Here is a quote, now this quote is attributed to Nelson Mandela they said, may or may not be. But here’s this amazing, quote, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?”. Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. You’re playing small doesn’t serve the world, there’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that others won’t feel insecure around you. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconditionally give another people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others“. I love that quote.


Who can you free from the shackles of mediocrity by raising your vibration, by becoming the very best version of yourself? To become the very best version of yourself, we must transmute that sexual power to other activities. Have you ever seen a Black Stallion horse? They are full of energy. Have you ever seen a mule? Not so much energy. Are you a stallion or a mule? I say you’re a stallion because you have so much sex energy to burn. Is your sex energy, a blessing or a curse? According to Napoleon Hill, author of the number one best-selling book, Think and Grow Rich, he says we are blessed to have a highly sexed nature. And he should know, he spent a lifetime studying the most influential people of his time, like Thomas Edison, and Henry Ford. One of the things he determined is that, all successful people have a highly sexed nature. He devoted an entire chapter to this in his book, the chapter is entitled The Mystery of Sex Transmutation. In that chapter, he says, “without love, sex, can cause destruction, but sex and love mixed together can make beautiful and amazing things happen in the world”. Because that powerful energy can be transmuted and transformed into positive things in the world. With sex energy and love energy mixed together, we can penetrate the world with our ideas, penetrate the world with our work, penetrate the world with our love. Sex energy is your life force energy, it is your very essence, without it, you are dead, with it, you can do incredible things. Raise your vibration, raise your sex energy, mix it with love.


How do you raise your vibration? How do you transform your sex energy? How do you transform your very life force energy? For starters, confront your fears. How do you do that? Journal about them, get those fears out of your head and onto paper or in your computer. If you’re like me, the main thing keeping you from embracing your power was fear. So, put pen to paper, write down your fears. Want to go an extra step? Use note cards and categorize and prioritize your fears and worries. This works wonderfully, especially if you have a hard time sleeping, get some plain note cards, the little kind you get for giving speeches. Put a single worry on each note card, then prioritize them from A to B or 1 to 10. You know, from your worst fear or your least fear. Get them all out there, prioritize them, and then schedule worry time. Say, “at 6pm every day, or 6am every day, I’m going to worry for a half hour”, and you get out your worries and your fears. And then on the back of the note card, you can write the antidote to those worries and fears. And what’s the amazing thing is over time, they fall off the radar, they’re no longer relevant; that fear is, either didn’t happen, or they just fall off the radar so, it works.


Another way to transform your sex energy is to redefine yourself say, “I am powerful Steve, I am powerful Mike, I am powerful Patty, or however you want to call yourself”. You can just say it to yourself, it doesn’t matter, you don’t have to tell anyone about it. Now, I’m not a bible thumper, but some of you out there may be saying, “well, I can’t do this. I can’t do these things. I can’t say these things”. Well, there’s a quote in the Bible that says, it’s from Joel 3:10, it says, “Let the weak say they are strong. Let the weak say they are strong.”. Do you have the courage to embrace your life force energy? Answer with action. Redefine yourself, rename yourself, confront your fears, and remember what Luke said in the Rise of Skywalker, “confronting fear is the destiny of the Jedi, your destiny!”

Metaphysics of Porn

Sir William Metaphysics Master

Powerful Eric: Welcome to season two of porn talk. The purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power. But this is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains, break those rusty old chains and get empowered right now. Today we’re going to have a good time with my friend who teaches classes on things like the will to change, the power to heal, mastering mindfulness, awakening the wounded healer, ascension. So, welcome back our night of metaphysics and all-around great guy, my good friend, William Duffin, aka a Happy Medium Will. Welcome back Sir William!

William: Thank you.

Powerful Eric: William Tell me, I listed a bunch of your classes. What’s your latest class that you’re teaching?

William: I just started another one yesterday, the first in a series of five called awakening the wounded healer, a Kundalini and Chakra workshop.

Powerful Eric: So, tell us a little about more about that.

William: Okay, well, Chakras are a Sanskrit term for energy centers in your body and most resources that you look at will focus on the seven main ones in your body. And then Kundalini is an energy that each of us have that when activated, goes up through the Chakras along your spine and interacts with them. And then I call it awakening the wounded healer, because of basically Carl Young’s work and the archetype of the person who has been wounded, healed his or her wound and then teaches what they learned from that to other people.

Powerful Eric: Okay.

William: And so, I appreciate you inviting me here today. I was wondering, is there some reason we haven’t heard for you for a while?

Powerful Eric: Well, I guess you could say I am one of those wounded healers, I’m helping people to heal from porn. I had a slip and not just a slip, I had a relapse.

William: Would you like to share what happened?

Powerful Eric: Well, not really. But I’m going to.

William: Okay.

Powerful Eric: I actually had several people say no, don’t tell.  You’re the guy, don’t tell them about this, and I thought a lot about it. So no, I want to be on the up and up and so I did have a slip and a relapse. What happened is, I had started a new job. I was super stressed, I was on 100% commission-based job sales, and I had my second son was born, and because of that, we were getting very little sleep. And so, my relationship with my wife was stressed, and when I started my new job, I stopped doing the things that kept me sober in the first place. Stop meditating and basically for a while, I was like a dry drunk, you know, I wasn’t acting out, but I wasn’t doing the things that kept me sober and I didn’t feel like I could do another show. That’s why I haven’t done another show, I didn’t want to be a hypocrite. So, I just stopped.

William: Well, I for one, appreciate your authenticity. So, you’re back now in the groove of the new season?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, but I wanted to share what I learned. I don’t want to be one of those perfect gurus, these people that portray themselves as having all the answers. I am a faulty, flawed human being. And I will tell you, I don’t have all the answers, but I got some. And I still believe that using the science of mindfulness is one of the best ways to break addictions.

William: Absolutely. It’s the foundation of everything I do and teach as well. Is there anything you’d like to share about what you learned in this experience?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, well, and this is grown over time. I wanted to say that one of the things I learned is, with most addictions, it’s two steps forward one step back. And I don’t know many people, at least with porn addiction that have been able to just completely stop and never ever do it again. So, you know, to be easy on yourself, you may slip up every now and again. And this is one of the things other things I learned, is that this is one of the reasons why I don’t encourage people to count days. In 12 step programs, you count how many days that you’ve been sober, and you get a coin, every time you’re a week, a day, a week, a month, a year, whatever. And a lot of people kind of wear that as a badge of honor. But then what happens? Oftentimes, if somebody has, let’s say, they’re five years sober, and then they have a slip, well, there is this huge deal, and it will spiral out of control and you just have to get back to the one-day chip. And for me, I found it to be counterproductive. There are also the people that may have a lot of long-term sobriety, they are what are considered dry drunks. No, they’re not viewing porn or no, they’re not acting out with alcohol or whatever their drug choices, but they’re not doing the thing, but their life is a mess. They are a mess, they’re not doing the things to keep them sober. They’re just white knuckling it and you know? So, what big deal if you’re sober five years and your life is a mess, you know, if your life is a mess, then you’re being a dick.

William: Well, I’m putting myself in that person’s place and asking. Well, first of all, here’s what this makes me think of. So, I’ve been sober for five years, I have a slip, I have a relapse. So, what you’re describing is in my mind now, that whole five year was for nothing? Because I’ve relapsed.

Powerful Eric:  NO!  That  is not what I mean.  It was a absolutely invaluable learning experience.  No that is not what I meant.   What I mean is then you go back to your one-day check, you know.

William: Well, really what it sounds to me like, because what it seems to me like, if I’m that person I’ve have five years in one day minus that week I was drinking.

Powerful Eric: Right.

William: Okay.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. I mean, that’s the way a lot of people are looking at it, and that’s the healthier way to look at it.

William: Right.

Powerful Eric: For me, it was counterproductive.

William: Right.

Powerful Eric: For example, when you get to two years, then you are I feel like, well, gosh, you have to hold on and make it another day or another year. And it was just counterproductive.

William: Okay.

Powerful Eric: So, it’s a kind of stress.

William: Right, it kind of makes you obsess over the time.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

William: Okay. Can I tell you what I’ve learned about the mind?

Powerful Eric: Sure.

William: Okay. A friend of mine, Don Ferguson, who’s a Hypnotherapist. She told me it takes 91 days to change a habit, it takes 91 days to change your thinking on something. So, if you can do something for 91 days, you can do it forever. So, if you’ve done it for 92 days or a year or five years, and you have a slip up, well, your brain is already reconditioned, you can go back to that, it’s a lot easier to get back on the bike than it was five years ago. So, that’s one thing I learned about the Physiology of the brain. Okay. Another thing I’ve learned about the Metaphysics of it, if you will, is we put this in terms of Chakras, we can put this term of spirits, we can put it in a lot of different frameworks. But since I just taught this Chakra class, if you can imagine there’s seven basic main Chakras along your spine from the top of your head to the bottom of your spine. These Chakras have energy memories. So, just like the brain, you have energetic bodies. So, to put it in terms of addiction, you might say I’m fighting that same thing, the way I’m fighting my brain conditioning, my brain patterns, my thought patterns, okay? On the other side of that coin is as you change your behavior and change the thoughts behind that behavior, you’re also healing the energy in your body and the traumas that caused it in the first place. That’s why I’m an advocate of therapy, good old-fashioned therapy as well. Because if you’re, and I like that term, you use white knuckling. If you’re just willing yourself to not drink, but you’re not really healing yourself. Well, then that’s the way it’s going to be basically until you change the causal thoughts and heal the wound that caused it in the first place. Thank you for bringing me back in my little brain to awaking the wounded healer, that’s the title. You know, it’s all about healing your wounds, I mean, for a lot of people. Okay, I’ll tell you another thing I learned from Psychology when I was in college about 8 million years ago. A client comes to you and describes their behavior. One of the questions that you’re asking yourself, and sometimes you actually ask the client, what benefit do you get from that behavior? Okay, yeah. So, the benefit you get from that behavior addresses the wound, that you are masking with the behavior. And you mentioned another class that I teach called “The world to change, the power to heal”. And that class, we talked about that in very frank terms, we talked about wounds, the masks we wear, i.e., you know, how we cope with that wound, and how to heal it. Because we look at the cause of thought behind.

Powerful Eric: So, you brought up the idea that we do, you brought up that there is a benefit to be had by doing the thing.

William: Yes.

Powerful Eric: Now can you expand on that?

William: Sure, let’s get an example. It’s an easy example in children, because their behavior is so easy to observe. The same way that like a toddler throws a fit, the toddler is not going to fit because of what he thinks he’s going to fit about, basically. He’s throwing a fit because he wants attention. So, a lot of behavior is simply attention seeking behavior. Okay, like, maybe I indulged in porn, because subconsciously, I want to get caught. Because subconsciously, I want that attention. I mean, and I’m not a therapist, okay. I do have a little bit of education, but I’m not a therapist. Okay? But it’s, once you learn how the mind works, it’s pretty easy to see and there are books on this stuff, too. You know, or you can look up a disease a disorder or a behavior pattern and research the cause or thought behind it.

Powerful Eric: There is a book by Louise Hay, “You can heal your life, you can also heal your body”.

William: Yeah, Louise Hay is one and I like the one by Lisa Corbeau, she’s Canadian and she wrote one called “Your body’s telling you to love yourself”. Very similar book.

Powerful Eric: And we could find a whole lot more like that.

William: Yeah, I’m teaching a new class in February, I think it’s February 12. Which is about the most important relationship in your life, the one with yourself. Right before Valentine’s Day.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I remember in high school, I was raised Catholic. And there was a class that was Todd of his chemical Metaphysical class and the instructor on this said the most important relationship is the relationship with yourself.

William: Fantastic.

Powerful Eric: Well, yeah, it was fantastic. But one of the kids told their mother and father and the teacher got in trouble because the most important relationship was your relationship with God. And so, they had this big, heated debate.

William: Interesting. Another subject for another day.

Powerful Eric: Oh, okay. One of the things that I advocate rather than just counting days on what you are not doing, rewarding yourself for not doing something, as you would do the complete opposite, is like to count the days that maybe that you’re exercising, reward yourself for that, you know, count the days you’re meditating, and reward yourself for that. Reward yourself for something that you’re doing rather than rewarding yourself for something that you’re not doing. And like I said before, how many things out there are you rewarded for not doing anything? I can’t think of a whole lot.

William: I have a question?

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

William: What’s an example of a good reward?

Powerful Eric: For not doing–

William: Because like a lot of people who advocate meditation and these things, say the reward is in the experience itself.

Powerful Eric: Right.

William: But if you’re talking to somebody who’s new at this, what would you suggest they reward themselves with?

Powerful Eric: Well, let me answer that this way, in 12 step programs, if you’re not acting out, you’re rewarded with a coin.

William: Okay.

Powerful Eric: And there’s nothing wrong with it that works for some people didn’t work for me. But I’m suggesting instead of rewarding yourself for not doing pornography, or not drinking alcohol or whatever, is to set a goal for yourself to add something in your life to replace the behavior like exercise, like meditation. So, when you do things like that, that in and of itself is a reward. And you can count days, and I have a couple accountability partners. And you know, we say hey, you know, I drink water. You know, we have, you know, I don’t drink X amount of water for X amount of days in a row because water is really important. Or I exercised for five days in a row, that’s really important. So, I would encourage you to count days that way, rather than tell me metaphysically what happens if you concentrate on, I’m not going to, when I wake up in the morning, I am not going to view porn again.

William: Okay, so when you say, I’m not going to look at porn. What’s the picture in your head?

Powerful Eric: Porn.

William: Exactly. The subconscious mind does not understand a negative statement. So, if you say, you’re not going to do something like I’m driving down to 70 saying, I’m not going to get a wreck. The picture has a wreck almost every time because that’s the way the mind works. So, you must state it positively. So, you say I’m going to be healthy today. I choose health, I don’t know whatever words work for you. I am a safe driver. The drivers around me are all focused on the road, something like that.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. So, that’s what I would advocate is focusing on bringing something positive into your life rather than focusing on the porn. I’m going to exercise today rather than I’m going to watch porn.

William: I can add something to that. Don’t say I’m going to, say I am. I, okay. I am going to exercise, I exercise. I choose health. If you say I’m going to, or I will you put it out in the future, which it makes it you know, a distance in your, again, what I’ve learned is, what’s important is that picture in your head.

Powerful Eric: Right.

William: And so, if it puts it out there in the future, you want it to be right here with you in the present.

Powerful Eric: And you know, the pictures in your head, kind of put some really disturbing pictures in your head. You know I’m not judging anyone that chooses to view porn or not view porn, it’s just for me those pictures in my head made me feel really bad about myself. I just, you know, for me, porn was, made me, my self-esteem really low and I just, I couldn’t do it and I was online and there’s this one group that is about porn and they enjoy the porn. I tell them, don’t feel bad about it, more power to them, but I just, it would always make me feel really bad about myself. So that’s why I choose not to do porn.

William: You know, there was a while that I had a sign, a little handwritten note above my TV that said, are you doing what you really want to do? So that’s a question I would ask, in a position like that is like, oh, so I access porn, or I indulge in this addiction. Am I doing what I really want to do?

Powerful Eric: No, it was always–

William: Obviously, for you it’s obviously no.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, it was an escape.

William: At the very least it’s a distraction.

Powerful Eric: Right. Why don’t you just go right into asking about, hey, whatever happened with you–?

William: Hey, Eric last time we met, you had proposed this, you had had this mascot created and you were asking people to submit names for it. Whatever happened with that?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, well I have a winner.  It is Raging Richard, and I want you to tell everybody what Raging Richard looks like.

William: It looks like a walking penis with a single eyeball. It’s like a penis with arms and legs and the head of the penis is an eyeball.

Powerful Eric: He’s carrying a smartphone, he’s intently looking at the smart phone.

William: Yeah, with its eye popping out, yeah.

Powerful Eric: So, his name is officially raging Richard. So, after I post this show, I will put that on the website and also the person that submitted the name will get a free session with me.

William: Wow.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, so it’s pretty cool. Raging Richard and I, kind of have a subtitle. It is raging Richard, don’t be a dick.

William: Oh boy, because we love porn. And now is all this on the same place

Powerful Eric: Yes. Just get it all on I mean, there is a link there that will take you to porn if you want to go that way, too, but yes, you can see raging Richard at And he is our official mascot and he’s intently looking at a smartphone and you brought the word distraction. That’s what raging Richard here is distracting himself and raging Richard, you know, he’s really pissed off. And, you know, I thought that maybe I’m being selfish with that name for him because I feel like I’ve got once the porn was removed, I was just like, “man, I’m really pissed off about a lot of stuff”. I’m raging at the world about different things about, you know, politics or–

William: You realize that about yourself?

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

William: Fantastic.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, because the porn is just masking negative emotions and to me a big one is anger, rage and even a lot of anger in myself. And so, talking about being mad at myself, one of the things I was mad at myself is, we got one of these amazon fire sticks. And for those of you that don’t know what it is, basically, it allows you to watch a bunch of different TV shows on your TV. And so, I got one of those, actually, as a gift for my wife, and what I didn’t realize, once I installed is that it isn’t all the TV shows, it has a built-in browser. And there is no way to filter the porn on the browser, in fact, it even has a privacy tab on it. So, there’s no way to filter the porn, and the one thing you can do is you can put a parental control on there or code to block having access to the browser. But if the browser is accessible, there’s no way to filter the porn and I had exploited that whole and that’s one of the ways that I view porn because I do have porn filters on all my digital devices and so I was able to access porn that way. So, for those of you that do have an Amazon firestick, I don’t know about the old ones, but I know the new one for sure, the Amazon firestick is an open wide-open door for porn. If you have kids that are using Amazon firestick or whoever they have 100% access to the most hardcore porn on the entire planet. So, I was angry at myself for one not patching that hole right away, how I did fix that is, I had my wife, put on the parental controls and put on a code so now I cannot access the browser through the Amazon firestick. And also, I looked into, you know, the filter here and there as of right now there is no filter available for it. If there is, if someone does come across a filter available that they could please email me at,, to let me know, because I can pride myself on knowing those things of course, and that is a wide-open door. So, William, I digressed into the Amazon firestick but would something like what you’re talking about Kundalini or Chakras and raising the vibration and things like that does. How does porn affect a person metaphysically as opposed to having sex with in a loving relationship?

William: Great question. First of all, those that we talked about, how the mind works and addiction. So, viewed as an addiction well, we pretty much covered that. But then you can look at what I would call the frequency of vibration. Okay? So, like in your example, I indulgence behavior, I felt bad about it that lower your vibration. Gosh, I mean, for me, that’s enough right there to change my behavior. But let’s say for some people, it’s not. So, okay, it keeps you in growth in the physical world, there’s bottom line. Anything like porn is, especially if it’s an addiction, if it’s something you can’t stop doing it keeps you engrossed in the physical world. And then I would ask, what’s the goal of being here in human life? Are you here to just be all day long? Remember that one session we were doing, and I said meditative masturbate is your choice, you know, it’s like, to me, it’s like that. It’s like, what am I doing with my life? You know, is this what I really want to do? What are my priorities? And if you don’t care, I probably can’t change your mind. And Eric probably can’t change your mind. You know, if that’s what you want to do then that’s what you’re going to do. But if you have any inclination to better yourself, to raise your vibration, to fulfill your purpose, to be truly happy and not just indulge in distraction and be engrossed in the physical world. Well then, every moment is a choice, every thought is a choice, every feeling is a choice. So, when you indulge in those behaviors, what’s the word you use? When I act out, I am reinforcing neuron physical, physiological neuron patterns in my brain. I’m lowering my vibration, I am beating myself up. You know, it’s on so many levels. You are doing yourself harm.

Powerful Eric: You mentioned vibration with porn so, what about sex in a loving relationship?

William: Well, I believe if it’s truly a loving relationship, it’ll raise your vibration. Because you’re increasing the amount of love in the world basically, you know, by making love, creating love, expressing love, you know, not just, you know, so to me, any expression of love is good. Whether it’s with, I don’t know, any expression of love, you know, and you know, it’s different. There’s love with friends, there’s romantic love, there’s love of family, there’s love of all humankind. You know, any expression of love is going to do good in yourself and in the world. But again, indulging in distraction, acting out, it lowers your vibration.

Powerful Eric: And can you stand on that for the people? What do you mean by raising your vibration?

William: Okay, in a lot of different philosophies or a lot of different schools of thought, okay? Whether it’s religious or secular, people like, okay like if you were to put it in religious terms, what brings me closer to God, what distances me from God? What do you think, does masturbating brings you closer to God? For most people no, you know, I mean it’s a distraction. Okay. Then in terms of you said well, what do I mean by raise my vibration? I would ask what do you visualize when you say raise my vibration? You know for some people, it just means be happy, but the danger with that term be happy is with a lot of people in our society, it seems like be happy means be content. Like, oh yeah, I’m happy because I had an orgasm and I’m going to take a nap. That’s happiness. Well, like I said, if that’s happiness for you then, okay, that’s your life that you’ve chosen. But for me happiness is a much bigger experience than just self-indulgence. So, when you raise your vibration, you are doing what you came here to do, for instance, fulfilling your higher purpose, being one with my higher self, being one with God.

Powerful Eric: So, how can how can someone instead of focusing on not viewing pornography or not acting out pornography, or not engaging in the addiction, what are some things that they can do to raise their vibration?

William: Well, to me the most fundamental thing is to meditate. And meditation can take a lot of different forms, I’m actually going to start teaching this class in March called ascension, it’s based on the material by Joshua David stone. It’s incredible material, and frankly, it’s like a lot of different things, it’s just one avenue. This is one person’s, you know, this one man had these insights, he wrote them down, and what I find really interesting, some people find it kind of like conflicting, I find it extremely interesting that these things are all related. You know, the higher purpose of religion, the ascension material, the ancient technique of Yoga. So, whether you look back in the Hindu tradition of Chakras and Kundalini, if you go to the east and look at Qi Gong, and the Japanese is Reiki, you know you through every culture, throughout time, there have been people who want to help each other, raise the vibration or be closer to God or whatever words you want to use. So, to me, you know, I, first of all, I’m doing what appeals to me, what works for me, I am basically sharing what I’ve learned with other people.

Powerful Eric: So, you mentioned meditation as one way to raise your vibration?

William: Right.

Powerful Eric: What are some other things that some one that is addicted can do?

William: Oh, physical activity, fantastic. A gentleman that Chi Gong or yoga, the more active on like martial arts. I find that being in your body, increasing the awareness of your body is really important. One reason is we’ve already discussed, porn and other addictions are distraction. It takes you out of your body, you’re unaware of your body. Maybe you’re aware of one very small part of your body, specific part of your body. But you know what I mean? It’s not helping you be a whole incomplete person.

Powerful Eric: Right.

William: So, anything that like, I like physical activity, like, lately, I’ve just been going for walks, but I did do martial arts for a while. I know Eric does martial arts, it’s very helpful to do an activity that like brings your awareness all the way out to your toes and fingers, you know. So, physical activity is good, a mindful so that’s why I love this thing you picked up called mindful habit. I like the title, I like everything about it, because a mindfulness meditation is really helpful. Do you want a specific thing to use? Of course, you can go online and look, I use an app called the insight timer. It’s free, it has all different kinds of meditations on it, including mindfulness meditations. I, probably once or twice a week actually use that to get a good night’s sleep too. So, mindfulness, bring your attention, continue bring your attention back to the present. Continue to bring your attention into your body, being aware of your body, being aware of your body’s needs, what’s happening in your body. And I honestly have a hard time explain why that is, it’s very helpful. And I’ve heard other people say the same thing, people who teach and practice yoga say the same thing. Martial Arts, especially if you are fortunate to be in a martial arts school that has a mindful teacher. You know who teaches it that way, because when I was in college, you know, that’s the teacher I had, he just had a very small class did it just anyway, point being he said that feel the energy moves through your arm out to your hand. But nobody ever said that to me before, but I just did, I just, I felt it. You know, so, things that bring your attention to the present, bring attention to your body are very helpful.

Powerful Eric: William, what is something that you would say to the person in the relationship with the person who is addicted to porn or whatever? The significant other, or husband or wife, whatever, because I’ve noticed that we are getting you know, some of the women, the wives in the relationship I’ve noticed that some of the significant others are listening to this program. What advice would you have them metaphysically understand to maybe either really help themselves to cope with their addicted spouse?

William: First answer is focused on yourself. When you live in an addicted person, it’s easy to get wrapped up in their addiction. It’s easy to think I have to help Eric with this, I have to help Eric with that, you have to help, I have to be a part of this healing process and I have to do this, I have to do that. I would actually do the opposite, I will let him handle his own shit, and I will take care of myself.

Powerful Eric: That’s wise!


William: I mean, you can be supportive. And if you, for instance, are going to therapy together, that’s another thing I would recommend on a practical note is a third party, whether it’s a regular therapist or your clergy or whomever, you know, I would greatly encourage that couple to have a mediator of some kind.

Powerful Eric: Right. Actually, my wife and I do have, we did premarital counseling before we got married. It was so helpful that we never stopped.

William: Fantastic.

Powerful Eric: We go about once a month, maybe every two months, it’s really helpful. And so anyway, we covered a lot of ground here today. So, we’ll wrap up and talking about needing help. If you need help, you can reach out to William or myself. William you want to tell everybody how they can get hold of you.

William: My phone number is 314-403-4744 on Facebook I’m Happy Medium Will.   I have a website, it’s

Powerful Eric: Awesome. And if you want to reach me of course at Thanks for listening today and remember that you are designed for accomplishment, you are engineered for success and you are endowed with the seeds of greatness.

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Kids on Porn.

Annonymous son addicted to porn.

Powerful Eric: Welcome to Porn Talk, Porn Talk is not just about breaking addictions it’s about breaking belief systems. A belief system that I’m looking to shatter today is that generally teenagers and older view porn. Well, actually much younger than that views porn. I have my guest today we’re going to call him Bruce. That’s not his real name we’re protecting his identity because we don’t want his son to get the repercussions of the show, because this is about his son viewing porn. Let’s just go right to it. Bruce, tell us what happened with your son in pornography.

Bruce: Okay. He has a smartphone, he is about 12, and I just one day said to myself to look through this phone. He had 20 some odd pages up on a web browser, most of them opened to porn. And then, so, I asked him about it. Of course, he at first denied it. And I showed him you know, I said something like, “so, If I look at your phone, I’m not going to see anything embarrassing, nothing on there that you don’t want me to see?” He answered and said, “no”. And, I said, well, go ahead and open up the browser. And he screamed, ” oh, yeah, alright”. And I had my finger over the screen about the open it up and show him. And he said, “yeah, I was looking at porn”. And I said, well, you know, this is wrong, you did it, you didn’t mean it, you knew it was wrong. And I went on to explain, not only is it wrong, just because the rules say it’s wrong, like my household rules, but also, it’s illegal. I said, if you got caught looking at porn, you know who will get in trouble? Not you, me, because I’m your guardian. And that seemed to affect him, then I also said, you know, this country has to be 18 to look at porn. So, when you’re 18, I guess I can’t say much about it. But until then, don’t do it. Well, then it was maybe a few months later the same thing happened again, basically, this time it was his phone. Of course, he’s grounded from his phone for a while, 3 or 4 months at least, it was quite a while. And then, so, long story short, I caught him yet again.

Powerful Eric: But he took, so, he took really no steps to even hide it. So, he had, you said he had 20 something browser pages open?

Bruce: That’s correct, and I think that was really just his ignorance. I think, I don’t think he had a clue that I would actually look at his phone, and probably didn’t technically know how to hide it very well. Okay, so, then it advanced, a few months later, and then it happened again. And that’s when he broke down crying and saying, “I can’t stop doing it”.

Powerful Eric: So, this is a 12 year old boy. Do you have any idea how long he had the phone?

Bruce: He had it for a few months, but I cannot answer if he has been looking at it, on other phones at other times. Because I wasn’t necessarily in charge of the other phones that he had, previous to this one right now.

Powerful Eric: Right. Where did the other phones come from?

Bruce: His mom.

Powerful Eric: I see. And just personal background. Bruce is divorced, so, his mom does some things that he’s not–

Bruce: And frankly, she will give her kids things like that and not have, it seems that she doesn’t know, she has no desire, no awareness about marketing, things like that. She just doesn’t do it.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. So, this is a 12 year old boy who, let’s say for, within a year he’s already says, he said, basically saying, he’s addicted to porn. He said, I can’t stop. Right? Those exact–

Bruce:  Yes, he was crying, he seemed sincere. Yeah, sometimes a kid, and I did this as a kid. I cried as it is because, it is that I got caught. He seemed sincere.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I talked about this In one of my first shows, in that when I was a kid, and we are about the same age, when I was a kid, if I found a playboy or something like that, I really thought I had something, you know. And since then, the Playboy magazine no longer exists. I think it’s online now, but the magazine doesn’t even exist anymore. And it’s so soft now. I mean, now these young kids have access to hardcore porn. It just, it makes me sad.

Bruce: Did I tell you what my friend told me? I have a female friend who is about our age. And she has two sons that are grown, and she said, “one of the new trends among young people is that, they’ll have anal sex and not vaginal sex and, be able to say, well she’s still a virgin”. Because it was just anal. It’s just laughable to me, it’s just ridiculous, a ridiculous notion.

Powerful Eric: Wow. So, they want to have anal sex instead of regular sex to prevent getting pregnant?

Bruce: No, it’s just so, she can say she’s a virgin.

Powerful Eric: Oh!

Bruce: So, she says she’s a virgin.

Powerful Eric: Oh, wow.

Bruce: Yeah, I’m still a virgin, because they didn’t have vaginal sex. Yeah.

Powerful Eric: Wow.

Bruce: Yeah. And this is the point.

Powerful Eric: Right. Well, so, tell me what is the state of things right now with the phone and your son?

 Bruce: I monitor his phone, and as far as I can tell, he’s not accessing any porn.

Powerful Eric: So, how do you how do you monitor his phone?

Bruce: I use an app called “The Parents Century”, and just look at his phone, as he picks it up, and he knows I can look at it any given time

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and we’re not on here endorsing any particular product or anything like that one, one that I had used successfully was called fundamental. But I understand it may have some bad reviews, but I didn’t have any trouble with it. But anyway, you might check those out. And now, knowing what you know now. If you could go back in time, and hand him that phone, like, without any filter or anything on that, I mean, what would you think of a parent, knowing what you know, giving them, giving their child just a phone unfiltered?

Bruce: Unfiltered, without any access to the internet?

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: It’s like handing him a back rub, it’s ridiculously irresponsible.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I’m going to go a step further, and say, that it’s knowing what you know.

Bruce: Yeah.

Powerful Eric: That it’s child abuse. Who would take, let’s say, I had this book box of porn filled with all the hardcore DVDs, and magazines, pictures, and even names and phone numbers of people that you might want to hook up, and I just took that. But, within that book box though there was some good stuff too, you know, I don’t know. Good books, you know, so, I just gave you that person, that’s ridiculous.

Bruce: That makes complete sense, especially the age, he is my analogy about the drugs. Let’s say again, this 12 year old box of proper pharmaceuticals and street drugs, and he doesn’t know or doesn’t have the wisdom or maturity to decide what’s good for him. There you go, that’s very important.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I really do. Now again, I just to state, knowing these facts that it’s one thing you when you don’t know. But when you know, and you give your son or your daughter a phone, unfiltered, you’re handing them the world’s largest library of pornography, pictures and not only that, it’s actually much worse than that. You kind of dropping them in the middle of a bad, the hood. Your kind of dropping them in to the hood, you know with predators, sexual predators and pornographers and dealers. It’s scary. But now you have, you do have him monitored. So, has there been any, anything that’s happened since he’s been monitored?

Bruce: No.

Powerful Eric: Okay, great. Now, one thing that I know from the business that I’m in here, is that some people will say, well, you know, my darling child would never view pornography. And let’s say that’s true, let’s say your darling child would never consider viewing porn. Well, we know that okay, maybe they won’t, but their friends are going to show it to them.

Bruce: Yeah, and that’s how my son found out about it, he told me–

Powerful Eric: Yeah, tell that story if you don’t mind.

Bruce: Oh, I can enlighten you. Well, the first time I kind of took part of the blame on myself for not, having been proactive and not doing it ahead of time and so on and so on. The second time it happened though, I laid it to him pretty good and say, “this is wrong, you can go to prison, you can go to jail. And so, that’s kind of how I went about it.

Powerful Eric: Can you tell us; can you tell that story?

Bruce: Oh, about the text? Oh, yeah, that’s it, in fact, that’s how I found out, that was the first time. There was a text on his phone, he told me he texts his friend and said, “he is to come over let’s eat”. And, his replied, saying, “don’t tell me these things”. And, you know,

it’s kind of like when, I had that moment of like looking at the phone like, is this what I think it is? And I’m like, what? And that’s when I looked at the web browser, and so, we had to talk about, also the appropriateness of things like that. And, remember, I talked to you about this, and I gave you the advice of, like, don’t just lay down and criticize and tell them this is wrong. Advise them, you know, tell them at your age, your hormones are developing, your body is changing, and, you know, frankly, masturbation is part of life. It’s going to happen especially at your age, but it’s your private activity. Don’t share it I mean, we laugh about it now, but now, but I mean, sometimes when I was that age, I would tell my friends,” hey, I just knocked one off”. You know?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, but everybody when we were kids didn’t have access to hardcore porn.

Bruce: Sure. And so, this has been an educational for me to say the least, you know, it has really helped me think about not just the porn part of it, but overall values and demo things, Eric, where you like, I’m sure the same experiences once you became aware of this problem, you see it everywhere. You see everything sexualized, and I’ve been reading articles about these children, what do you call it? They sell children and its basically slavery.

Powerful Eric: Sex trafficking.

Bruce: Yeah, sex trafficking, that’s it, porn rains, you know, have children. And I don’t mean like 17 year old, and 10 and 11 year old girls and boys being sold to very rich people in the United States, not Thailand, in the USA, you know, being sold and rented out to be like prostitutes.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: And, so, I had this thing going on in my brain, and I see things that, you know, like Instagram or models, apps, this has like, what I put into gratification apps, you know, and I understand the appeal of like Instagram and Pinterest. There is like, you have like two or three seconds, and you click along, you know, you’re looking at in depth. Anyway, you see the sexualization of these children, so now the Instagram, they become Instagram models, and they’re like 8 years old. So, like bikini photos of pre-adolescent girls.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: They are modelling, they’re in sexy poses. It’s not like it’s just the clothes ad for girls’ swimsuits.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Bruce: You know, they’re just standing with makeup, and like I said, sexy poses and these children’s parents are doing this. It’s not liked this girl on Instagram, who has real name up there is kidnapped. You know, that is her parents having her hair done, makeup and all this stuff, and sexualizing that 8 year old girl, and that is, it’s just devastating.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. It makes me really sad. The sex trafficking thing, I don’t think people realize what a huge–

 Bruce: Huge.

Powerful Eric: Thing this is, and it’s in every state in the United States, and this is, comes from St. Louis, Missouri, and we’re right in the middle of the United States. It’s a big thing right here because, you know, all the highways not come through here. But it’s everywhere and around the globe. And you need to protect your child from predators, and a way of doing that is putting some filters on your phone.

 Bruce: And actually, look at the phone. And that, yes, put a filter on it. They can’t ask for porn stuff like that, the obvious stuff, but look at your kids’ phone, look at who they’re texting. Make sure you know the names, and ask them about it, talk to them about it. Oh, I see you’re talking to Jane about such and such. How’s Jane doing? But what you’re really getting at is, who the heck is Jane? You know, who, are these actual kids you talking to? Or is this some kind of a scam? I mean, it is so many stories you’ve read, I’ve read, and people have seen about you know, the 14 year old girl is lowered to a hotel.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: I mean, I would hope and pray and I’m sure would think that my son has the sense not to go to a hotel by himself.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, but they’re very, through very tricky with on the ways you know I read about on how they lower them. One of the ways at least with the girls that I read is that they you know, they totally flatter them, and the person tells them that they’re in love with them, and that’s the big thing that oh, this person’s in love with me, and especially if they’re in a household where there is no father around, they are even easy more an easier prey.

Bruce: I watched this scene, or rather read about it, the other extreme of, if you say anything to anybody I kill your parents.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: Basically extortion.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and that’s how, what was that, the girl that was kidnapped from her house and that they have found her a year or so later. This guy, just kind of broke into her house in the middle night, and he said, “if you shout or scream I am going to kill your family”. Smart–

Bruce: I remember something like that, yeah.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, she’s actually got a great video on YouTube about how she is now, and she’s doing really well. But getting back to your son, so, as of right now it appears that he’s not accessing porn, at least through that phone.

Bruce: Correct.

Powerful Eric: So, what would you do? What would you say to somebody that’s listening now, a lot of the people that are listening now are people that are struggling with a porn addiction or struggling with a sex addiction. However, a lot of these people, have kids of their own, what would your advice be to them?

Bruce: Well, the thing, the top thing, I’ve already said, and that is, be aware, observe, look at the phone, look at the computer that they’re using, look at their browsing history. You have every right to be nosy, and like, you know, the friends of my son want to argue about it and say, I did take the phone away, that no one even thought twice about it. You know, we live for generations upon generations that has smartphones, a 12 year old doesn’t need a smart phone.

Powerful Eric: That was my next question. Why does a 12 year old need a smart?

Bruce:  Well, and so, why did I get my son a phone. Because, frankly, I can’t trust his mother. You know, so, I want to be the provider of the phone, so, I can monitor the phone, I would be in charge of the phone, and he could call or text me whenever he was away. So, I had to have, actually what I thought of, is, if this happens again. I’m going to get rid of smartphone and give him an old fashioned flip phone, where he can get only contacts.

Powerful Eric: Again, and just for our viewing audience just so they know, Bruce actually has sole custody of his child, which as we know, is unusual. Usually it’s usually, it’s the mother.

Bruce: Let’s just say it was for a good reason.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, exactly. Now that question about, does a 12 year old need a smartphone? One issue that had come up, I have a 4 year old boy and I also have a 6 month old boy, and the issue that had come up, was not for giving him a phone but for letting him play with a, just a little iPad. Seems innocent enough. There was an interview done with Steve Jobs, about the iPad. He’s now, he’s been deceased for many years now. And in the interview, they asked him, ” so you know, how do your kids like the iPad”? His response was, I won’t let them play with it. Here’s Steve Jobs, the creator of the iPad, would not let his kids have one. Now, if that doesn’t say it all, I don’t know what does. I am going to be on a radio show, and the radio show, the host, Gia Valenti. She’s got a great book called “The Magnificent Melvin and Moxie”. And it’s a fictional story about a family, about them, not giving cell phones to their kids. In the book, I think they’re around the age of 10 years old, I could be wrong about that. It could be a little more can be a little less. But that as a family, they decided that they were not going to give their kids smartphones and I understand wanting to be in touch with your kids. I get It, I understand, but I’m just saying, it can be an option and the phones are expensive too. I mean, who would have thought back in the day of giving your child a quote and quote toy, we will call it, for several hundred dollars. No one would even think of that. Bruce, what do you think about not giving a kid a smartphone? Is that even an option now? I mean, we get–

Bruce: Absolutely. Like you were just saying, is it really necessary, does he or she really need it? Of course not, my blood and critical thinking, it’s lazy parenting. It’s an electronic babysitter, it gives your kids something to do when they are in the doctor’s office. Or, you know, the kids, and you know, little kids, like 2 or 3 years toddlers, sit in the grocery cart with mom and has to have their face in the phone. What world is this?

Powerful Eric: Right.

Bruce: To me it’s just completely foreign. And there’s just no way, you know, I mean, you discipline a child. You know, and anyone who always get their kid an A.D.D, because all they’re getting is gratification. It says, a toddler is a toddler.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: You know, I had to understand that, I had to give all my attention.

Powerful Eric: They don’t know how to be bored.

Bruce: Right. It’s like, when they are saying they’re bored. I’m saying, okay, be bored. Look out the window.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. Now the thing that’s going to come up with the kids at eventually some age. Well, everybody else has smartphones, why can’t I have one?

Bruce: Because I said so, I have no problem with that. I have no problem saying, well, that’s the choice of their parents, that I didn’t agree with that. I have different values. So, let’s say, let’s just continue that train of thought, you know he wants a cell phone, so, he can play these games online with his friends. Sorry.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Bruce: Not happening, you know, if you would invite them over to play on the console at home or you go to their house and play on the console at their house. Again, the smartphone, it is certainly making it too easy. You know what I mean? It, like, oh fine, I have the smartphone, I don’t have to worry about calling my buddy and inviting him over, we can just do it online. And then that leads to a much bigger discussion, you’re online as you shift through placing relationships, which is not a fair, to me, it’s not a fair comparison, but that’s what people do. Yeah, I mean, I have to stand myself out of it, like for instance, the first day I wake up, I wake up because the alarm is on my phone. I look at my phone, I have Facebook alerts, I’ll be on Facebook, half an hour later, I am like holy crap, it’s been half an hour since my alarm went off.

Powerful Eric: Oh yeah.

Bruce: And the time just flies by.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I know.

Bruce: You have to discipline yourself.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. And that’s a whole other show. I’m literally doing right now, what I’m calling a digital detox. And it is amazing, now that I have, it’s been approaching 3 weeks now, something like that, without being on Facebook and things like that. And oh my gosh, I spend an inordinate amount of time on Facebook. I realize it now, that I’m not doing it, it’s incredible. So, but giving a child a smartphone unrestricted is, it’s just, it’s just like, you’re creating an addiction, maybe some addiction to porn, maybe some addiction to social media, or constant texting. But it’s, this is a huge issue that’s going on now. If you’re not addressing it with your child now, it will come up later. Yeah, you know, you can either be proactive now and address that now or react later when whatever catastrophe comes up. And I was talking, it’s this has been some time ago I was talking with someone about what I do. And he said, it’s funny that we’re talking about this, but my daughter, we happened to look at something she was doing online and there was a man that was trying to lower her into some type of sexual situation. And so, it’s really important. It’s a huge issue. Please take proactive steps to protect your children, there’s a lot, there’s a ton of resources online, on protecting your children. We mentioned the capital fundamentals, a program you can put on your phone What’s the one you are you’re using?

Bruce: Century.

Powerful Eric: Century, I mean, there’s a ton of things you can use. Like I said it, you can either address it now, proactively or react to it later when it comes knocking at your door. Well, thanks, Bruce. Thanks for being here. Thanks for sharing that intimate story about your son. And if you want some resources, I’ll post on my Facebook page or on my Powerful Eric page, some links to resources. You are designed for accomplishment. You are engineered for success, and you are endowed with a seed of greatness.

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More Hypnosis

Drew Ferguson Expert Hypnotherapist

Powerful Eric: Hello power people, welcome to Porn Talk, Porn Talk is about addiction and breaking false belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains, break those heavy chains and get empowered right now. Last week, we had hypnotherapist Dawn Ferguson with us, today we have her husband, Drew Ferguson. Drew I have to say, you got a lot to live up to because Dawn was awesome!  I mean, she really was.

Drew: Yes, she’s fantastic.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, it was a great interview, so, no pressure.

Drew: I think I can handle it.

Powerful Eric: Right, Dawn and Drew are passionate about delivering the message that you can live the life you dream, desire and design. Powerful people welcome my powerful friend Drew Ferguson. Welcome Drew.

Drew: Thank you very much, Eric we appreciate that.

Powerful Eric: Sure, let’s just jump right in. Can a person be hypnotized by just watching porn?

Drew: You can actually be hypnotized or experienced hypnosis. So, that you know, the hypnosis phenomenon. By any repetitive behaviour, or any repetitive, something you’re viewing, for instance, like say pornography, or baseball, or hockey, or any other thing that’s going to capture your imagination and your interest. Not only capture it but hold it. Okay. You know, a lot of people talk about I’m this junkie or that junkie. I know I’m a NASCAR junkie. I’m a baseball junkie. I’m a sport in general, I’m you know, it’s like I’m addicted to my business. Anything that triggers you like that, you are in a light alpha brainwave state. Now what is an Alpha Brainwave State? Alpha is the measurable brainwave that we experience when we are in a lighter hypnotic state. Okay, it is a naturally occurring thing, we drift into and out of Alpha Brainwave or light hypnotic, hypnotic, or hip nodal states, anywhere from 150 to 200 times in our daily activity. You’re driving down the road, you’re almost like an autopilot because you’re thinking about work or what you have to do after work or whatever. And, you know, part of your mind is taking care of the driving, and another part of your mind is doing all of that thought process. You know, it’s like, you’re an autopilot.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: You are in an Alpha Brainwave state, you are in a light hypnotic state. Now, for the 5 to 10 minutes that as you fall asleep at night, and a much shorter period, as you wake in the morning, you pass through all 6 levels of hypnosis. Okay, from the very last just level, which is waking hypnosis, all the way down to level 6, which is the deepest level of hypnosis, which is where a lot of stage show participants. That’s the level they’re in, because they can imagine anything that they’re told to imagine.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: It is also the level where some, a lot of experimental medicine is doing surgery without anaesthesia. Chemical anaesthesia let me put it to you that way.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: They’re using deep hypnosis instead of chemical anaesthesia, it is a big thing in Great Britain.

Powerful Eric: Okay.

Drew: It’s being done in Canada, which is part of the British Commonwealth, it is being done in Australia. And you know, in Scotland and Ireland, as well as England. They’re doing hip replacement, knee replacements, other joint replacements without anaesthesia.

Powerful Eric: Wow, those are huge surgeries.

Drew: Absolutely.

Powerful Eric: Oh my gosh,

Drew: But think about this, Eric. If your children were born using the Lamaze or natural childbirth process, your wife experienced the same thing. Natural childbirth, Lamaze whatever you want to call it is self-hypnosis. Okay. I’ve had dental, I’ve had teeth extracted, using nothing more than self-hypnosis. It annoys the heck out of the dentist, because he wants to pick charge you for to give you that shot or give you the happiness. But sorry, you know.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, that’s a whole other conversation there.

Drew: Yeah, exactly. So, anytime you are intensely focused on any particular action activity. Maybe you know, if you’re in the St. Louis area and you’re a Blues fan, you know, you experienced an Alpha Brainwave state when you were watching that game on Wednesday Night. Okay. Particularly when the event happened in the last few seconds of the game, where there was a questionable call that went against the Blues.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew:  Yeah, you went into a very intense Alpha Brainwave state for a very short period of time. But every time you ruminate about it, you go back there.

Powerful Eric: I would be curious on, if they put electrodes on someone that was viewing pornography for extended period of time. How much of that time they’re in the Alpha Brain state? Because when I was really active in the addiction, honestly, I felt catatonic at the time. Not until I was completely done that I kind of like come to.

Drew: Yeah, and anytime that you lose track of time, all the way up to losing track of reality, which, you know, let’s face it, a lot of people when they’re experiencing a porn viewing, or event, will put themselves in the place of one of the characters.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: Okay, yeah, that’s Alpha Brainwave. Okay, that can be a pretty deep level of the hypnotic state. So, do you experience that? Anything that triggers an emotional response in you, you are in a form of hypnosis. Okay, whether it’s very light, or very deep, depends on you know, the trigger in the event and how you respond to that trigger.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Yeah, that’s experiencing hypnosis.

Powerful Eric: You’ve just had answered my next question, which was going to be, can viewing television, or scrolling through Facebook, put someone into a state of hypnosis?

Drew:  Facebook counts on  you entering an Alpha Brainwave state while you’re scrolling, yes. Any repetitive behaviour triggers an Alpha Brainwave state.

Powerful Eric: I’m going to digress here really quick. I’m going to do another podcast on doing a digital detox, taking some time away from us, our screens and Facebook and such. But that’s another, another cast. But it sounds like Drew, from what you’re telling me that Alpha Brain state, you said that’s what where, it’s we’re very suggestible, right?

Drew: Yes.

Powerful Eric: So, the advertisements that we see on Facebook will be more apt to act on? The images and things that are happening in the pornography are going deeper into our mind and ourselves.

Drew: Advertisers count on triggering an Alpha Brainwave state, just, and that’s why they form their ads, whether it’s print, or TELEVISION or video, or whatever it happens to be. They create that Alpha Brainwave state, in hopes of getting you to buy their product. And I’ll give you a real simple example, I don’t particularly care for Doritos. I don’t like them.

Powerful Eric: Okay

Drew: They just don’t appeal to me, I can be sitting on a couch watching a television program and have a Doritos commercial come on. I’m not going to pay attention to it consciously. But within 10 to 15 minutes, I may be going through the cabinets in the kitchen looking for something salty.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Okay, it. won’t be Doritos, because I don’t like Doritos. But I mean, maybe in there looking for something salty. Okay.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Advertisers, use hip, light hypnotic states constantly. I’ll give you another great example. Cadillac, over the last roughly 15 years, almost 20 years now has become the new hot rod. Okay, the new c 28 Camaro, with their Cadillac, CTSV model. They had a commercial on Television, very effective commercial. They had, what you saw was a shot of the car, from the rear quarter, the driver side door was open. And it pulled back to have a very good looking very sharply dressed, very classically elegant lady standing there. Okay, and she, you see different angles and you see her feet. She sits into the car, and now you see her finger reaching for, Cadillacs have a round red start button on their dashboard, or at least this model does. Okay. And it says start on it, and she’s reaching for, you see beautifully manicured hand reaching for the start button. And the voiceover, in her voice, which is a very nice voice, says “when you turn your car on, does it return the favour”? Cadillac dealers couldn’t get CTS fees, they couldn’t keep them on their lot. I mean, their sales skyrocketed on that particular model. And the carryover carried over to some of their other models. Okay, which is one of the reasons why they have the hot engines in a lot of their other cars now too.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Because it was such an effective commercial. Okay. It was a very hypnotic, commercial. You whether you know, I’m male, obviously. Yeah, the lady is attractive, and the car, you already know about the car. They couldn’t keep them on the lot. Okay. That’s the kind of things that we’re bombarded with constantly, in any form of media.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: And in a lot of our day to day activities, you can’t escape it.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and I know, they put in, you know, sexual innuendos kind of behind things as well. Besides what you’re talking about there, like a little subtler. I know one, that was a really subtle one, years ago. I don’t know if it’s still there on the Marlboro camel at the time, you know, there was phallic symbols in there and things like that.

Drew: Sure.

Powerful Eric: But you had mentioned a little earlier stage hypnosis. Is that real, or is that just a show? I mean does that work?

Drew: I have seen you know, let me explain this. Dawn, my partner and wife, at business partner and wife and I are both what are called certified Hypnosis Instructors. Okay.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: The classification CI certified instructor, we teach the certification program, and help people become certified hypnotist. Okay, we do it on a couple of different levels. One, we teach them how to do it, and then we teach them the business aspects of it.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: I don’t do stage hypnosis. Are they real? I’ll guarantee you they’re real. Okay.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: They are, no, with this proviso there. Yeah, there’s some charlatans out there. So, our stage show is real. Yeah, the vast majority of people who are participating in a stage show, they perform real things. And it’s not me, it’s hypnosis.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: You follow?

Powerful Eric: So, yeah, so if hypnosis a stage, hypnotist can do that. What can happen to a person that is watching pornography on a regular basis? In essence, they’re in that Alpha State, for a great deal of time, I’m sure of it. Because I’ve been there. What can that do to the person?

Drew: Well, from my point of view, as a hypnotist, they become more hypnotizable. So, if they were to come to me or any other certified hypnotist, to be relieved of that habitual behaviour, to eliminate that habitual behaviour, it makes it easier for them to be hypnotized. And when you’re, when it’s easier for you to be hypnotized, it’s easier for that hypnosis session to be even more successful than otherwise might be.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: So–

Powerful Eric: Great, I guess what I was trying to get out there is, I’m a big fan of Zig Ziglar, he’s now deceased. And he’s got a quote, I’m paraphrasing a little bit. He says, “you are what you are and where you are, because of what has gone into your mind, but you can change who you are, and where you are, by changing what goes into your mind”. You know, we’re in that super suggestible state, and just viewing porn all the time, I would think, well, I personally know, a really negative effect, although they had a negative effect on myself, because I’m in that super suggestible state.

Drew: I know that as a hypnotist, if they are willing to make a change. Now, that’s important to understand. Hypnosis cannot force you to change something that you’re not willing to change. Up to and including going into a hypnotic state to begin with. Okay, a hypnotist cannot force somebody into a hypnotic state, a hypnotist can lead someone into a hypnotic state, which is what we do, basically. Okay, we help you create the state. We don’t create the Alpha Brainwave state, we help the subject, create the Alpha Brainwave state.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: Follow me on that?

Powerful Eric: Yes, yeah. Well, tell me, how did how did you get into hypnosis?

Drew: Well, it’s kind of interesting, and it goes back quite a way into my life. I’m a, you know, I’m a baby boomer, I was born right after the Second World War, not right after, but some years after the Second World War. I’m in high school, and I’m having problems with my intestines, I’m trying to find a gentle way to place this. A lot of difficulty with stress manifesting itself in what we now refer to as Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Okay.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew:  IBS, I would get terrible cramping, and just, I’m just absolutely I was writhing in pain. The nurse helped me, it was getting to the point where the school nurse was seeing me almost every week. And, I would be in her quiet room, just absolutely doubled over in pain for maybe an hour or two, before it would subside. And I could, you know, get to the point where, you know, I could go wash my face and dry, you know, dry my sweat, and, be able to maybe even go back to class, you know.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: And, you know, she got to the point where this was happening for me so much. And I was being in her office so many times, that she comes to me and she says, “go up to the library”, and I went to a really big High School and the library was just absolutely spectacular. And she said, go to the library and get a book on meditation. Maybe meditation can help you. Okay, I did that, so I went up to the library, and I pull out the copy of the book, written by the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi back in the, I’m not sure when it was written, 40’s, 50’s, maybe on Transcendental Meditation,

Powerful Eric: The Beatles were big into that at the time.

Drew: Yeah, big into that, and that’s one of the reasons why I grabbed that book. And I took it home and I read it cover to cover and basically taught myself how to meditate. Guess what meditation is?

Powerful Eric: Well, Dawn told us last week, that’s a form of hypnosis.

Drew: It’s the Alpha Brainwave state. Yeah, Dawn told you that last week. When you meditate, you are in the same brainwave state as you are when you’re in hypnosis. Okay, it’s Alpha Brainwave. Yeah, what I was doing was hypnotizing myself to conquer the IBS. Did it work? Yeah, it worked great, I had, I didn’t have to go see the nurse anymore. Like once a week or, you know, I mean, it was just boom, that was it. You know, like, I saw the nurse in the hallway one day, and she said, I guess that meditations work, and I went, yeah, it’s working great. Fast forward to, we were certified in 2004. So, fast forward to 2004, Dawn had conquered an issue a medical issue herself, and looked into hypnosis and found a local instructor who is very famous in the hypnosis circles. And actually, he’s the Vice President of our organization, our sanctioning body now. And she said, I’m going to go take this class and become certified as a hypnotist. You want to go with me? And I said yeah, let’s do it. Right. Well, an hour and a half into class one, we’re, It’s break time, we’re all going to take a break. I turned to her. I said, “I’ve been doing this since high school”. And I thought it was meditation, and you know, at that point, I learned that meditation and hypnosis use the same brainwave state. So, I was actually hypnotizing myself.

Powerful Eric: Awesome.

Drew: Yeah, it’s amazing, what can be accomplished in the Alpha Brainwave state, it’s really amazing.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and speaking of amazing things, do you have any clients or success stories that you can share with the audience?

Drew: You know, client wise, there are a lot of people walking around out there today, who are healthy non-smokers. Because of hypnosis, either. myself, Dawn, or one of our students, one of our graduates from our training.

Powerful Eric: Awesome, this show is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. Is there a belief system, about life or addictions that you think needs to be broken?

Drew: I know from experience and working with people on addictive behaviours, that, and even in my own experience, I had an addictive behaviour that made my life unmanageable. It threatened my welfare, it threatened my income, it threatened my family life. You know, I was basically seriously, you know, when I was a young guy into alcohol. And fortunately, for me, and my life, and the way things are. Last month, I celebrated 35 years of sobriety,

Powerful Eric: Congratulations.

Drew: Thank you, and it’s one day at a time, okay. Just like any other addictive behaviour, you have to get into the habit of living one day at a time. Which when you think about it, to appreciate it, you know, I hate to use the cliché, you’re stopping to smell the roses, but that’s what you’re doing. You’re paying attention, you are present in the presence. Okay. And, that’s something that we’re hearing more and more about, in the world of human behaviour today is being present. For the people you love, being present for your spouse, being present–

Powerful Eric: Yes, absolutely, because if someone has a cell phone that they are looking at, and you’re trying to have a conversation with them, it can be very distracting, disturbing–

Drew: Oh, absolutely.

Powerful Eric: So, yes, to be present with the other person, whether they don’t have a, they are not watching television, and now that’s called, it’s called secondary device or whatever, where a person is watching television and then they’re also on a device at the same time.

Drew: Yes, they’re on their cell phone or their tablet or their laptop or whatever. Yeah, and there are times when I’m guilty of that. I have to be mindful, having, you know, being one of those persons with what could be called an addictive personality. Okay, I have to be mindful not to be participating in that addictive personality.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Okay, I have to be mindful of being present in what I’m doing.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: As you know, I am an automotive enthusiast.

Powerful Eric: Okay.

Drew: Like I said, earlier, in the conversation, I raced sports cars for the last number, quite a number of years. I was also an instructor in that, as a matter of fact, I love cars. When I’m driving a car, I am fully present in the experience of driving a car.

Powerful Eric: And you know, that brings me to the next point in that we’re not just here talking about addictions, we’re talking about creating a great life and you’re talking about something that you really enjoy, that you’re passionate about. What would you tell someone, either as a certified hypnotist, or just as Drew, how can somebody create a great life?

Drew: Stop participating in your addiction and change your whole life. Okay, it’s, you know that sounds oversimplified. Okay, and, you know, I’ll go back to my experience in Alcoholics Anonymous. My sponsor used to tell me, stop drinking, change your whole life. That’s it. Okay. Now, how do you do that? You stop participating in that behaviour. And you change everything you’re doing. So, how do you do that?

Powerful Eric: Can you just stop doing the behaviour, or do you have to replace it?

Eric: Replacing it with a positive, will help you get through the worst part of it, and the worst part of it’s going to be the first 90 to 180 days. Okay, you can find something else that’s harmless, maybe even constructive. And, just replace that behaviour that you want to eliminate, with something that’s positive. What comes to mind is, you know, I’m the business guy. So, you know, that’s why this probably comes to mind, I might stop participating in a behaviour that I want to eliminate, like, say, for instance, porn or something like it.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: And replace it with maybe reading books about how I can be a better businessman. Or how I can be a better human being. Okay.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: I will say this, I’m going to say it very carefully, it is helpful to be able to find something greater than yourself, that you can rely and count on and use that to get you through the worst part. Now, in AA, they talk about your higher power, it can be what that higher power can be, whatever you need it to be. whatever name you want to assign it, assigned to it, or activity, or behaviour, or whatever you want to assign to that higher power that is safe and healthy.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Drew: Okay.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and finding something that’s becoming bigger than yourself, also can be about helping a lot of people, getting out of yourself, and thinking, and stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about helping other people. Some type of humanitarian project. That’s why I do this show, I want to help people.

Drew: Yes, yeah, exactly, you’ll see people that involve, get involved in organizations like Habitat for Humanity, or you know, feed the children, or these other organizations. And you know, what, if that works for you, if that makes you feel better about yourself, because let’s face it, when you are deep into an addictive behaviour, you don’t feel good about yourself. You know, and I’m talking from experience here.

Powerful Eric: Me too, I hear you.

Drew: You don’t feel good about it, you feel like you’re falling down stairs. And you can’t stop falling down stairs.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Okay. You’re on the world’s longest flight of stairs, and you can’t stop. I’m here to tell you, if you’re watching this program, because you’re looking for a way to get out of an addictive behaviour. Eric is doing a wonderful service here. I’m, I’ve been there, I know what you’re going through. Okay, finding something that you can put your focus on, rather than that addictive behaviour, whether it’s drugs, alcohol, porn, or any other addictive behaviour.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: If you can find something that you can put your focus on, do it. That’s going to help you break the chain of behaviours that you keep falling back on.

Powerful Eric: Drew, what would you say to the person, in what you just said now applies to this question to, but to as a professional hypnotist, what would you say to a person that came to you and said, you know, I’ve tried again and again, to stop viewing pornography, or having compulsive sex, whatever. I’ve tried and tried stop. What would you tell that person as a professional hypnotist?

Drew: Well, it’s interesting that you bring that up, because studies have shown that when people will go to a hypnotist, it’s because they’ve tried seven other things to break the chain of behaviour. And none of them have worked, and so, basically, what they’re saying is,” Oh, hell, I’ll just go to, I’ll go to a hypnotist, I’ll try anything, I’ll go to a hypnotist”. So, we as professional Hypnotists, who are out there helping people, you know, break the chain of addictive behaviours. Were the usually, the eighth thing that people try, there’s exceptions to that. Now, somebody who may be tried eight things to become a healthy non-smoker and found that the best thing was to go to the hypnotist. The hypnotist is probably going to be the first thing that they go to break the next unhealthy behaviour.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Drew: Okay, but yeah, from our viewpoint, as a profession, we’re generally the eight things that people try to break the chain of that addictive behaviour.

Powerful Eric: Well, if someone does want to give it a try, how do they get a hold of you or your website? Can you tell listeners

Drew: Sure, our website is, catchy name, right? That’s Drew, DREW, Dawn, DAWN, and Ferguson, Usually on the first page, we will have a hypnosis audio that you can listen to. But you can actually experience a little bit or a little taste of what it’s like to experience and hypnotic state. You can reach out to us by phone 636-699-7791. That’s again, 636-699-7791. I will tell you this, it doesn’t matter where you are. You don’t, you can be anywhere in the world. We have clients that we have worked with virtually in 35 states. And just recently, we add, added our sixth foreign country, Russia, believe it or not.

Powerful Eric: Fantastic, well Drew, thank you so much for being on the show. And be sure to check out their website if you like. And I’m going to close actually with that the quote I used earlier from Zig Ziglar, Who says, “you are what you are and where you are because of what has gone into your mind. You can change what you are, and you can change where you are by changing what goes into your mind”. Be powerful, folks.

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Porn Hypnosis

Dawn Ferguson expert Hypnotherapist

Hypnotized by Porn?  Break the spell with expert Hypnotist Dawn Ferguson.

Powerful Eric: Greetings powerful people. Welcome to Porn Talk. Porn Talk is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains, break the chains and get empowered right now!

Today it is my pleasure to have Dawn Ferguson with us and her husband, Drew Ferguson will be with us next week. Dawn and Drew Ferguson are known as the health, wealth and happiness coaches. They are the founders of Ferguson International, Ferguson and Associates Hypnotherapy and the Next Level Up Association, Dawn and Drew work with women and men to help them transform their relationships with money, time, and their career, so they can experience the success and freedom they’ve always desired. Their expertise and insight has helped thousands of people design a life that reflects their true brilliance and purpose, as coaches, speakers, authors, certified hypnotherapists and workshop leaders, their work has empowered the lives of thousands of people worldwide. Their programs include best-selling products and events such as, how to stop the self-sabotage. Well, we could talk about that one, right?

Dawn Ferguson: Yeah, and that’s as far as you need to go Eric. That’s it right there!

Powerful Eric: Yeah. Well, you also have other programs like three simple steps to success, the health, wealth and happiness tour and many more. And Dawn and Drew are passionate about delivering their message that you can live the life you dream, desire, and design. They believe you living a life of health, wealth and happiness is a part of your spiritual path. So, powerful people, welcome my powerful friend, Dawn Ferguson. Welcome, Dawn.

Dawn Ferguson: Thanks Eric, gosh, we’ve really known each other a long time, haven’t we?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I think, I was actually thinking about that before the call. It’s been, gosh, probably approaching a decade.

Dawn Ferguson: Yeah. And watch the evolution of both of us, as we move along our path, and your audience has their own evolution of the path that they’re supposed to be walking along. And unfortunately, something has stalled them, it has cut them out, and that’s what you assist them with, right?

Powerful Eric: Exactly.

Dawn Ferguson: They feel like they’re stuck and struggling. So, I have a question for you. How long do you think someone tries to break their pornography addiction before they give up? What do you think it might be? I’m curious.

Powerful Eric: Well, I would answer the question with a question in that, how long would I give– I just I have a five-month-old baby boy. And I would ask myself, “how long would I give my son to learn to walk before I would just say, you know?”.

Dawn Ferguson: Yeah. Just not cut out for it.

Powerful Eric: Just not– maybe you should crawl for the rest of your life. So, obviously, my answer is, you know, there’s that Winston Churchill, or attributed to Winston Churchill, at least, to quote that, “never, never, never, never give up”. And that’s what I would say, to never, ever give up.

Dawn Ferguson: And whether people label it an addiction or a compulsive behavior or a problem, an issue, a challenge, whatever it is, that’s it, is that there’s a part of them that just won’t let go as far as you can do this.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: You can get through to what’s on the other side. At times, we all will say, “Okay, I’m done. It’s not supposed to be, I’m giving up”. And then, maybe a few weeks later, they’re like, “I’m going to try one more time”. And so, speaking to that part of your audience that says, “you know what? let’s look at one more time, you can make progress. We know you can. Let’s do it one more time”.

Powerful Eric: And for those of the audience that are just joining on this podcast and don’t know, I struggled with this for a couple decades. So, I didn’t give up. And that leads me to the question, Dawn, you know, I talked about in the intro, do you really believe a porn addict can live a life of health, wealth and happiness?

Dawn Ferguson: Yes. I believe any type of addict can, whether it’s pornography, whether it’s drugs, whether it’s to food, because there are some substances that can set us up, whether it’s for medications that the doctor prescribed, and they wind up getting abused. But, in the case of pornography, definitely, when we understand what was the ongoing reason was why that person keeps going back to pornography.

Powerful Eric: Yes.

Dawn Ferguson: And then, when you understand, hey, what starts it, that’s going to be individual and unique for each person. But, there’s something that gets triggered that has us, whatever that addiction may be, we’ll go back to that tool, should we say, again and again, to get our needs met. Well–

Powerful Eric: No pun intended.

Dawn Ferguson: No pun intended, okay? Those needs are never going to go away. They’re always going to be there, it’s what we call the core four. They’re always going to be there, we just have to find functional ways to get them met, instead of the way that the brain has said, “let’s use the path of least resistance and do this, even though we know it’s unhealthy. Even though there’s fallout, even though this is hurting people that we care about, let’s just go back to it”. Well, we have to replace, we just can’t get rid of it.

Powerful Eric: Exactly. And I love what you’re saying because a lot of the addiction programs out there are just dealing with the symptom. How many days did you not do the thing?

Dawn Ferguson: And what do you have to do? You have to think about the thing and then not doing the thing, to know how many days you did not do the thing.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: So yeah, there’s a variety of programs and for some people, that’s what they need. They need that focus on the abstinence, but that’s not a fit for everybody.

Powerful Eric: Right. Well, and speaking of other, you know, different tools for different people, tell us a little bit more about yourself, and about how you got involved with hypnotherapy as a tool.

Dawn Ferguson: Yes. I’ve been doing this now 15 years, and I actually had a medical challenge. I knew nothing about hypnosis. I mean, I didn’t even pay attention to the comedy shows that had stage hypnosis, I knew nothing about it. But I had a medical challenge and they were prescribing surgery for it. And boy, I just didn’t– I don’t necessarily want to do something invasive, if there’s another way around it.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: So, I started doing some research and found where Harvard, in their mind body clinic was teaching some of their patients self-hypnosis to manage the symptoms of some diseases.

Powerful Eric: This was through Harvard?

Dawn Ferguson: Yeah. And in fact, Mayo Clinic now utilizes hypnosis with their cancer patients, because they’ve discovered that if a cancer patient has to have surgery, to remove any type of malignancy, utilizing hypnosis, they heal faster, and they need less pain medication. So, I used it, it worked. The doctors told me I didn’t have to have the surgery. And it was like, “Dude, what else can this do?”. And, I started doing some investigating, decided that because of the rapid results with hypnosis, people will experience if it’s a fit for them, they’re going to experience results same day and said, “Wow, yeah, I want to do this and assist others”. So, 15 years ago, I became certified, a couple of years after that, obtained an additional certification as an instructor where I now train others to become hypnotherapists, our last graduating class, had a lay person like me, who was just fascinated with it, and wanted to assist others, but there was also therapists as well as doctors in the class where they wanted to be able to assist people for those same day results. So, that’s my story, and I’m sticking to it.

Powerful Eric: Well, let me ask you this. There’s a lot of misconceptions about hypnotherapy and that it can be “whoo-whoo”, and that– what are some of the misconceptions about hypnotherapy? And are there any other words? I understand there’s other words people use for hypnotherapy.

Dawn Ferguson: Yes, the misconceptions is that, it is some sort of mind control, and that you’re going to fall underneath the spell of that person and they’re going to make you do whatever. If that were true, Eric, I would already be rich and retired, okay? Whenever I became certified 15 years ago, I had a house full of teenagers, I tried hypnotizing them to do the housework, the vacuuming, and the dishes. No. So, the mind control as maybe Hollywood has portrayed it, is not existent. Actually, people see us because they are out of control already, and they need to figure out how to take their power back. Because if you think about it, we have been conditioned to turn our power away over to people in authority.

Powerful Eric: Yes.

Dawn Ferguson: You know, when we were little kids, make mom and dad or the babysitter happy by going along with what they did. And then you get into school, and the parents go, “now make the teachers happy”. And, the way you make everybody happy is you have to solve problems, the more problems you solve, the more you get promoted in school. And then you graduate from school, and now you move into corporate. And the more problems you solve, the more you get promoted, of which points, you can’t solve problems anymore. But, the way the mind works, is that there’s a difference between solving problems and designing a life and then living it.

Powerful Eric: Oh, awesome. Oh boy, put that quote on the wall. Can you say that again?

Dawn Ferguson: Yes. That the mind is designed that you can either solve problems, or you can design a life and live it.

Powerful Eric: That’s fantastic.

Dawn Ferguson: And the challenge is with the powerful part of our mind known as the subconscious that handles all of our habits and patterns, it says it will not tolerate a void, if you take out a problem, it has to replace it with something. It’s kind of replace it with another problem.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Dawn Ferguson: I’m stressed out. I didn’t get the promotion at work, I didn’t get the raise. And so, what’s going to make me feel better? I’m going to go back to what I know is going to give me instantaneous results, which is going to be the porn. But then, the challenges, because the mines designed to solve problems, it’s going to have to turn what felt good into a problem that needs to be solved.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay, so, misconceptions around hypnosis, it’s mind control, no, actually we show people how their mind works so, they can get back into control. Or can I be hypnotized? This is where it gets interesting, Eric, every time you’re in any type of emotional or feeling state, you’re in a suggestible state. And so, you feel happy, you’re open to suggestion, what will make me feel happier? You’re stressed, you’re in a suggestible state, how can I get away? So, you’re either looking to amplify or avoid. And when we deal with addictions, it’s because there’s something we want to avoid, instead of designing that life and amplifying. So, can you be hypnotized? Well, science says that you go in and out of an alpha brainwave of suggestible state also known as hypnosis, anywhere between 100 and 200 times every single day.

Powerful Eric: Amazing.

Dawn Ferguson: So, now you want to understand when you’re going into those states, what suggestions you’re accepting, and make sure that they’re the ones of living your life by design. So, that’s the major misconceptions, it’s mind control, can I be hypnotized? Will I do anything I don’t want to do? That goes along with the mind control, no, you can only utilize hypnosis to bring somebody out at their best. They’re already at their worst. You asked about–

Powerful Eric: Other words for hypnosis.

Dawn Ferguson: Yeah, meditation is the same brainwave state, if someone’s doing guided imagery, or guided visual visualization, that’s going to be hypnosis. Meditation in its true form, is not hypnosis. Hypnosis looks to make transformations, change is not enough, let’s go for the transformation. Meditation looks to quiet the mind. So, people go, “oh, Eric, I had a wonderful meditation where they took us through the woods, and there was a beautiful babbling brook”. And it’s like, “no, that’s hypnosis”, there’s guided imagery or visualization to it. It is using that symbolism to effect some sort of upgrade. If it is just quieting the mind, that is going to be true meditation. Did that answer your question?

Powerful Eric: Yes, it did. And, actually answered my next question, really, which was, you know, mindfulness is a really big catch word right now. I was going to ask; would you say hypnosis is being mindful? But, obviously, you answered that.

Dawn Ferguson: It can assist people in being mindful, that when they find that they’re being pulled out of the present into the past, “Hey, I am stressed, I’m aggravated, I got hurt, I got rejected, I’ve been abandoned”. And, they pull themselves out of the present moment into the past and say, “this is how I’ve handled it before. I’ve used porn for that quick release to have me feel a little bit better, even short term”. They’re no longer being mindful, mindful is staying in the moment and then saying, “Okay, how can we actually utilize what we’re experiencing to bring ourselves out at our best? Instead of going into the past, and using those old, unwanted, unneeded habits and patterns”, so, it can assist with mindfulness.

Powerful Eric: Okay. Well, have you ever witnessed any miracles in your 15 years of doing this, any miracles using hypnotherapy?

Dawn Ferguson: And I have to be very careful using the term miracles, because there is a branch of science and health care that says use the word miracle, you’ll get a cease and desist letter.

Powerful Eric: And cure too, they don’t like the word cure.

Dawn Ferguson: No, not at all. Have there been some rabid identity upgrades? Yes, to where someone who wasn’t able to function in his intimate relationship unless there was porn involved, it had gotten to the point that he could no longer engage with her, unless that was involved.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. That’s very common.

Dawn Ferguson: Yes, it is. And the wedding actually got cut off– called off, the upcoming wedding, the engagement was broken off. She was like, “I can no longer deal with this”, and one session, giving him a tool that he could use to bring himself out in who he wanted to be in that relationship with her, not who he was just to cope short-term using the porn, but who he really wanted to be, and what we call the core four, the for emotional needs. Yeah, the wedding got called back on after just one session.

Powerful Eric: One session?

Dawn Ferguson: Now, that doesn’t happen for everybody and I, whenever I work with anybody who has a behavior that they could label addictive, because I don’t label it, they do.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: I tell them, “you’re going to get results from your very first session. And maybe that’s all you need. If you need additional, it’s going to be up to you”, because it’s all about transfer of power and authority. They’ve been stripped emotionally of what they need to bring themselves out of their best. They don’t need another person telling them, “well, it’s going to take this many sessions and you need this package”. No, it’s time for them to start experiencing the control that they’ve been looking for.

Powerful Eric: Yes, and using the word addiction, that’s just the word I use because people know it. But, there’s a big debate, or a huge debate about, is it sex addiction? Or, is it just a bad habit? Or, is it– I think the word they’re using right now is being hyper sexual. But to me, it’s almost irrelevant on what we call it. The question is, is it negatively impacting your life?

Dawn Ferguson: And, there’s a reason, I’m glad you brought that up, and that you do call it addiction because a lot of people, that’s how they’re going to identify. And so, we do need a label, we do need something to call it. If you look at the psychological studies of people who have some sort of medical condition, and the doctors can’t figure out what’s wrong with them and it keeps getting worse and worse and worse, or symptoms get worse and worse. And then, they finally find a doctor who says, “Oh, I know what’s wrong with you. And we’re going to give it this diagnosis”. For approximately 72 hours after that diagnosis, they do feel better, because we have to have a way to identify and label it. And so, if they’re going to call it an addiction, that actually assists them, in being able to already start the healing process to get to the other side, or the hyper sexual, whatever it might be. I always tell my clients, “I’m going to go by the label that they’ve decided, it’s not up to me to tell them what they’ve got going on”. But, they do need to pick a label. Because, once we have a label, then we can say, “what’s on the other side of that label?”. Because an addict is an addict. I don’t care if you’re addicted to something that is holding you back in life, or if you’re addicted to bringing yourself out at your best. Addiction is addiction. Let’s just keep going in the right direction.

Powerful Eric: Right. Well, and that brings me to 12-step programs and many therapists and those in the medical field, say that you have a disease like, we’ll talk about alcoholism, for example. You have a disease and you have it for life. Do you think a sex or porn addict has a disease?

Dawn Ferguson: I don’t know that I would call it a disease. And this is the reason why, by the way, just my own personal story. I have not had a drink now in 18 years. Because I was an alcoholic, is this a disease I have? Not necessarily, it is a coping mechanism that does not work for me.

Powerful Eric: Yes! I love the way you said that. Yes.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay, so, I stay, if you don’t want to slip, just stay out of slippery places and don’t go hang out in bars. Do not use the alcohol, I found other ways to bring myself out at my best, or to relax myself, whatever it might be. Disease, that’s really interesting, Eric that you brought that up. Medical science tells us that we can study a disease to learn how to treat it. But, we can’t help that patient get healthy. The only way you can help somebody get healthy is by studying healthy people. And then saying, “Well, what are they doing that you’re not? Let’s get you doing that”. So, treating something like cancer is going to be much different than so saying, “okay, what is it that we need to do to give your body everything it needs to be as healthy as possible?”. Some people if they need that label, that they have a disease and they’re going to have it for life, if that helps them stay clean, I’m all for it. But, that isn’t necessarily helping them because there’s something known as being a dry drunk, I don’t know about, what the term might be in pornography to where you’re no longer using it. But, it doesn’t mean your life is any better, you may still be a complete asshole like you were before.

Powerful Eric: That’s funny. So, the program has a little mascot. And, he’s basically, he’s a little wiener with arms, and he’s looking, he’s got a smartphone, and he’s obsessively looking at his smartphone and I got a promotion going on right now, that you can name the mascot and one of the names that I got, and I love and might be the winner, we’ll see. He named him Raging Richard. And then–

Dawn Ferguson: That’s good.

Powerful Eric: Raging Richard, don’t be a dick.

Dawn Ferguson: I did not pick up that when you want to name him Richard. Oh, I love that play on words, I think you’ve got your winner right there. I think you’ve got your wiener winner.

Powerful Eric: That’s awesome.

Dawn Ferguson: So, yeah, if someone needs to say that they’ve got a disease, because that’s going to assist them, hey, I’m going to go with that label. But again, is it going to help you be healthier? That’s what we want to look at, not just stopping the dysfunction, but what’s on the other side of the dysfunction?

Powerful Eric: Yes, and, that’s the reason why I do this show because I feel like most of the addiction programs out there are not doing that.

Dawn Ferguson: No, they treat the addiction. They don’t bring the person out at the very best. Okay, can I jump in real quick with what’s known as the core four?

Powerful Eric: Of course.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay, core four. Core four basically says that we have for emotional needs. The first one is for certainty, we need to have certain things that we can count on. Because when we get stressed, when life begins to fall apart, those are going to be the actions that soothes us. But you know, if life is too soothing, it gets real boring. So, the one up from that is variety. We need a lot of different experiences coming our way, if we get bored. This is you know, and social media knows this. This is the reason why they come at you with so many different images, because they’re hooking you with that variety. Then after variety, you’re going, “Hey, pay attention to me”, and so you have a level of worthiness, “I’m important, I matter”, and then after that, validation. Validation shows up a couple of different ways, love, but if we can’t get the love that we’re looking for, we’ll settle for just connection. If we do something, and it meets just one of those needs, we’ll probably never do it again, if we do something and it meets two of those needs, we’ll go back to it occasionally, if it meets three of those needs, yeah, it’s compulsive behavior. If it’s meeting all four, we’ll engage in it again and again and again. If we think about porn, we’re certain that it’s going to get us relief.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: A lot of variety with it.

Powerful Eric: Importance, I matter, maybe out in the regular world I got rejected by somebody, someone else didn’t come through for me, but hey, what I got on this screen in front of me right now, they’re making me feel like I matter. No pun intended, no, pun intended, they make me feel like a big shot, money shot, okay? And then, after that, we’re craving love, but we feel like we can’t get it, there’s so much shame and guilt over what we just did. So, we’ll settle for the connection, and we’ll settle for the connection of going back to it again and again.

Powerful Eric: Right. And that variety, you’re so dead on. The research that I’ve done into this, is that, that is one of the huge reasons why people get addicted to porn, because your brain is always looking for mates, you’re looking for a mate. And the screen shows, “Oh, here’s a new mate”. And then the screen, you go to another screen, “here’s a new mate, here’s a new mate, here’s a new mate”, and so it never ends.

Dawn Ferguson: Right. But that the way those core four show up, that can lead us into having challenges, are the same way that they can show up to help us get to what’s on the other side. So, we learn what is it that we need to have in our lives to be certain whenever we feel stressed out. How can we get a variety of experiences, without having to tune into something digital? That worthiness that we do matter and finding those important relationships, which is one of the reasons why 12-step groups can assist people long-term because they’re developing those relationships. It’s just not necessarily relationships that are going to bring them out of their healthiest and then, learning to experience the love that we have for ourselves. That guilt is good. Guilt says, you violated a value, shame, never helped anyone because shame says there’s something wrong with us.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. In my 20 years, in virtually, every 12-step program you can imagine, I’ve been in. That was, by far the best part, was the fellowship that was developed there, that would, in my opinion, is the biggest, best part of 12-step programs. Ultimately, it really did not work for me, and I found mindfulness and other things. But, that is definitely, if you’re going to stay in a 12-step program that, in my opinion would be the biggest reason why, the fellowship that’s developed.

Dawn Ferguson: And, I was working with a woman that was having a challenge in this area. She led a company where she was in a male dominated field and, to be accepted in that field, she had to be seen as one of the guys and so, going out, drinking and, she took that identity pretty serious, that masculine identity. And so, just like a guy can start looking at porn, she did also. I’m not saying women who look at porn and have challenges with it, have a masculine identity, but because of the field she was in, it led to more masculine problems. When we were working together, that’s one of the things that she was missing, Eric, was the support system. And so, it was, “don’t go out looking for the other guys. I want you to start getting engaged and start engaging in activities outside of your work, where other women are and start looking at developing friendships there”. It only took her a few months of doing that and saying who might want to go to the movies or go out for lunch or dinner, and as she did that, she needed less and less of the porn until it was no longer needed in her life. So, for her, it was the addiction. But, it was because she was missing that support system.

Powerful Eric: Right. Well, we’ve been talking– obviously, this is a serious top topic here. Let’s take a step back. Do you have any interesting or crazy stories about people you work with or your personal life? Something like that?

Dawn Ferguson: Well, you know, utilizing hypnosis, you never know what’s going to show up because we use something that’s known as parts therapy for inner conflict resolution.

Powerful Eric: Okay.

Dawn Ferguson: And, it basically says we have all these different parts to us. So, for example, Eric, when, how old is your baby now?

Powerful Eric: Actually, he’s coming up on six months, actually.

Dawn Ferguson: Oh, six months. So, when you’re with him, you’re the nurturing daddy that a six-month-old needs.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: That is not the part of your personality that comes out when you’re in an intimate moment with your partner, okay? It’s also not the part of your personality that comes out whenever you’re doing the podcast, right? So, we all have these different aspects to ourselves, we have a challenge when those aspects get into a disagreement, okay?

Powerful Eric: Okay.

Dawn Ferguson: And so, working with a woman who was having a challenge with how she was eating sticks of butter, okay?

Powerful Eric: Sticks of butter.

Dawn Ferguson: Sticks of butter, and she would eat in a way where it was very public, and people would point and laugh at her.

Powerful Eric: Oh boy.

Dawn Ferguson: And you’re like, “what sane individual would do this?”. Well, it’s not whether or not we’re sane, it’s what part of her personality learn that coping mechanism.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Dawn Ferguson: So, hypnotizing her and asking her to go back to the time when her mind first decided she should eat sticks of butter. She was like three or four, big family, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins would come over every Sunday for dinner. She was the youngest in the family, got completely overlooked, and she learned one day, she got out of her chair and she started running around the table, and the people were stopping and hollering at her. And she reached up, there was a stick of butter right there, she reached up, she grabbed it, and she shoved the entire thing in her mouth. Now, when you have a three-year-old do that, people are going to laugh at you, right?

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Dawn Ferguson: She learned at three years old to get attention, to eat inappropriately in a way where people could see it and laugh.

Powerful Eric: Oh my gosh.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay. For her, it was a great relief, for me, I’m going because she’s interacting with me why she’s in a hypnotic state, as well as the three-year-old that we brought out. And I’m like, “you cannot make this stuff up”.

Powerful Eric: Eating an entire stick of butter. Oh.

Dawn Ferguson: But, that’s how you get attention, right?

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Dawn Ferguson: And for the three-year-old, people laughed at her in a way that was humorous. Now as an adult, people are shaming her, the three-year-old didn’t understand that. So, it was like, okay, the very creative part of her mind, finding other ways that she could bring joy to somebody’s life, she wounds up signing up for improv comedy classes, and learning to do that. And when she did that, she no longer needed to eat in a way where people pointed and laughed at her. Now, she’s bringing in joy through her stand-up comedy routines.

Powerful Eric: That’s incredible. That’s awesome. That’s a great story.

Dawn Ferguson: It is, but we never know what potential was locked inside of us, we started taking actions, because there was something we needed. But, those actions as time went on turned dysfunctional. Well, the need is still there, let’s just find a way to bring you out at your best. Now, one other quick story. One of the techniques we use is something called the bus, we hypnotize someone, and when I say we, it’s either myself or my partner Drew. And we ask them to imagine that there’s a bus that they’re on with all these other people and that one of the people slides in next to the seat that they’re in, and it’s the part of their personality that’s having the problem. And now, they can have a dialogue or conversation with that part of them. So, there was one guy that I’m like, “okay, you’re on the bus”, and he’s like, “No, I’m not”. I’m like, “okay, really, why? Let’s go on”, and he didn’t go on, and he said, “the bus is full of everybody having a really good time. And it’s– I’m at the bus stop, but the doors are closed, and they won’t let me on”. And I’m like, “okay, who told you that you had to be shut out of life?”. And he had been through a trauma when he was a young adult. And he felt like he had to shut everything off, feeling any of those emotions, shut it all off, so, he wouldn’t be traumatized by it again. And yet, and that’s what the bus represented, but yet, actually getting on the bus was also the fun aspects of him. So, when he shut off the trauma, he shut off everything. And so, we actually had to convince the bus driver to let him on the bus. So…

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: That’s a couple of stories using parts therapy and hypnosis.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. Well, how can hypnosis help a sex or porn addict?

Dawn Ferguson: That’s a good question. Well, let me ask you this, Eric, why did you decide, we’ve been friends for a long time, you know, we enjoy going out for our lunches, I’m looking forward to the next one. Why did you think, knowing the small amount you did about hypnosis, why did you think that this might be something where Drew or I needed to be on here?

Powerful Eric: Well, mindfulness is a big part of the program that we put guys through that are addicted to sex and porn. And I knew that hypnosis fell under that umbrella, but I wasn’t exactly sure where.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay, so, when you’re dealing with mindfulness, what I love about that aspect is it works with the entire identity, mentally, emotionally and physically. To be mindful, you have to be able to keep your focus, you have to understand the emotions that are coming through, and then the actions that you take physically are going to be the ones to stay in that state of mindfulness. To be able to maintain it. Most people know of hypnosis for behavioral modification, that bottom level, “hey, I used to smoke, and I used hypnosis and I’m a healthy non-smoker, or I reduced my weight”, whatever it might be. Hypnosis is excellent for behavioral modification, as far as stopping something, and then finding a replacement for it that’s healthy. But, then it goes along with what you’re doing. Because for me, that’s not enough. Then there’s the emotional optimization, the emotions that run through us, we’re not going to get rid of them. So, what are we going to do with it? So, hypnosis can take that stress that overwhelm, that fear and actually turn it into extra energy to bring ourselves out at our best. And then, mentally, we’re dealing with some beliefs that we may not be aware that are there, which is what I was talking about, just a little bit ago, with the butter, that was a belief. People need to point and laugh at me when I eat, I need to bring joy to somebody’s life that way. So, hypnosis can work with uncovering what the beliefs are, and then not getting rid of them, but actually upgrading them just like we did with our comedian who’s doing her stand-up now. So, that’s how hypnosis can assist someone to upgrade their identity.

Powerful Eric: Okay, and you kind of answered this with your answer just now, but what do you think guys that are still acting out compulsive sex or porn, need to know?

Dawn Ferguson: That, number one, the mind will not tolerate a void. So, what do you want to replace it with? You just can’t say, “stop doing that”. So, what do you want to replace it with that is going to assist you with the emotions that you’re experiencing right now? Then, the second thing would be, putting together a plan of when you get triggered, what are you going to do when the triggers show up? Because they aren’t going away.

Powerful Eric: Right.

Dawn Ferguson: And then the final thing is, it takes 91 days for what’s known as an identity upgrade. This means, not that you’re 91 days clean. It means that 91 days, you continuously say, “I’m going to get to the other side. I’m going to move past this. I’m going to bring myself out at my best”. And you do that for three months, you’ve activated it in an area of your brain where now you’re moving into leadership, leading yourself instead of being controlled by painful past.

Powerful Eric: Love it. Dawn, as you know, the show is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems and creating a great life. What is a belief around addictions that needs to be broken?

Dawn Ferguson: That w’ere broken, that we’re flawed, that there’s something wrong with us. There’s a difference between me and the actions that I take. And the actions I take are simply because something’s missing in my life, and I simply don’t know how to get what I need. So, I’m going to go back to what I know. As I said earlier, guilt is good guilt, guilt lets us know when we have violated a value. We feel guilty if we steal from from someone, we feel guilty if we tell a lie, unless it’s your significant others saying, “does this dress make my butt look big?”, okay, that you’re allowed, no guilt there, okay? But so, guilt can actually be good, as long as we have the appropriate values, but shame, we need to break the back of lack in our life. We were born to be magnificent, and there is nothing that we’ve done that can ever take away that light and that brilliance. Even people– I have worked with some offenders that are doing time that have committed some horrific acts, maybe around a drug addiction, and robberies and things like that. And now, they’re on the inside leading groups of men to actually be their very best. The circumstance does not define our destiny. We choose how we’re going to use what we’ve been through.

Powerful Eric: I love what you’re saying, and that we are born to be magnificent. And how can someone who is currently struggling with sex or porn addiction or any addiction for that matter, how can they be magnificent and how can they create a great life?

Dawn Ferguson: Well, they can reach out to us, we always have a no charge consultation where they’re going to walk away with some sort of strategy that they can implement right away for feeling better, and then, we can decide from that phone call whether or not we should move forward. So, typically we say, “do not email on us on any type of addiction, you need to reach out to us direct”, because sometimes emails can be looked at by other people, and then that can just create more shame because, sometimes we might be dealing with someone who’s calling out that they have a challenge for the first time, and we don’t want that email to be read. So, they can reach out to us at 636-699-7791, they can send us a text that just says the word, “consult” to 636-699-7791 and then we’ll get back on, “hey, you know, what time works best for you?”. So, either way, but we recommend picking up the phone, don’t put this in writing because we don’t want to create more problems.

Powerful Eric: Do you have a website that people can learn more about?

Dawn Ferguson: Most definitely, actually, we have a website where you can sign up to get a gifted hypnosis audio, where it can assist you in making some simple upgrades right away and that’s going to be, so I’ll spell that, D-R-E-W-D-A-W-N, F as in Frank,

Powerful Eric: So, that’s So, check it out. Dawn, this has been awesome. I’m so glad you came on the show. And just, thanks for being here.

Dawn Ferguson: So, I have one question for you now Eric.

Powerful Eric: Okay.

Dawn Ferguson: Okay. What is the one thing, we’ve been talking about beliefs and the behaviors, what’s the one thing that you want your audience to remember today?

Powerful Eric: The message that they are magnificent beings. How did you put it?

Dawn Ferguson: That they are born magnificent.

Powerful Eric: Yes.

Dawn Ferguson: They’ve got a brilliance that they’re supposed to be lighting up the world with, and there’s just some things that they’re doing right now that’s dimming their light.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, they’re born magnificent and then this addiction buries it. So, that’s what I want the listeners to get, that they are magnificent, they’re just buried in this addiction and they can get out.

Dawn Ferguson: Exactly.

Powerful Eric: And whether you believe this or not, it does not change the fact that you are an unlimited, infinitely wise, powerful, eternal creator of reality!




Husband Cheats & Kids on Porn

Sandy Joy – Therapist – Tramatologist


Intro: Welcome to Porn Talk with Powerful Eric, end the porn habit. reclaim your power. Here’s your host, Powerful Eric.


Powerful Eric: Welcome to Porn Talk, this is powerful Eric. The purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power. But it’s not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains, break the chains, get empowered now. My guest today is Sandy Joy. Sandy is a registered psychotherapist with a master’s degree in counseling psychology. She’s a registered professional counselor and a master practitioner of clinical counseling. Sandy is a certified Clinical Traumatologist, a qualified clinical counseling supervisor, and is proud to be a certified coach of the mindful habit system. Help me welcome my friend, Sandy Joy. Welcome, Sandy.


Sandy: Thank you Powerful Eric, thank you inviting me today.


Powerful Eric: Sure, well, Sandy, can you tell the listening audience a little about yourself and how porn has affected your life?

Sandy: Absolutely. For several years, I will say D-day was almost three years ago, and D-day was discovery day that my husband was having affairs. But for several years before that, you know, we’re healthy adults, but intimacy was an issue, there was a lack of intimacy. And, I’m going to say almost 10 years, and very little that, he just kept dwindling and dwindling. And I thought, oh, as we were aging, my now ex-husband was on medication, I thought, you know, the libido was lower, you know, there is issues with the rectal dysfunction with that. Okay, it’s a normal part of aging, medical issues, that kind of thing. However, even in the two years or three years before I found out, there was not even like hand holding, there was just no intimacy and it may seem to me, it’s a safe-net, you know, the hand holding, the hugging that just, you cuddle, and it doesn’t have to be the actual sexual act. And so, we were in marriage counseling and none of this came up, there was other excuses, there was, you know, that he resented me for the time I’d been doing my school work while I was getting my master’s degree. And I just kept saying, what am I doing wrong? What am I doing wrong? Why don’t you want and to me? And he said, I don’t want any women. And I knew that wasn’t true and I would say to him, but I see looking at other women, but you don’t look at me that way. And I had taken to actually changing in the bathroom or changing in walk in closet, because I felt incredibly self-conscious and invisible, that something was wrong with me, that he didn’t want me. The day I found out, accidentally found out, I had his phone because his district called and wanted to talk to me and it called on his phone. And so, I wasn’t looking through his phone, they just went to hang it up and at the same time an email came through that was quite clearly from another woman and having an affair. So, over the course of two days found out that actually he had a porn addiction and a sex addiction and my world being together with someone at that time and finding out, almost 34 years. And, in all, we were married, 31 live together, 33 and a half years and my world turned completely upside down, thinking that I knew who I was with, to find out he had been actually living a double life for more than 10 years and that it actually started when he was 14 years old with porn and porn addiction, severe on bondage. But how porn shews that day, had still was a daily thing for him and it really, I was destroyed. So, not only was my trash shattered but my whole life, my whole thought process, my whole, everything was shattered. My whole belief system, if you will, was shattered.

Powerful Eric: But for years, that’s a long time.

Sandy: A long time.
Powerful Eric: Why do you think he went to therapy with you when he was like, what’s the point of going to therapy if he’s going to continue to, you know, cheat on you and–?

Sandy: Right.


Powerful Eric: It doesn’t make any sense.


Sandy: And it was because this addiction is so incredibly deep and dark and secretive. And it fosters and thrives in secrecy.
Powerful Eric: Yes, it does.


Sandy: And it does, and just to put it, kind of an added, no secrets are good, all secrets are harmful. If you say, well, I’m keeping a secret because I’ve got something for their birthday, that’s not a secret, that is a surprise and that’s something completely different. It is something that you’re planning to see through, it’s a happy thing and it’s a surprise. When we tell our children or if a child, you know, going off topic a little bit, maybe. If a child is told, don’t tell anybody this, it eats a hole in that child and for fear that something bad is going to happen if they tell someone else that this has happened to them or they were told this. You know, and even as adults, if somebody tells us a secret and say, don’t tell anybody, it’s not about keeping confidence, it’s like what is wrong that this, you know, if it’s somebody’s confidence, then it’s keeping someone’s confidence. If it’s, you know, it’s usually the secret is that there is going to be harm, it’s harmful and toxic.

Powerful Eric: Well, Sandy, maybe this is a good seg-way here, you were talking about the secrets and kids and for first, to thank you so much for showing me this traumatic event that you go had to go through, you had to endure. But one of the disturbing trends I’ve noticed from the show, Porn Talk, is I’ve had kids contacting me that are addicted to porn, a 12-year-old, a 14-year-old, a 15-year-old. I would not have thought that they would be listening to this program, but, you know, what do you have to say to these, our younger listening audience?

 Stop, get help, tell your parents, ask for assistance. There is assistance out there that this addiction, and as we, I’m sure you’ve talked about, addiction is a habit. It’s not a disease, it is a habit. And the average age of porn addiction to start is between 10 and 12 years old. That’s the addiction, that means they have watched it for so long already, that it is ingrained in a pathway in their brain. And it is the subconscious coping strategy for them when they’re feeling stressed or even just when they’re alone and it’s a “go to” because it works on the pleasure principle in the brain, the pleasure centers of the brain and raises the dopamine level. The only thing with that, comes shame and guilt, and that’s what stops them from talking to a loved one. I’m doing something bad, I’m doing something, and it doesn’t start out, no addiction, no habit starts out as, I’m going to do this all the time. It just happens that, that felt good, so, I’m going to do it again and I’ll do it again and do it again, rather than replacing it with something that is growth, you know, for your own growth and happiness and fostering wellness inside. It’s fostering toxicity.

Powerful Eric:
 Yeah, so if that is the average age, the average age being 10, then when do most kids start?


Sandy: According to Fighting a Drug, and I would recommend anyone,, the average age is between 7 and 8 years old. It could we actually age six, the first viewing, by the age of 14, 94% of teenagers, adolescents have used pornography, 94%. So, with parents who say, Oh, my child wouldn’t do that, my child, it happens accidentally sometimes. Sometimes it’s just, you know, kids playing and what if we put in this word, what will come up? And it’s a hook, it becomes a hook. And in our day and age, with technology and smartphones and tablets and 24-7 access, without, you know, net nannies or whatever, they need on the devices, it’s there and it’s accessible.

Powerful Eric: Yeah and you know, people may say, well no, my darling child would never view pornography. Okay, let’s say that’s the case, well we know that their friends are going to show it to them.

Sandy: Absolutely. And it can be accidental, I’ll tell you a little story about my granddaughter and like at the time when she was 5, loved Disney princesses, the palace pets and so on and wanted to go on my computer to YouTube because there’s videos on Disney princesses and so she could type it, she could spell, she could type like so, but I would write with her and she typed in Disney little princesses in Google and you know, in the list what came up, it was like, I had to literally remove her from the chair. You know, and to just to get her away and she’s going, what’s wrong nana? And I said, there’s some things on nana’s computer that aren’t appropriate. So, nana just has to do some work here first and then we can, nana will bring up what you can watch and then you can see that.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and another accidental thing that’s starting to come up now, I’ve heard of is, Alexa, you know, by talking to Alexa. Alexa doesn’t always understand what you say and there was a video I saw online, someone just happened to be recording while this kid was talking into Alexa. Alexa did not understand it and brought up, started to spew off this list of porn sites and in pornographic things. So, it happens by accident, you’re right,
Sandy: It happens by accident and it doesn’t mean that your child has done anything wrong. It’s come by accident and then it’s like, it’s curiosity, well what is this? And you know, they click on it and there’s all kinds of free access, so they click on it and then it’s like, what’s that? And then will I be in trouble? So, they keep it inside. But then there’s a curiosity about what they saw, and so they go back, and they go back, and they go back. And that’s what happens, it’s creating that pathway in the brain and pornography, you know, very short period of time does the exact same to the brain as what cocaine does the brain. And so, we have to realize that if we wouldn’t leave cocaine lying around for our children to accidentally access, we really need to be safe with our electronics. And that includes our television because now a lot of the smart TVs, they can access YouTube, they can access all kinds of things. So, unless we have these blocks on, on every single device and model the behavior that we wish to see in our children, you know, our children are going to have access. And if not at your house, at their friend’s house, that may not have these blocks on.


Powerful Eric: Sandy, you said, “model the behavior that we would like to see our children have”. Sometimes I go out to dinner and there’ll be a family sitting at the table and they literally are all on their phones, a family of five, the mother is on the phone, the father is on the phone, the three kids are all on the phone. I would presume that these kids at the table are on their phones because their parents are always on the phones, what do we have to say about all that?

Sandy: Absolutely, it’s about moderation, it’s not about not having the phones, it’s about moderation. And sadly, what’s happening as our adolescents, our children are turning into adolescents and teenagers is that they’re losing not only the ability for communication, but how to use it, how to interact with other people. And the more isolated they become, the more they go to the Internet, you know, for their entertainment. And the more they go to the Internet, the more porn is available, and I can’t state enough how damaging and how toxic and how far-reaching it is.

Powerful Eric: I don’t know how much truth there is to this story, someone told me, that now a lot of teenagers are choosing not to drive because they rather interact through social media. Boy, I remember when I was 15, I was chomping at the bit, that literally the day, that I turned 16 I got my driver’s license. It pains me to think that, oh my gosh, you mean these kids would rather stay online rather than to actually go out and see their friends. And its mind blowing.

Social anxiety is growing and growing and growing higher and higher. And why is it growing? It’s because of technology and technology can be a wonderful thing. I’m not downplaying the wonderful uses of technology, it can also be damaging and that’s where we need parents to moderate, you know, and manage how much screen time, you know, children are having issues with sleeping because you know, it’s the screen time, but they’re losing the ability to know how to interact as people. They are losing the ability to know how to play, they’re losing the ability and you know, to just have human interaction communication and it’s through text, they’re texting rather than calling or they’re choosing to stay and do the video game thing, or you know, absolutely.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and Sandy, I know you’ve worked with children at the Simcoe County Children’s Aid Society and also, one of your specialties, is working with victims of trauma, how is porn a form of trauma for kids with early exposure?

Sandy: Absolutely, it is stunting their developmental growth, what happens is the pleasure center of the brain becomes larger and the executive center then becomes smaller. So, the executive center is where we have our logical reasoning, our decision making, our ability to learn and so, as that becomes smaller and the pleasure center becomes bigger, you know that children are struggling in school with academics, they’re struggling in other areas of their life. Which is all traumatic because now there’s more bullying, there’s, just more issues. But the trauma of it, is, porn, whether some people agree with this or not, there is so much research, porn violence against women, porn, when we’re watching porn, we’re watching a woman being raped, end of story. That’s exactly, women being raped or getting raped, that’s what we’re watching and that is traumatic. And what’s happening, especially, and this is sad, there is more research coming out and there is just a study from, I can’t recall the exact hospital in California where there were young girls ages 4 to 8, they were seeing over and over these young girls coming in being sexually abused, sexually assaulted, and the perpetrators were young boys, ages 8 to 15.

Powerful Eric: Oh my gosh.


Sandy: So, it’s, you know, it’s just spiraling, and where is the cost from watching pornography. So, watching porn, the boys go to enacted and so they enacted in smaller and younger girls and these girls are being sexually molested by other children. So, children upon children abuse, sexual abuse is increasing exponentially.

Powerful Eric: Sandy, we’re talking about a lot of the challenges and problems and issues that porn has brought up, how can we heal? How can, like for these trauma victims that you work with, what are some of the tools, what are some of the things that you teach to help them move forward?

Sandy: For the ones who have been abused, and I’m going to enlighten that pornography is abusing these young men.

Powerful Eric: Well, I agree. I’m an example, I stumbled on pornography at a young age, I’m an example, you know?

Sandy: Yeah, the Hugh Hefner’s,  Ron Jeremy’s, the ones that and now it’s a multi-billion-dollar industry and its money driven and it’s just a huge industry and yet it’s destroying our society and it’s t’s increasing violence against women, violence against children. So how do I help to answer your question, for children, depending on their age, it is through play therapy, but it’s to let them know they did nothing wrong. They did nothing wrong to be on the receiving end of this violence.

Powerful Eric: 
So, can you give an example of play therapy?

Sandy: Okay. So, for example, you’re literally, as a play therapist, you’re sitting on the floor playing with all kinds of different toys. And at first, the child needs to be able to trust you, that you’re safe. And once that happens, the child will start reenacting through play what has happened to them because sometimes the child cannot voice what it was that was done or what they felt like, but they reenact it with plastic animals or plastic, you know, people. And it’s in that reenacting, that you’re able to ascertain what the child has gone through without asking questions. We do not ask probing questions; did this happen to you or something like did this happened to you. It’s what the child is reenacting, is what you know happened to them. So, then you are letting them know that they didn’t deserve it, it is not their fault, that hey will be okay, they will get, you know better. And it’s about giving them opportunity to have a voice, work it out through art, through drawings, through coloring, through screaming. My ultimate is to have my own clinic where I had a rage room, and that’s for children and adults, because anger is a secondary emotion that actually covers when we’re feeling powerless, vulnerable, fear and sadness. And when we’re not safe to feel sad or safe to be vulnerable, anger is that defense mechanism, it’s the fight of life. It’s the fight that tries to make us feel powerful and, and it’s not wrong to have that emotion. What is wrong is when we take it out on other people in an abusive way, whether that’s verbally, whether that’s physically, whether that’s emotionally, but it’s okay to express it rather than hold on to it because it’s covering, it’s a defense mechanism. And a rage room is a place where you can go in and smash things, in a safe environment. Other things that I allow kids to do, is pick up a pillow and just scream at the top of their lungs, and your punching bag. To be able to get these, you know, how dare someone do this to me and be able to get that anger out is, is actually very human and helpful.
Powerful Eric: Yeah. I have my four-year-old son in a little dragon’s martial arts and I’m a martial artist as well, and I can definitely speak to the benefits of hitting an object, it is very liberating. And so that, that brings me to the next question, so we were talking about kids, what would you suggest adults that have experienced some type of, either sexual trauma or just are addicted to pornography, what, you know, are, a lot of our listeners right now, of course, are men that are, or younger men, but I’m directing this to the older men. What would you say to the older men that are addicted to porn or that have some form of trauma that they’re overcoming?

Sandy: So, the first and foremost is reach out for help, if you think you can stop this on your own, then why portray that you will not be able to. Tell some people, absolutely, I’m not going to give everyone the same brush, because absolutely, there are some people, but it’s very rare, and that goes to most addictions. Very rare that someone can just go cold turkey, never see anything. And the reason is, especially for porn and sex addiction, is this, has sex is a part of our daily life, sexism, you know, almost every TV show you see, every movie you watch, every magazine you look at, there is something that is sexualized in our society, is highly sexualized. The other, it is an inmate, a neat  part of us that we are sexual beings as human beings. And it is very hard when someone has a porn and sex addiction to reign back and to have an intimate relationship because that’s one of the things that porn does. It destroys the intimacy completely and utterly destroyed intimacy. So, someone is watching porn. There’s no vulnerability, there’s no emotion. You don’t have to be open. It’s pure fantasy. Surely raising the, you know, increasing the dopamine and increasing the pressure center of the brain, whereas an intimate relationship, there has to be true intimate relationship. There has to be vulnerability and emotion and the person has to be open, but it’s not as exciting. It doesn’t mean that dopamine and oxytocin can’t rise, and an intimate, you know, true intimate, loving relationship, it’s a different feeling than they, the spike in dopamine. And it still tells,  it’s still there unopened. So, what do you do? Reach out to someone, to professionals who know? And I’m going to do a plug for the mindful habit system because in my 20 plus years, I’ve anything working in this field as, as a clinical traumatologist, as a registered psychotherapist in my experience professionally and personally. And believe me after I found out almost three years ago, my G.O. T.O is research, what can I read? And I’ve read, I can’t, oh, so much, but that’s for my own self to understand. So, what I found is that things like 12 steps, can it help some people? Absolutely. And again, I’m not going to say if they can’t, for porn and sex addiction, it doesn’t have, it has a very small, F.F.I.C rate. And the fact, even for alcoholics, it is an 8 to 22% efficacy rate. That’s very well.

Powerful Eric: Well, I can personally for those that have been listening to the show, knows, I was in 12 step programs for about 20 years with very little success. And then I found the mindful how that system, which, both Sandy and I are certified coaches under the main five. It’s this one. That’s how we know each other. And I can personally vouch that it works. It works. It didn’t, it doesn’t happen overnight, and it requires a lot of work. But, the science of mindfulness for me has worked wonders.


Sandy: Yes, and it does, and  I use the mindful habit system, you know the 3 A’S, you know I use this system with almost all of my clients because their compulsive behavior is, isn’t addiction itself, but compulsive behavior anxiety is a thought addiction. O.C.D is about addiction. Perfectionism as the thought addiction, anger is a feeling addiction, you know it  is a feeling addiction. So, there’s all kinds of addictions in and they’re all compulsive behaviors including the thought process. So, the 3 A’s of the mindful habit system, the awareness, the accountability and action work in so many ways, including working with trauma and the compulsive thoughts, the use of thought that something is wrong with me or I caused that to happen. And so, that’s in the coping component and the relaxation techniques and the coping before you do any trauma processing. I am working on safety and coping and relaxation techniques with my clients. And this is the mindful habit comes in all the time. Many people believe that being mindful, it’s sitting with meditation. And I can tell you, this is not it, so, if meditation can be a part of it? Absolutely. But it is not the beginning, for myself I have a difficult time for meditating. I am a mover, so ,dancing met at mindful is being in the here and now, been cognoscente, what’s happening in your body, the feelings, the stress, whatever’s happening and what do you do about it? That’s being mindful and making mindful choices that nurture and nourish yourself. And in doing so you’re nurturing and nourishing your relationships, your family, your work, all of that. When you nurture and nourish cells, you’re nurturing and nourishing everything around you as a matter of fact. So, that’s what mindfulness, mindful, you know?

Powerful Eric: Right. And you know, like I was talking about martial arts, that’s a form of mindfulness.


Sandy: Yoga.


Powerful Eric: Absolutely yoga.


Sandy: Yeah. You know, but for some people it’s playing volleyball, they’re playing and they’re feeling, just focusing on that ball coming across. It’s something that brings some pleasure, they feel productive, they feel exhilarated, you know, going for a run, a walk. Walking is a, patting your dog, it’s those kinds of things that I’m mindful and it’s what brings you pleasure, those things it’s self-care, you know, what brings you pleasure baking for me, I love to bake. It’s something I do for me. I don’t have a sweet tooth. My neighbors love me. It’s just I love to bake, and it is just a, for me, everything, all the stress just goes when I’m working with that. I don’t like to cook so much, but I like to bake.

Powerful Eric: Sandy, this show, as you know, it’s not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. What belief or paradigm needs to change around porn or would paradigm mean to change for men around porn or kids around porn?

Sandy: Yes, first thing I’ll come to is that it’s normal, not for adolescents. It’s not normal, all men do watch porn.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Sandy: It’s not a right to passage for adolescents.


Powerful Eric: Yes.


Sandy: It’s not normal, it’s toxic and when you say it’s normal, if you’re saying it’s normal to have your adolescents take cocaine because it’s doing the exact same. It’s your normal for your partner to watch porn. You’re telling yourself that it’s normal for your partner to have cocaine because it’s doing the same thing to the brain. I don’t think as a society we agree that have, you know, taking cocaine is normal or, okay. It’s just as toxic.

Powerful Eric: Yes, it is the normalizing. I love what you’re saying because you can’t see my, no, I have a little, we made up a little mascot for the show and he’s a little wiener guy and it’s to make fun, but it’s got a serious connotation to it. It’s the little man, he’s got a smart phone. He’s got a big red eye and he’s obsessive really looking at the smart phone with pornography on it. And, it’s the, I coined a term, I caught it, the pornification of the world, that porn is just a normal thing that everyone uses, and you know, every, it’s got, it’s on your smart phone. It’s just a normal thing. Oh, you know,  he’s that kid viewed porn, you know, big deal. But when I was a kid, if we got a hold of say like a playboy magazine, like oh my gosh, I mean we really thought we had something magazines completely, they don’t even produce the magazine anymore because there’s so much hardcore porn online.

Sandy: And that’s the thing, so, just like and I’m going to use the example because people understand more if you will. Alcoholism, a person who develops alcoholism doesn’t start out to be an alcoholic. They start out and have a drink or two, and you know they can’t remember now, so, it works out a little cheaper, you know they feel a little bit better and so the next time, you  know they have another couple and that couple doesn’t do a damn thing and they have to have three or four and after that, five or six and then seven or eight and then they have to have it every day or binge on the weekends because that’s still an alcoholic. They don’t start out choosing to have the addiction. Someone who’s watching porn thing, oh I’m watching this. And they usually start with a softer, if you can call it soft one, it’s all abuse and assault and I will stand by that 100% I’m 97% of people, women in porn of human traffic. So,  just go off on a tangent. There doesn’t start off to be, but all of a sudden it’s, it’s not enough. It’s not okay. I see. Not like that’s not doing anything for me, It’s not raising the job and we know that. We don’t know that it’s just not doing absolutely anything. So, you watch harder stuff and then that’s not doing it. So, then you need to go to harder stuff. And the harder stuff, and I want to put this out there because there’s a huge denial and there’s two things with points I want to want to do. Okay. If that’s okay.


Powerful Eric: Sure.


Sandy: One is that men who are watching porn don’t believe they’re watching child porn? I’m going to ask how, because the female could be 13 years old and makeup and hair, to look like she’s 18 or 19 or 20, or 22 children are developing, earlier and earlier there was girls that are having their period by eight years old and developing breasts. So, by 10 or 11, they may look like you’re 16, so, by 13 and may look like you’re 18 and 19 or 20. And so, you’re thinking you’re watching young woman, but you may actually be watching a child and you don’t know. But any watching of porn could actually be child porn.


Powerful Eric: I understand. Well, I love what you said paradigm that needs to change about the normalization of the view porn. So, go ahead please.

Sandy: It’s just the statistics of adolescence, okay. The highest raising population have an erectile dis-functioning man, we tend to think it’s the 67-year-old man, you know, age, medical, it’s not. The highest raising population of erectile dysfunction is within 18 to 25-year-old males, and it’s because of you know, men.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, I’ve read that the largest segment that is requesting the little blue pill, for erectile dysfunction is the 18 to 25-year-old. Yeah.

Sandy: And it’s because of pornography.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Sandy: And it can be reversed, with stopping the use.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. And I actually know a young man that does have that problem for that reason. Yeah, that’s somebody I know.


Sandy: It’s sad.


Powerful Eric: Well Sandy, we are talking about all these huge issues here. One of the things on the program we like to talk about is, you know, how to create a great life. We don’t want to just overcome an addiction to porn or just overcome an addiction to compulsive sex. We want to create a great life, what is it that  you share with your clients on not just overcoming the addiction but on creating a great life? How, how can we create a great life?

Sandy: Yes, my addiction, any addiction we tend to, it tends to be I think, well I deserve this. I deserve this. I, you know, it’s not going to hurt anybody. What I work with my clients is what really do you deserve, do you deserve something that’s toxic, that it ends up being harmful and harmful to the relationship or do you deserve to have something that is, that it grows you, powers you, gives you power, true power that you feel so good about and that you can share with the world. And that starts with self-care, there are four basic human needs, you know, other than food and shelter. And that’s to be loved, to be accepted, to be wanted and to be respected, and in those four it comes with self-respect, self-acceptance to oneself, and to have self-love and to have those things, it has to start from within. And that’s self-care. So, what does self-care look like? We’re really, it’s different for anyone. So, like I said, like somebody playing volleyball, or you doing your, your martial arts, you know? For somebody else it’s soaking in a bubble bath with a glass of wine. For me it’s taking, I like bubble baths too, but it’s whatever, the self-care and there could be multiple things. So, that’s the first thing is to work on the belief that you just deserve to take care of yourself and to carve out time every single day for yourself. Even if it’s 15 minutes. And as, parents, we tend to put our children first. And I’m not saying you don’t do that, but as long as you’re carving out some time for you too, you go for a walk, a run, go to the gym, play that sport, you know, read that book. We just relax with music, whatever that looks like, it will grow you. And it will foster healing in you. And you just, every person deserves it.

Powerful Eric: Yes, they so, yes we do. That was the hardest thing for me, you know, from viewing porn so early, I didn’t like myself.


Sandy: Yeah.


Powerful Eric: So, for you, you know, for years I would do this affirmation. I would say to myself in the mirror,” I like myself” or I couldn’t even say that I’d say I’m learning to like myself. Finally, one day I teared up because I looked at myself in the mirror and I actually liked myself and it was a fantastic, it was a fantastic day. So, yes, you got to learn to love yourself.

Sandy: Right? So, and that’s exactly as we’re going to get used  to liking and loving  ourselves Eric . And that to be able to look in the mirror, look yourself in the eye and be truthful and say, “you know I love you” and mean it, that wasn’t hard to say. And it’s not in a narcissistic way or a self-centered way, conceited way, you know, sociopathic way. It’s to say, you know, you deserve to be healthy and happy and have those things around you but mostly inside of you because it’s really not the things that are on the extra harder, you know, family and friends. It’s what we believe, what fills you up.  What fills you, what fills your sooner and want to fill your soul with things that make you healthy, happy rather than things that are going to bring to you and are toxic and your way.

Powerful Eric: Well, Sandy, thank you so much being on the show, how can listeners get a hold of you or —

Sandy: My website is that simple. It’s, you can view my website and my email and stuff is there or, is my email. I would also ask the– and please feel free to reach out. And I really do help many partners, ex partners at people responding, sex addiction and trauma, betrayal, trauma and stuff that comes with that, on your own work in their power. But I ask you to reach out to the mindful habit system, you know, Powerful Eric as a coach for health because it’s working. It is working so tremendous as well. So, many people are being helped and  it’s phenomenal. Yeah, we are for parents, anybody. So, research to fight, move your, I’ve got a work, there’s so much information on their research, reliable, no experiential knowledge information. And  that’s including, there’s a part about how does you talk to your children about pornography? You know, especially if your child comes to you. How do you open up the discussion? And it’s important, you know, I remember when like, and maybe you too, Eric, our parents never talked to us about sex, we would either learn that from your friends or you know, a little bit in school, but you really learned it by yourself.


Powerful Eric: Right.


Sandy: Well now parents, more parents are talking to their children about sex and they’re learning more in sex education in school. Still not enough. We need to talk about this, this toxicity that is literally eating our society away from inside out. It is, and we need to, and it’s growing in secrecy. We need to be the voice. Did you be the voice? And I’m writing that in my lifetime. The porn industry shut down, if not mine, at least my children’s life time.


Powerful Eric: Right.


Sandy: That money talks. Right? So, I’m not, I’m trying to be hopeful and I’ll continue to be helpful and that’s all I can do, is I will not have this in secrecy.

Powerful Eric: Right. Well, Sandy, thanks again for being on the show. If you connected with Sandy, be sure to reach out to her. Thanks for listening. And I’ll close with this quote from Zig Ziglar who says,” you are designed for accomplishment, you are engineered for success, and you are endowed with the seeds of greatness”. Stay powerful friends.


Sandy: Stay powerful.

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The Law of Attraction

William Duffin aka Sir William. Teaches about The Law of Attraction.

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Intro: Welcome to Porn Talk with powerful Eric. End the porn habit, reclaim your power. Eric has been in 12-step programs for almost 20 years, with little success. Then one day he stumbled on the science of mindfulness to combat addictions. Powerless Eric died, and powerful Eric was born. Learn from Eric’s mistakes and get empowered now. Let’s join powerful Eric.

Powerful Eric: Welcome to Porn Talk, the purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power. But it’s not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems because we are bound by self-imposed and societal chains. So, break those chains, get empowered now, and I have back my good friend William Duffin. He is a spiritualist and minister at Circle of Light Spiritualist Church, he is a teacher and, welcome back, Sir William.


William: Thank you Eric.


Powerful Eric: And as many of you may know from the other podcast, I like to call him Sir William. William would have you been up to since the last show?

William: Well, most recently I taught a class. Funny how it worked out, I am teaching the same class twice in one day. The law of attraction, and specifically, what’s the problem with the law of attraction?

Powerful Eric: Well, what is the law of attraction?

William: Law of attraction is a universal law, one of which, one of many universal laws and Law of attraction at its very essence says, “like attracts like”, you know, the old adage of birds of a feather flock together, we attract what we think about, every day, all the time.

Powerful Eric: So, what would be an example of the law of attraction?

William: Well, from my life, when I bought the car that I have now. Well in general, you know, it’s basically just, whenever you achieve a goal, whenever you attain something you’ve been visualizing, you’re using the law of attraction, right? So, specifically like when I bought the car I have now, my old Saturn had 220,000 miles on it, you know, and I got honest that, you know what, I live out in the country, I drive a lot. So, I needed a car that gets good gas mileage. And I like driving a stick shift, it’s just the way I am, I like it. So, I wanted a car. Two of my main priorities were, it gets good gas mileage and it’s fun to drive, preferably a stick shift. And as far as I know, there was no, at the time, no hybrid cars were made, they all have automatics, and some had manual transmissions. While I was looking around on Craig’s list, and I knew they had the criteria on the margin there. So, I had like, I think I hit like a certain MPG and standard and while there is a hybrid Honda called the CRZ, it was made of the stick shift, they made it for three or four years.


Powerful Eric: That’s awesome. So–


William: Then I ended up finding one at a local small dealer.


Powerful Eric: Great. So, that’s an example of the law of attraction and action.


William: Well, and I should fill in the blank there, I visualized it a lot. I didn’t just sit down and do this all in five minutes. I had to, you know, one of the important steps is getting honest. You know what? I have to be honest, I drive a lot. So, in order to maximize my dollars, I needed like this kind of mileage. So, like I want to emphasize an important step and that was being honest about my real needs, but I was able to get what I need and what I want.


Powerful Eric: Okay. So, a lot of the people listening to the program, what they want is to end the porn habit. And as many of you know, for a couple of decades I tried to break the habit using 12-step systems and one of the things you do is you count how many days that you’re not doing the thing. And all the meetings, we go around, we’ll say how many days we’ve been sober and then we describe usually like, the worst behavior you’ve done. That was how every meeting would start. How is the law of attraction in those?


William: Ooh, that’s a great example because I understand the therapeutic value of venting and telling your truth. Like, you know, I did this thing and I feel bad about it and there’s a value in forgiveness of the self and stuff like that.


Powerful Eric: Sure.


William: But, as far as the way the mind works in law of attraction, that’s horrible. Because you’re putting your attention on what you don’t want. You’re always obsessing or at least, obsessing is a too strong a word, but you’re always putting your attention and often obsessing about what, like, “I’m not going to look at porn. I’m not going to look at porn. I’m not going to look at porn.”. Psychology 101, little clue for you, the subconscious mind is not recognizing that. So, you say, “I don’t want to look at porn”, in your subconscious mind you’re hearing, “I look at porn”.


Powerful Eric: So, the subconscious mind will not hear the negative. So, when I say, “I don’t want to do something”, it hears “you want to do something”. So, I don’t want to watch porn, so, your subconscious mind just hears, “I want to watch porn”, because it doesn’t understand a negative.


William: Correct. That right there should be enough to tell you that’s why the success of a 12-step program is like, 12% or something.


Powerful Eric: It’s 10% max on very unusual, 20%. So, counting the number of days that you’re not doing something, the subconscious mind is hearing what?


William: If I say I have been avoiding porn for 12 days, I’m still visualizing porn, right? If you say, “I’ve been healthy for 12 days”, you know, if you stated porn in the sentence or acting out or whatever kind of terms you use, you know, if I say, “I have been clean and sober for 12 days, I have been healthy for 12 days, I have been clearing my mind for 12 days.”,  so, you can still use the 12th-step structure and I see the value in that. But, it would make it hugely more successful if you simply stated it in positive words.


Powerful Eric: Right. I did 90 meetings in 90 days and I was obsessively focused on not doing the thing for 90 days. And, I totally hear what you’re talking about. It’s a negative affirmation, I haven’t done the thing.


William: Right.


Powerful Eric: Well, since our last show that we talked together, we have our little mascot, for those of you that are on the video, you can see this. On audio, obviously you can’t, the show has a mascot. How would you describe the mascot?


William: A one-eyed walking wiener.


Powerful Eric: Yes, one-eyed walking wiener, he has arms, he’s carrying a smartphone, he’s got a big red eye. He’s obsessively looking at his smartphone, and I’ve asked viewers to submit names. I understand there was a technical problem, I won’t get into on why we don’t have of those names. What is– can you think of one of the names that you submitted?


William: It was something like that one-eyed walking wiener, it was kind of a long list, more than one word.


Powerful Eric: Yeah. The name that I thought was just something simple like, Dick. Because really, then the slogan can be, “don’t be a dick”.

William: Don’t be like Dick.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, or don’t be like Dick. But like I said before, we had him up there in-just, but really, he is got a smart phone and he’s addicted to his smart phone. This program isn’t just about breaking addiction to porn. It’s about breaking belief systems, it’s about becoming enlightened about reality. And even if you’re not addicted to porn, are you addicted to your phone? What do you think about that?


William: I think it’s great.


Powerful Eric: About the phone addiction.


William: Oh, about the phone. Well, I think it’s a real thing.


Powerful Eric: It is.


William: Obviously, you know.


Powerful Eric: My wife and I, we were at the park the other day and it was a beautiful day. I’m not exaggerating, just how everyone had their face in the phone and I was like, “oh my gosh, this is like worse than I thought”, but, I’ve come to find out they were having a Pokémon event, so, everyone was going around finding their Pokémon’s. And I guess that’s is a good thing that, that game is getting people out of the house and, but it’s just like, “oh my gosh, really? It’s just gorgeous day. We’re all out at the park and everyone have their head down looking at their phones”.


William: On the positive side, they’re outside, but, it would be even more positive if they don’t have their phone out.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. But anyway, back to the law of attraction. We were talking about kind of the negative things of the law of attraction, you know? Well, how would someone use the law of attraction to break an addiction to porn? Or compulsive sex?


William: Okay. The most simple answer is, focus on what you do. And everything else, stems from that. Can I tell you just a little bit about the law of attraction to begin with?


Powerful Eric: Please.


William: Do you know the first mention that we know of, of the law of attraction is in 1906? Elizabeth Towne wrote in the life power and how to use it, quote, ” man is a magnet, every line dot in detail of his experiences, come by his own attraction.”. She used the word attraction. I think that’s stupendous. You know, that was over a hundred years ago.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.

William: And a lot of you may have seen the movie the Secret, you know. I know a lot of my friends and the new age community have.


Powerful Eric: Can you tell them a little bit what is Secret.


William: Okay, the Secret is movie, came out, I don’t know, 15 years ago probably.


Powerful Eric: Docudrama.


William: Docudrama type thing. And they present the law of attraction. But since then I’ve seen two problems. One is a problem with a movie and the second is a problem with the way that people see the movie.


Powerful Eric: Which problem with the movie?


William: Well, the problem with the movie is, they don’t emphasize enough the steps between the visualization and the creation.


Powerful Eric: So, overly simplified.


William: It is a little oversimplified that, if I can just, there’s this idea that the secret promoted, and a lot of other people promote this idea that, if I can just get my thoughts straight, I’ll create everything I want, like magic. You know what? In a certain sense, that is true, but then what they don’t explain is that first part of getting your thoughts straight. What does that really mean? It doesn’t just mean I can make a vision board. A Vision Board doesn’t mean like put pictures of what you want on a poster board or something and you basically, you give it attention. You visualize like the car, I’m going to put a picture of the car that I desire, my new Tesla, and what’s it going to be like? What’s it going to smell like, feel like, what’s it going to drive like how’s it going to feeI when I drive it? How am I going to feel when other people see me in the car? And things like that. So, you want to visualize the whole thing. And that’s all very helpful. But, if you’re doing that and you’re only engaging the conscious mind, you’re really only engaging in about 20% of your whole mind, and then that percentage varies upon what book you read or the author of a book. It’s like from 10 to 20%, is actually in your conscious brain. So, how do I engage the subconscious mind? Well, that’s really the $64,000 pyramid question as they say. For me, one of the easiest answers is meditation.


Powerful Eric: Otherwise, another word, an umbrella term would be mindfulness because–


William: Yeah, that’s exactly what the next thing I was going to say. Specifically, mindfulness meditation. Because, when I first learned to meditate, I was taught, I mean, I had meditated before and not really not know it was meditation. But then I went, and actually took meditation classes, and they taught me to meditate. They said you meditate on a certain quality or characteristic like, I’m going to meditate for more patience or understanding, or compassion. And, I’ll just tell you, so, I was doing that, and I did that for, I don’t know, months, maybe even a year. Probably seven months and I was not getting the results I wanted. I realized that I would meditate on patience, how to create patience in myself and that will bring up two of other things I needed to work on. So, months of meditating on these things brought up like this laundry list of character flaws, all that I needed to change about myself. And, one day I sat down to meditate and remember, this is outside. I sat down to meditate, and I had this structured meditation, i had a routine. So, I sat down, do my routine and I was getting centered and I thought, “you know what? This is not working. I keep getting this like laundry list of things to change. I’m not getting what I want, so I’m not sure what I’m going to meditate on today. I’m just going to see what happens.”. And as at the very beginning, as I entered the meditation, as I just relaxed and got centered, this voice, my higher self, whatever, said, “you know, from physics, the light and dark can’t be in the same place at the same time. So, don’t worry about plucking on every little piece of dark. Just fill yourself with light.”. That helped me immensely.


Powerful Eric: So, what you’re talking about there, how can– what is something that you could suggest for the listening audience to do? Something real basic, simple.


William: So, that ended up changing the way I meditate, instead of like trying to focus on something, it was more of the Buddhist way of meditation of release and release and release and release. And then, next, you release some more, you know. So, you just keep releasing the things that aren’t really you.


Powerful Eric: But I mean, what’s a specific example that you could tell somebody that’s listening right now, on how to meditate? Like the candle thing or…


William: Oh, okay. So, the candle exercise is a good one because it helps you be the director of your own intention.


Powerful Eric: Can you tell them about the exercise?


William: Okay, so, you’re going to have a candle at about arm’s length away, at about eye level and yes, the candles lit. I was telling somebody this one time and they said, “should I light the candle?” Yeah. Set up the candle flame, at about arm’s length away, at about eye level, you don’t want to be strained, you know. When you first do this, have a pen and paper, pencil, whatever, and really no strict rules about it. Let’s say you start with five minutes, set a timer for five minutes, fix your attention on that flame, and every time you think of something other than that flame, make a mark. And in five minutes you might have 500 marks, just depends on how quick your attention moves, but you just, when something distracts you, you release what it is, like the distraction, just release it. And I say something like, if that’s really important, it will come back to you later.


Powerful Eric: Right.


William: You know, that’s it. Instead of saying like, “get out of my house”, say, “if this is important, it’ll come back to me later”, and trust, believe me, it will, trust your mind, your subconscious mind. And then, you know, put your attention back on the flame, release or redirect yourself, release and redirect yourself. And then, after about a month or maybe even, it takes two to four weeks, quit using the piece of paper because that’d become a distraction. As you get more and more centered. And then, increase the time to 10 minutes after again, like after maybe a month or so. And then after two months or maybe three months, quit using the timer, you won’t need it, you have a very good feel for that 10-minute window. Do that every day for a year and it’ll change your life. It will change the way you think.


Powerful Eric: I actually did this, William had suggested, I’m not sure if this was one of your classes or you just told me about it, but William told me about this exercise. I did this in the basement here for almost a year. And it’s challenging at first because just to stay focused on that candle, once you do it after a while, you get into this really relaxed state. And, I found it very helpful.


William: He just suggesting it. I’ve done it so much. I just, you suggesting it made me breathe. I didn’t even, it was like a conditioned response. Yeah.

Powerful Eric: So, that is an example of meditation. And let’s talk about, this show isn’t just about breaking addictions. It’s about creating a great life. How can we use the law of attraction, not just to break the addiction, but to create the life that we’re excited about? How can we use the law of attraction?


William: You know what? You just did a beautiful seg-way to the next major point of my class, and that is the emotions. In the Secret, they talk about engaging your emotions. You want to– So, let’s say you’re visualizing the car again, I’m in the car, I am engaging my senses in my visualization, what it smells like, what it sounds like, what it feels like, what it looks like, and all that stuff. You have to feel good about the experience, and so, if you’re honest, if you have worked on this mindfulness aspect, and you’re able to be really honest, one of the examples that I gave– I find in my research, was a woman realized as she was trying to reduce her weight, that while the blocks, because you think you would think that reducing my weight, I would have nothing but positive outcomes. That my friends say, “oh gosh, Jane, you look great today, Blah Blah Blah, have you lost weight? blah, blah, blah”, you know, all those types of things.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


William: She said one of her fears was envy.


Powerful Eric: Wow. Now that would be a big stumbling block.


William: Dude, I know, it’s like that light bulb goes off, you know, and she said she had to get really honest about her feelings attached to what other people think.


Powerful Eric: You know what’s funny about that? I’ve recently, well over the past year, lost 40 pounds on purpose and I’ve used the law of attraction and visualization, all those things. There was one person I was thinking about, a friend of mine who’s very overweight and I actually did have that thought. It came to my mind that, “oh, I’m slimming down. I wonder how he’s going to feel about that. I don’t want to make him feel bad”, it was just a fleeting thought that it did come through my mind.

William: Can I tell you one of the tools I use for getting off of myself?


Powerful Eric: Please.


William: The four agreements.


Powerful Eric: Okay. I know the book.


William: Okay. So, a lot of people, again, a lot of my new age friends know the four agreements, have read the book or at least have studied the actual agreements. I’ll tell you what they are. Agreement number, this is from Ruiz was his first name, Don Miguel Ruiz, I think his name. So, the four agreements, one, be impeccable with your word. Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use The power of your word and the direction of truth and love.

Powerful Eric: Wow.

William: I know. Just imagine, just doing that one thing.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. You know, it’s been years since I read that book. Man, those are powerful.

William: They are, and he–what’s the word I’m looking for? He gives credit to the TOLTEC wisdom.


Powerful Eric: Can you read those again for us?


William: One, be impeccable with your word. This is just number one. Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

Powerful Eric: All that under just number one?


William: That is number one.


Powerful Eric: Oh my gosh. Wow.


William: Okay. Number two, don’t take anything personally. Nothing happens because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

Powerful Eric: Wow.


William: Now, so, the converse of that is also true, in that we project our crap on other people. It’s just a reality, you know, it’s– you can frame this in a lot of different ways, like in Psychology 101, it’s your basic defense mechanisms. Okay. Three, don’t make assumptions. Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life. I would say that about all, each of them.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. I mean, I’m thinking about the porn addiction stuff and being truthful and honest. Oh my gosh, you apply this to a porn addiction or sex addiction, man, cured.


William: Yeah. And what’s amazing is– and again it’s been said many different ways and in many different cultures and philosophies is, the layers that you find, you know. Okay, I’m just going to do agreement number one. My focus for the next 365 days is I’m going to be impeccable with my word and then you quickly realize how much you bullshit yourself. You quickly realize that, wait a minute, that’s not the whole truth.

Powerful Eric: That’s awesome. I’m going to get back out that book, that book is, I was amazing when I read it and need to apply it again.


William: Number four.


Powerful Eric: Okay.


William: Another one. Always do your best. Your best is going to change from moment to moment. It’ll be different when you’re healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best. You will– by that you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.


Powerful Eric: Fantastic.


William: Another point that I bring up in my class, if you don’t mind me just continuing. When we talk about the law of attraction and karma, it’s often presented as if we are being judged all the time as good and bad. Like, karma is like heaven and hell. Like, there’s this divine punishment or reward system. I don’t know how to say this other than saying it’s just simply not true. Okay? By the way I understand the universe, and what I’ve learned in my experiences, it’s not true. And my full truth is, I was raised Catholic. All right? So, I was raised with the “you have to destinations, heaven or hell”.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, me too.


William: You got to be good. Try this on.


Powerful Eric: Okay.


William: There is no judge. One common misunderstanding is the implication, there is some force keeping tabs on us, judging us and then delivering us our experiences as either some sort of punishment or reward. I do believe there’s some sort of force that transcends our physical reality. Something that we will never have the full capacity to understand. But, I fully believe this entity is nothing but pure love, devoid of any sort of judgment. No matter what we do, it only sees our true nature, our perfection. Judgment is purely the purview of humans.

Powerful Eric: God knows I judge myself.


William: Right. And that’s why, one thing that led me to this, is authors like Marianne Williamson and Caroline Mace, and I think about them, I get emotional because, they’re to me, they are the two of the truly wise people that are still alive. Carolyn Mace, is MYSS, she wrote one of my favorite books called Anatomy of the Spirit and Marianne Williamson, who’s wrote a ton of books, she focuses a lot on like prayer and, I forgot what was, what was her big? Course in miracles, I think is her thing. But, the word that’s implied by this paragraph is not said, is forgiveness. Now, I’m going to tell you right now, from readings I have, from my own experiences, my own insight meditation, so on, and even more palpable readings I do for other people, is the big hang-up of humanity is not being able to forgive ourselves.


Powerful Eric: Amen to that.


William: I fully believe this force is set up to work for us, not against us. And as much as is able to support us, it cannot defy our vibration. It reminds me of what a Deborah used to say, a teacher we have in common named Deborah said, many times my spirit guides have dragged me kicking and screaming to my greater good. Like, but that’s not really true because your spirit guides can’t make you do something. It’s funny vision, but your spirit guides can’t make you do something and, God or whatever the universe is made up of cannot defy your will.


Powerful Eric: And for those that are not familiar with the term so much as you could just say, angels in place of that right word.


William: Okay. It’s delivers us experiences based on what are putting out there. It has no choice. To me, the universe, the best analogy I can find on earth is like a computer that it only gives back what you put into it.


Powerful Eric: And that’s what we’re talking about is the law of attraction.


William: Right.

Powerful Eric: What is this? There was a story you said in one of your classes, about Socrates and the story–what’s, tell them the story, that story.


William: One day a man rushed up the Socrates saying, “I have some news to tell you”. Socrates put up his hand to stop the excited man, “First let me ask three questions”. Okay, so the man, “is the news you’re about to tell me something you personally know to be true?”, “Well, no”, replied the man, “I heard it from a good source though”. “Let’s go to the second question”, Socrates said, “is the news you want to tell me, about someone you know personally?”, “Well, not really, but I think you know the person”. “I see”, said Socrates. “Let me ask you my final question. Is this news positive or negative?”, “Well, it’s negative.”. “I see”, said Socrates, “you want to tell me some news that you don’t know personally may be true about someone you don’t know at all, that is negative?”. “Well, when you say it like that, it sounds kind of bad.”. “I think I’ll pass”, Socrates said.


Powerful Eric: I love that story for some reason.


William: Because this story is put in its class to help illustrate, imagine Socrates and the man are really two parts of you.


Powerful Eric: Right.


William:  And do you believe your stories you tell yourself? You know, when I gave that little talk yesterday, I gave the example of my personal life of by today’s standards, I was raised, what would today be considered a terribly abusive home. Okay. Terribly abusive.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


William: Like, you know, cops would have been called. And so, I grew up basically thinking there was something wrong with me. I thought, you know, I was stupid, I couldn’t do anything right, things like that.


Powerful Eric: Self-deprecating thoughts.


William: Self-deprecating. And so, I am 51, so the past, you know, about 32 years had been spent departing and reprogramming that. Changing the input.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


William: So, let’s bring that back to the law of attraction. Joe Vitale, who’s one of the speakers in the Secret calls that, the law of unconscious counter intentions. So, that comes back to the idea of what the subconscious and the conscious mind. So, like I have my vision board, or I have, you know, what I don’t want. And, I focus, focus, focus on it, but I’m only engaging the conscious mind. I’m not engaging in the other like 70%. So, that’s when sabotage comes up.


Powerful Eric: Right.


William: I sabotage myself and it doesn’t take internal Sherlock Holmes, you know, you have to be like a great investigator to look back and say, “oh my gosh, I see now how I set myself up for failure”.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


William: Easily, you know?


Powerful Eric: Absolutely.

William: It makes sense?


Powerful Eric: It does. William, thank you so much for being here again and enlightening us and myself about the law of attraction and action. William, how can listeners get a hold of you?

William: Oh, they can call or text my phone number (314) 403-4744. They can find me on Facebook as a Happy Mediumwill. That’s the first name, Happy, last name, Mediumwill. On my website,

Powerful Eric: Awesome. Well thanks again for being here. Thanks for listening to Porn Talk. Again, the purpose of the show is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems, and I like to always close with a quote from Zig Ziglar who says, “you are designed for accomplishment. You are engineered for success, and you are endowed with the seeds of greatness”. Stay powerful, friends. Goodbye.


Outro: Thanks for listening. If you’re struggling with porn or sex addiction, then contact or call (314) 717-0377 for a free, no obligation consultation. You are powerful.

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From Suicide to Success

Craig Perra was addicted and moved from suicide to success.

Narrator: Welcome to Porn Talk with Powerful Eric.  End the porn habit. Reclaim your power.  Powerful Eric has been in 12 step Programs for almost 20 years with little success. Then one day he stumbled on the science of mindfulness to combat addictions. Powerless Eric died, and Powerful Eric was born. Learn from Eric’s mistakes and get empowered. Now, let’s join Powerful Eric.

Powerful Eric: Welcome to Porn Talk, this is Powerful Eric. The purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power, but it’s not just about breaking. addictions are about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains. Break the chains, get empowered now. Our guest today is my friend and mentor Craig Para Craig is world renowned for transforming the lives of people who struggle with compulsive behavior and sex and porn addiction with success stories and clients in over 20 countries and six continents. Craig has made his mark as the top coach for professionals, executives, musicians, personalities, professional athletes, and men in need fast results and changes for the sake of their sexuality and relationships. Craig has been featured on a number of international media outlets, including the Katie Kirk show, the Steve Harvey Show and lifetime TV. He has a passion for Yoga and as a Yoga instructor in Roseville, California. Help me welcome my friend and mentor Craig Para. Welcome Craig.

Craig: Oh, thank you Eric so much for that kind introduction, so honored and privileged to be here, brother. I look forward to this talk.

Powerful Eric: Great. And as you know, last week, your wife, Craig’s wife Michelle, was on the show last week and she really was great. So, if you guys have missed that show, be sure to go back and listen to that, and she told, Michelle, told us just a teeny bit of Craig’s story, but Craig, can you share some of your story with the listening audience?

Craig: Sure, so, mine is you know, the classic case of a man, unable to deal with his trauma, is past, and two parts of me, all my life, I’ve had these two parts. One was this successful athletic, growing up class president, this part. And then there’s other parts starting at a very young age when I was exposed to pornography by an older neighborhood boy who use porn to touch me, for many years, this other side, this dark secret for most of my life, I was able to keep that dark, secret, secret and hid it from my family, hid it from my friends, hid it from, my now wife Michelle, who you guys heard from last week. And what were those secrets? It was secret porn use, pornography, adult bookstores and prostitutes and affairs. And so, I just move my family to California about 9,10 years ago to take a new job. This was the second job that I was fired from, in 12 months. I was an executive at a billion company, lost that job, became another executive at another billion-dollar company and moved my family across country for that job. Hated that job, knew that this wasn’t my future, it was terrifying. So, instead of dealing with it like an adult, I threw myself off the cliff. I went on a self-destructive drug fueled bender with prostitutes, a trans escort, and just sunk so low, I ended up getting fired, which is what I, part of me wanted to happen. I’ve since realized and found myself in an inpatient Rehab Facility for three days, one of the loneliest three days of my life after trying to kill myself, snorting bath salts and that was rock bottom. And that was, you know, either live or die and I chose a to live and fortunately that’s worked out very well for me.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. Thanks for sharing your story. One of your quotes that I absolutely love, it’s probably my favorite quote of yours is “The cure for this affliction is the aggressive pursuit of a great life”. Can you tell the listening audience what you mean by that?

Craig: Sure, and this is one of those quotes that depending upon when you hear it, either it inspires or it, promote resentment. Right? There are people who hear that same quote, “The cure for this affliction is the aggressive pursuit of a great life”. And their first reaction and bullshit, thanks for telling me nothing. You’re, you know, click-bait, marketing, tomfoolery, and just to bring it back to my story arc, because a number of things coalesced at that low point. And while I don’t recommend a bender to anybody, I will tell you this, when you’ve got no place to go but up and your life is at that low point is an incredible opportunity to transform. So, this is for you guys. Listen, you can transform without jumping off the cliff, but if you’re there, know that you will get through it. And if you do the right things, you’ll come to it stronger. You’ll come through it better. So, I’m at this low point and I’m a have to make a decision. Where am I going to put my eggs in, in what basket, am I going to do the 12 steps again? Am I going to see a therapist again? Maybe, I didn’t deep, dig deep enough, you know, maybe like almost two decades of therapy then didn’t bring me back to that core wound. Maybe, I didn’t go to enough meetings. And so, it’s at around this time, two things came into my life from there very quickly, followed by a third. The first is I discovered this website called fight to “Feed the right wolf”, which I now own, which I think is awesome, but there’s wonderful man named Alex created this website, “Feed the right wolf”, based upon this native American tale that there are two wolves inside us. Good, evil, which wolf wins? The one you feed. Okay, so, that, like that. And that came at the same time with this, “Break a habit, make a habit”. And I was unemployed. I had a lot of free time on my hands to figure out how I’m going to put my life back together. And the combination of those two things, you know, led to this behavior change system that I’ve created, that’s changed the lives of thousands of people. But it started at this moment where I realized that my success and not doing the thing was a function of something else. And so, then I started to read about recovery stories, but I skipped every chapter. I went right to the end and went right to the end of all these success stories. People who have recovered from drugs, from alcohol, from sex, from porn, whatever their compulsion was. And the end of every one of those stories was someone pursuing a great life. There is no mediocrity when you get to understand what’s really driving this numbing coping and escaping behavior average. Okay. Mediocre Malays it’s unacceptable. So, that statement is a fact.


Powerful Eric: It is unacceptable, and that’s a thing like when I hear, I don’t know when I hear just the word recovery, it’s like, you know, that doesn’t exist either.


Craig: Kind of like, I kind of like, bristle Eric the same way you do. You know, when we’re operating in this world where people naturally, you know, for a whole variety of different reasons, quickly, you know, define their behaviors, compulsive or an addiction. And I’m an addiction, and then when you’re an addiction, you’re in recovery. And, I can get with a, you know, a period of stabilization, you know, after some significant crisis in someone’s life, I can understand that recovery, but the notion of it being this lifelong, state of running away from your addiction is just preposterous.

Powerful Eric: It is. I would much rather aggressive, aggressively pursue a great life.


Craig: It changes the mindset, it has used solution centric, there’s a number of layers to that very simple statement that a very profound, and again, some of you men and women listening to this right now, will hear that the cure for your affliction is the aggressive pursuit of a great life and that may repel you, that may, you know, cause you to question my credibility. And I want you to remember this moment because I promise you when you’re ready to receive that, reality, your life will change, and you’ll come back and say, shit, no, that was my projection onto what Craig and Eric were talking about versus it being a fact, because it’s a fact. It’s a fact, Derek. Like it is a cornerstone on which I live my life. I’m in one of two places. I’m on the right track and I’m on the wrong track. And they were going to be places when you’re on the wrong track, your kids get sick. Your commitments get in the way of your self-care, someone dies, things go wrong at work, you know, problem after problem after problem. But knowing that I’m in that place, if I’m in, an Ed that’s prompts action to get me back into that aggressive pursuit of a great life because that’s what’s necessary to lift the mediocrity Malays and under achievements that’s suffocating these men who have lost themselves and pixels who are literally a slave to that, you know, or orgasm, you know, second of satisfaction to math, fear and pain and then adequacy.
Powerful Eric: Yeah. Well let’s talk about really quick, was it working? Maybe a low point in your life.

Craig: So, there are a number of moments when I look back that just have me shaking my head and like, what kind of world was I living in? And one of the places that I used to go and have all the things I’ve admitted publicly, this still makes me uncomfortable is the adult bookstores. And for those of you who do not know, do not go, it is the place where man go to die. And they are these shady stores with these boots that you can go into the slip money into a machine to masturbate. The room stinks, there’s semen on the floor. I mean it is disgusting, it is absolutely disgusting. But one moment that just to share with you guys to bring a little bit of levity, to get you thinking about your behavior without all this shame and judgment. There was one time when I was one time, so, the walkout, walking in is easy one because the mind is in that addictive state. It’s in that compulsive drive, it’s then you know that that addict part of you is, it was driving me. So, you’re not thinking about who’s looking, that there are cameras, that you know there could be a news crew filming the place. Like, you’re not thinking about you, so you can see someone that you know, you’re in the zone. So, I’m in the zone, so boom, I get in, I spend my whatever I spent wasted money to. And by the way, this isn’t an arrow of cell phones by the way. You know, like I’m watching paying to watch porn in an adult video store, when we have the power of cell phone, that’s how banged up I was. And so, I’m walking out, and my feet hit a patch and like the movie theater, the floors are disgusting, and you know what’s on the floor and my feet start kicking out from underneath me, like in the cartoon and I can hear the squeaking, and I am ready to fall down flat on my ass. Everybody’s looking now, the three people that were in the store. So, I’ve never been more humiliated. And I grabbed on to the videos that were holding up and it was, I remember looking over and seeing just a big penis, in this video, and I’m about to fall into this big pool of come and finally stabilizing myself, collected myself, and walked outside drowning in shame. Like literally just like, what am I doing? And of course, how do we respond to that? We act out some more, and I’m sure I found a way to numb, cope and escape from that shame. But that was absolutely, one of the low points towards the end that, I looked back on and shake my head and say, what the hell were you thinking? But, listen, I mean, listen, that Eric, that was something I had done since I was 16 years old. I’ve been going to adult video stores since I was 16. Other kids got fake IDs to buy booze. I got fake IDs to go buy porn.


Powerful Eric: Wow.


Craig: And you go to these shady places, there’s all sorts of shenanigans going on. And I dabbled in that too. I mean, it is a dark, lonely place. And, you know, for your, for you guys out there with just watching porn, you know, I had a client once they’re at any, he took a picture itself, you know, in the position, right? The slouched over position. You know, I was sitting in his desk chair. He was fully clothed when he took the picture, but he wanted to see what he looked like and he wanted to like get a land from the outside looking in. And that became his shameful moment when he saw how weak his posturing was, he saw how pathetic it was. He saw how much time he spent in that position instead of this position, you know, creating something, building something, living a great life. So, you know, let those shame moments be teachers.

Powerful Eric: Yeah, and I wanted you to share that story for the guys that think that, oh, you know, I’m hopeless. There’s no hope for me. And I want them to hear just a small part of your story on how far and you’ve got, I know a lot of other stories as well, so thanks for sharing that.


Craig: Yeah, you’re welcome.


Powerful Eric: And I wanted to, while we’re on this down part of it, what would you say from all your experience, what does not work to help people overcome addictions?

Craig: Yeah, so, this is, you know, here we are on this porn addiction podcast is compulsive behavior podcasts. And what doesn’t work is obsessively focusing on not doing the thing. So, for a lot of people, how they interpret that disease-based modality, they go to the meetings, people share their failures, very few successes shared

Powerful Eric: Well, I know it very well I’ve been going to 12 step meetings for 20 years but go ahead.

Craig: Yeah, so, you know, now listen, that doesn’t mean that there aren’t meetings out there that are helping people and that connection that the men form, but as a modality it doesn’t work and the data’s actually pretty poor. So, obsessively focusing on not doing the thing is what’s keeping men stuck because they’re not aligning their action with the golden rule of behavior modification, and that’s the break a habit you have to make a habit and that make a habit part forces you to focus on other areas of your life like self-care, living, your life’s purpose, your career, finances, health, hobbies, relationships and spirituality. You have goals, you have a vision, you have a plan to get there. And by the way, all of those things you’re doing are meeting means in your life. See the problem with obsessively focusing on not doing the thing, what people lose sight of is that this behavior is doing something for you. And I’ll share with you really quick a new exercise that I give to people, and that new exercise is they have to write down all the positive attributes of their compulsive behavior. What do you mean positive attributes? My wife’s ready to leave me. No bullshit. You do it every day. What’s it doing for you? Well, okay, well maybe it’s helping me escape. Oh good. And that first word turns into this, you know, five or 10 item list of positive attributes that, that behavior has meaning in their lives. It’s doing something, it’s serving a purpose. It has been serving a purpose for decades in many cases. So, what purpose is it serving? How do you get those needs met in a healthy, constructive way? That is the only way you’re going to create long term success in your life. Oh, and by the way, this issue takes care of itself. Not, doesn’t that, listen, everybody’s different. If you’re like me and you’re like, you know some other guys out there where you know, the level of sexual healing that needs to occur between each man is different. So, for some that sexual health piece is higher for some men, lower for others, but for all men, for every client that I’ve ever worked with, sexual health is secondary, that’s the symptom.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Craig: That’s the symptom, So, you know that speaks volumes to me that’s like, and I have been screaming from the rooftops, is you’ve got to change the approach that you’re taking. And then people come in, they watch this video and they’re like, oh my God, my mind was blown. It shouldn’t be that way, Eric. They peoples shouldn’t be learning this stuff from the life coach.


Powerful Eric: Craig, that reminds me of a story I told you that the 12 step meetings that I had done 90 meetings in 90 days and you were like, you’re like, that’s sucks 90 meetings in 90 days. He said, why don’t you do like, why don’t you try to do a yoga pose a day for 90 days or something like that. And I did that and that was just so refreshing rather than focusing every day on this, this affliction to change my focus over doing a yoga pose for 90 days.

Craig: I mean, can you imagine a was, I remember that conversation because it’s one I’ve had often with a lot of people. Can you imagine if you took that two-hour block, right? Because you’ve got to get to the meeting, you’ve got to get back from the meeting. You’ve got the meeting itself, hour and 10 minutes, hour and 15 minutes. 90 meetings in 90 days. If you took that block and you went to Yoga class, you got a personal trainer and you know, like fed yourself and did what you needed to do to be, you went to the gym during that time, in 90 days, you’re a different person, you were transformed.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, absolutely, very different outcome. Craig, you’ve helped thousands of people literally around the globe on X number of continents. What would you consider all your experience? What are the common elements to guys that are successful in the program?

Craig: Sure, great question and it’s very important. Number one, there’s a motivation. There is this realization, that as long as they’ve tried to ignore it, and as long as they’ve been fighting with their partner about it, as long as they’ve tried to stuff it down, they come to this realization that they are living a crappy life. And that reality, that awakening to that reality, whether you’re a sex addict or not a sex addict, let people have that debate like you, my question I ask is, are you healthy? And the realization when they’re not is that motivation is critical, for at least success in my program. You know, this isn’t, my program isn’t, you know, coddle you along until you’re ready. That’s not what this is, now some people need that initial support. Maybe they’d better go to a therapist. Maybe they’ve got to acclimate to themselves, to the realities of what’s really going on in their lives. But motivation is important. That’s fundamental, the second related to that motivation is an internal belief system that you are in fact under achievement. So, you have to be motivated. You can be motivated and, and not believe that your life is worth more than that. And so, that’s someone else we want to exclude from the program. This reality that they are under achieving that they have, they’ve got more, you know, cylinders to fire, you know, more fuel in the take to burn. That is critically important to long term success. The third attribute is that someone is looking for results quickly. I like to set that expectation, Eric. You know, the way we structure things, of course at the mindful habit, there’s a 30-day money back guarantee. I liked that. I liked that pressure. People pay me for results. They don’t pay me to hold their hands and sing Kumbaya, and you know, and ask them how they feel. I mean I’m going to ask you how you feel, but it better come with a bunch of other tools, teachings and techniques that are going to move you forward. So, the combination of those three attributes equals success in my program.

Powerful Eric: Awesome. What would you say to someone that is listening right now, that is really lost or feeling hopeless? They’re listening to you and saying, you know this too well to be true. It’s just liked the other programs. You know, I’ve been in 12 step programs, and seen a therapist, what would you, what would you tell that person?

Craig: I would tell them to get on the phone and call you., because that’s what I would tell him to get coach Eric on the case. And, the reason why you want coach Eric on the case, because there is hope. There’s hope, this the gift, right? Like you’re going to come out of this, you, person’s struggling. Listen, right now, you’re going to come out of this saying, you know, I wish I didn’t hurt anybody in the process, but I am grateful for the gifts that this failure has given me. Because one of the key things that needs to change is your relationship with failure. Can you find the gift in it? So, just know that you with the right tools, teachings and techniques can create significant change in your life if you’re willing to work. And so, when you’re at that low point, when you’re at that low point, when you listen, some people have trouble getting out of bed. There’s depression on top of this, there’s an anxiety on top of this, there’s obesity on top of this, and addiction of sugar on top of this, and a terrible relationship with technology on top of this, you guys got this real narrow view of what you think your problem is. It’s so much bigger than that and if you just right now get a drink of water, eat something healthy, exercise for 60 seconds, begin to start to prioritize self-care and take action and you will not only see that hope, you will embrace that hope. You will realize that hope and you will look back on this low point as you can’t wish it didn’t happen. You know the way I say it is I wish I didn’t have to hurt anybody in the process, but I am grateful for the lessons that my compulsive sexual behavior has taught me and all of my compulsive behaviors. I’m grateful for those lessons. Without those experience, without those traumas, without being touched as a kid, without being exposed to porn as a kid, without having the other challenges that I did have as a child, I wouldn’t be here and I’m in a great place because of those challenges. In spite of them.


Powerful Eric:  Right, as you say, failure equals opportunity.


Craig:  I do say that because it’s true, and you know guys who are slipping, right? They, oh, I slept and here’s what happens. They feel bad about themselves. They shame themselves. Then they’ve got a numb cope and escape from that shame and they slip again. You fall down, you get back up. I don’t want to oversimplify it, but I want to over simplify it. When you fall down, you get back up. Just know that, that chronic self-deprecation is the problem, and the belief systems that support it, that is the problem, break that cycle.


Powerful Eric: Yeah. That’s self-deprecation, that was a big thing for me. I know for 20 years I was saying, hi, my name is Eric. I’m a sexaholic and it was completely counter-intuitive. To what I was learning, like I’m really big into self-development and personal development. And so, I was listening to people like Tony Robbins and Brian Tracy, things like that. I’m learning all these great things. And then on my, on the addiction side, I’m being told the opposite things and I’m saying that, hi, I’m Eric, I’m a sexaholic and it just wasn’t working for me. So, that’s what was so refreshing about your program. There wasn’t any of that. None of the labels at all.

Craig: Yeah, I’m so privileged and blessed. Eric, you know the thing, coach Adrian on the team just got his master’s in Clinical Psychology. George just published a book. You’ve got this podcast, you know what certified mindful habit coach. You’ve got clients that are just saying amazing things about you. And it’s just such a privilege from my viewpoint because I remember like I met these guys at that low point. I remember how low they were and to see out there helping people and changing lives, Eric is just, you know, warms my heart in ways you can’t imagine. I’m so proud of you.

Powerful Eric: Well thank you very much, now I’m thinking back, I mean, gosh, it’s been years now. It’s kind of surreal here that were on this show Porn Talk. I’ve come a long way, but the credit really, I mean is to you and the program. So, man thank you so much. And your wife Michelle for starting the blog that kind of started this whole thing. So, wow. I mean, you know, thank you.

Craig: A honor and a privilege, my friend, truly am.

Powerful Eric: Well Craig, thanks for being on the show, but can you tell everyone how can they get a hold of you?

Craig:  Sure, so, first off, if you’re looking for help and you connect with Coach Eric has we say, you reach out to coach Eric. If you want to find me, my website is there is a one-hour free training that I have up there that you can download. There is a quiz that you can take that looks at your behavior from an impact perspective. You’ll find it right in the top menu bar and there’s a way to sign up for our free private secret Facebook group. We’ve got a great community of men supporting each other. Those are guys who either don’t need or aren’t willing to make that next level of commitment to the group coaching program and a great bunch of guys. So, the mindful will get you what you need.

Powerful Eric: All right, well, Craig, thanks again. I don’t know, I feel kind of humbled now that I feel like I’ve come full circle, now I’m helping hopefully thousands of people recover as well and create a great life and to create a great life.

Craig: Healthy sexuality and a great life brother. Those two goals are interminably intertwined, meaning they, you can’t separate them, they’re too closely connected. Stop with the goal of not doing something. Focus on those two areas. Go where you want to go, and your life will change. And thank you so much for having me, Eric. Thank you so much for your vulnerability and your willingness to put yourself out there and share your story. And I just know, I mean, I know, I literally know personally how many people you’re helping. So, keep up the great work

Powerful Eric: Will do. And I would like to close with this quote from Zig Ziglar who says, “You are designed for accomplishment., you are engineered for success, and you are endowed with the seeds of greatness”. Stay powerful friends.

Narrator: Thanks for listening, if you’re struggling with porn or sex addiction, then contact or call (314) 717-0377 for a free, no obligation consultation. You are powerful.

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Wife of Sex Addict Speaks

Michelle Perra – Appeared on Anderson Cooper

Powerful Eric: Welcome to Porn Talk, this is Powerful Eric. The purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power, but this is not just about breaking addictions. It’s about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed in societal chains, break the chains, get empowered now. My next guest is my friend Michelle Perra. Michelle has appeared on Anderson Cooper; the Katy Couric show and has been featured in Bella magazine. Her life is helping people connect with a life they know deep down inside is possible. Her personal story has touched millions and is living proof that a woman and couple can survive and even thrive, during tough times and come out stronger and closer than ever. She says that she became a coach to help sex addicts after her husband got hooked on porn and prostitutes. Through her kind and inspirational approach, Michelle empowers and motivates men, women and couples to create the incredible life that they truly want to live. Help me welcome Michelle Perra. Welcome Michelle.
Michelle Perra: Thank you very much. It’s great to be here.

Powerful Eric: Great. I’m glad you’re here. Can you tell the listening audience a little bit more about yourself and how you got into all this?


Michelle Perra: Craig and I were college sweethearts and we have been married about 20 years now, we celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary this year.


Powerful Eric: Congratulations.


Michelle Perra: Thank you. But that celebration came from a lot of struggles and challenges and, wonderful times and some really terrible times. So, Craig has always the mindful habit or, you know, our program, our system was really born out of Craig’s major challenges and he likes to say his failures. And I would have to agree with that, but I like to talk a little more positive and say his challenges. So, really, I guess what had happened, we moved out to California, Craig lost his mind, that was it. He imploded and, lost his job, ended up in an inpatient rehab facility, and it was absolutely awful, wanted to kill himself, he was so depressed and so messed up. And you know, his addictions, his challenges were really sex, porn, drugs, lots of them, alcohol, not as much, but socially, definitely. So, anyway, lost his mind, ends up in an inpatient, has no job. We just moved out to California. I don’t work. We have two kids, young kids, and my world was just rocked. And I would think that what got me into it because, really, I started the whole thing, by my blog, which I don’t really update anymore. But, he was an inpatient and I went to them, I said, “okay, well what do I do?”. So, they just gave me a pamphlet for codependents anonymous and I was like, “are you kidding me?”. So, the assumption that I’m codependent because I’m with an addict, really offended me. Not that some people aren’t, not that we all don’t have some codependent tendencies, right? Because as humans we really do, and that’s reality. But just to label someone because you’re with an addict, you are codependent and you are messed up, just really didn’t sit with me well. So, I was really frustrated. So, then I went out and I researched other ways to help yourself. And then I came up with the trauma model, right? Which was first, I was like, “oh my God, this is so wonderful”. But as a partner, it just kept me getting stuck in that place of, that place of “I’m a victim, I’m a victim”. And that didn’t work either. So, I decided I wanted to save the world and I started a blog just to get my voice out there. And, it was actually pretty popular at one point. And people would contact me, and they wanted help and they’re like, “oh my God, your struggles and what you’re going through and how you’re coming out of it, I’m connecting with that so much.”. And so, it was at that point that Craig kind of wanted to be a life coach, and that was interesting. I was like, “okay”. And then through my blog, I got contacted by Anderson Cooper, the show, to go on the show. So, that’s kind of how the whole thing started. And then the Mindful Habit was born from there and it just got bigger and bigger. And we’ve just helped a lot of people, and so it’s been–

Powerful Eric: Yeah. I know you’ve helped a lot of people because I’m one of them, I am now a certified Mindful Habit coach under the Mindful Habit system so, I can’t even put into words, thank you so much because I never heard, I mean, I’ve heard your story, but not in the way you’ve just said it now. So, it’s got to be, I would imagine it’s got to feel really good that you took those lemons and made lemonade and now you’ve helped thousands of people literally around the globe. How does that feel?


Michelle Perra: It’s really amazing because we were in a really dark place. So, just picture this, so, it’s my nature to make lemons out if lemonade. I mean, that’s just my nature anyway. So, it is easier for me, right? Because, I’m not codependent, I’ll tell you that, I’m not passive, I just, I take a situation and I figure it out, always. But, you know, Craig is having this love affair with somebody else, he loses his job, wants nothing to do with his family, okay? We have no money, and I remember the person that we called to get help and Craig’s counselor was a little different. He wasn’t the traditional 12-step, oh, and also, we, 12-step, Craig’s life, 12-step never worked. He was in 12-step counseling, therapy and it never worked, and it would help for a little bit, but then it just never worked. And he would always keep going back to his addictive compulsive behavior. So, anyway, we are in this dark place, and this guy didn’t do 12-step or–it was just very untrad– it was just different. So, I have to drive him an hour and 45 minutes to get him help, okay? Each way, with these young kids. And so, we’re in the space and I literally, and I’m just giving the backstory, so I can tell you how it feels. I literally was so stressed out, like my legs were numb. I couldn’t feel like from my knees down, I was having a real physiological response.
Powerful Eric: Oh my gosh.


Michelle Perra: Yes. I’ve got bursitis in my arms and my legs. I couldn’t move them, it was just physically a toll, I had two young kids. I mean, Craig was literally insane. He wanted to buy a duplex for him and he was having an affair with a transsexual porn star and he wanted to buy a duplex and they were going to live on one side and me and the kids on the other. So, that’s what I was dealing with, okay?
Powerful Eric: Wow.


Michelle Perra: But mind you, I didn’t work and so I needed him to get on his feet and get a job so then I can go live my life and he could live his, okay?


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Michelle Perra: So, and I guess the story there is when we’re driving so far, and we learned a lot and we started communicating, right? We just kind of learned a different way and started healing that way. But my point is, in that time, I was so stressed out and then he starts getting better and we’re kind of healing, I still don’t know that I’m a hundred percent staying, but I’m here, we’re healing. He is much, he’s healthy at this point. And then he says to me, “I want to be a life coach”. And I’m like, “oh my God, really? You don’t have a job, you can’t pay your bills and you want to be a life coach? That’s so lovely, it’s so wonderful.”. I don’t know what to do with that. But then at the same time, what are you going to be the dream squasher? And be like, “no, you have to work.”? And I guess you could but, watching him be miserable in corporate America for so long because Craig’s a little different, he’s creative, he’s unique, he’s amazing at the things, when he wants to do something. So, what was I going to do? What was I going to say? He’s like, “I want to help the world. I was so messed up and I did so many awful things. I need to– I want to make this right and I want to help other men keep their marriages, keep, you know, like stay married, not leave their kids”. So, what was I going to say? I was like, “okay.”. So, I started my blog because I was frustrated and all this stuff and then to see where that was and the place we were at and how low we were and how scared I was when he was like, “I’m going to be a life coach and I’m going to make– support us on that”, to now and where it’s built and how many families have been saved by us and how many men, Craig is like, helping be the best men they can be and the best version of themselves. I mean, it’s just, honestly, there’s nothing better than to know that you are helping, because that’s why I started my blog, to help. Even though I don’t do it anymore, I’m not really coaching so much because I run the back-end of the business. But to know that, that little blog started this whole thing, it’s amazing that how low and dark we were. We can be at the place we are now and be an inspiration for everybody else. It’s awesome.

Powerful Eric: That’s incredible. That’s an incredible story. Obviously, that was your lowest point. Tell me, what’s your highest point?


Michelle Perra: And I can’t pinpoint a highest point.

Powerful Eric: Let me help. Because I saw online, a photo of Craig at a wedding ceremony, there was a couple that was getting remarried.

Michelle Perra: That was amazing.

Powerful Eric: Yeah. Tell us about that.

Michelle Perra: Well, this couple had come to the Mindful Habit and they were in a bad place and through the Mindful Habit system, and I’ll tell you what’s really cool about this story too, through the Mindful Habit system and all the coaches, because they’re in the group coaching program. So, they work with everybody and they are at the place where they were renewing their 10 year wedding anniversary and they said, they came to Craig and asked if he would officiate the ceremony because they felt that the Mindful Habit system and Craig and the coach– that their marriage was saved because of the program and the work that they did and the transformational change that had developed through the program. And what was so cool is, they kept saying its new marriage, same spouse. So, it wasn’t like, “oh, a relationship”. It was a clear recognition that things had to be different, and we’re remarrying each other, but this time it’s different. It’s a new marriage. And that’s kind of what we say. Like when people are at these really, really low points and you know, the partners are like, “how could anything, I will never recover. I mean, I’m destroyed. I can’t move on. How can I ever trust again? Or how can I ever be in this relationship again?”. My instinct was to say the neat thing, but the neat thing about crisis, rock bottom, something that just can’t keep going on the way it’s going, it’s destructive, t’s bad. If you look at those things as opportunities and challenges and see where you can be different, where things need to be done differently on both sides, right?


Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Michelle Perra: And obviously on the man’s side, lots needs to be done different. That’s true, right? But on the partner’s side, there is a dynamic that we bring through our fears and insecurities and challenges and traumas and whatever it is, you know, and that’s why we also have our partner program because there’s growth that we as partners need to do. And when that’s done together, it really can be this new, amazing, wonderful thing. And the interesting thing is that without that crisis, you may never have took the time to work on yourselves, to the point where you’ve grown to where you are. So, I like to say sometimes, and it sounds awful, like I don’t think I would change anything, even though I wouldn’t want to go through it again. Like, it really was awful, at times, like, really. I wouldn’t want to go through it again. But at the same time, if things were different, we wouldn’t be where we are.


Powerful Eric: I totally hear what you’re saying, that that adversity actually made you guys stronger. It reminds me of a story I heard about a bodybuilder and he was asked, you know, how did you sculpt this body? And it was by, his answer was by going up against tremendous resistance, you know, tremendous resistance, every day. And so, that adversity is that resistance, and I love what you also said about, you know, turning those perceived failures and opportunities, and also, I like what you said about the marriage. How did you say, the new–?


Michelle Perra: New marriage, same spouse.


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Michelle Perra: That was their, like tagline and they said, “we don’t want to do, renewing our vows, because this is a new marriage” and it was amazing. And so, when they emailed Craig and said, “we want you to officiate because we owe this to you”. It was like, “Whoa, that’s amazing.”. Or you know what another high point is? When you read, like when people review the program and when you read it and you read how much it has helped, our program. You know, Craig, and me, I downplay me, but no, and me, how it’s helped people. And now, what I find is really cool too, is okay, so you’ve got the men’s program, the addict program, and that’s been around a long time. Over the past year, we developed a specific partner empowerment program. And to watch these women heal in different ways, to watch them focus on their own growth and where they can do better for themselves and not just be reactive to their husbands’ challenges and whether you stay or go, there’s that growth that needs to be done. So, to watch these women do that and to watch, you know, what else is so super cool? I just have to say this and I just, when you said high point, actually I know for me what has been so awesome, when I hear him on the group coaching calls with the women, the partners, I hear him supporting them and empathizing with them in a way that he didn’t give me at the time, ever. Now is different, but at the time I just sometimes I get choked up because I’m like, “wow, that is so cool.”. Because when I was looking for help, I, it was nice to hear from a man who had gone through it and now is better. Like I liked hearing from women, but I wanted the man to say, “yes, I was– I did things wrong, but now I can do things different, and this is how I do”. There was something powerful about hearing from the guy as well. And the women I think do enjoy hearing from Craig and our other coach Tara. But there’s this power in Craig and when I hear him being so supportive of them in such an awesome way, I’m always like, it just recently, it’s just meant a lot. And it’s interesting, it’s almost like a next phase of healing that trauma that like I had gone through that I’m totally, I’m okay with it. I’m at a totally different point, but there’s this extra level of healing that has happened recently that’s been just, I would say that’s one of my high points because it just makes me feel so good because I started all of this to support the women. You know what I mean?


Powerful Eric: It’s incredible because it all started from your blog.


Michelle Perra: Yeah. And you know what? It’s really basic and that was probably in 2011. Yeah. When I started it and my blog spurred me going on the Anderson Cooper show.

Powerful Eric: Tell us about that, tell us how was the experience going on Anderson Cooper on national, I’d say, well CNN really is international, to tell the world about how your–

Michelle Perra: I don’t think it was on, it wasn’t on CNN because it was his talk show, it wasn’t his news show. So, he had a talk show at one point. It was very popular. It was like the Katy Couric show, it was very popular.


Powerful Eric: Okay, so national television. So, you’re going on national television to interview on a TV show.


Michelle Perra: And mind you, it was at the very beginning. So, one of the big things in this space is, you know this, is being open, being honest, letting people in, letting them know my husband is a sex and porn addict and has, you know, had sex with not one or two hookers, prostitutes. You know, letting them know all the awful things my husband did and why I’m still there, right? It’s just a whole, anybody listening I’m sure can completely empathize. It’s terrifying. It’s awful. You know, you fear the judgement, you fear the view on your kids, you fear rejection from your family and you fear the people just, “why you staying? Why would you do this? Why would you do that?”. The telling you what to do. I mean, it’s terrifying. So, when I was asked to do it, it was a big decision whether or not I decided to do it. I remember saying, “Oh my God, it’s going to be on TV.”. And I had to call now. So, I’m from the east coast, we’re in California, Anderson Cooper is taping in New York. I can’t go to New York and not tell my family and I mean, I guess some people could, but I couldn’t do that because that’s lying, and I don’t like lying. Okay. Obviously, I don’t like lying. So, I had to call my parents and be like, “hi, I’m going to be in New York for two days and I’m going on the Anderson Cooper show. Do you want to know why? Because my husband had sex with prostitutes. So, I got to go, bye!”. Awful, and I remember actually, them being pretty supportive. We just decided not to talk about it too much, but to support me going on the show. At this point they knew that Craig had lost his mind and was getting better and healthy. So, they just chose not to dive too deep out of respect for me, but I hadn’t really told people in the community, I know I’m in a close-knit community. And I would say that the fear of being out in the open probably was my hardest thing that I dealt with through all of this. And I’m serious about that. That was like re-traumatizing my wounds every time I’ve thought about it because it’s terrifying for everybody to know, right? And in my head, if too many people know, Craig’s never going to get a job again, right? Because financial security is a very important need of mind to be able to pay–


Powerful Eric: Sure.


Michelle Perra: I don’t need to be rich. I don’t need to be going to Hawaii every other day, but I need to pay my bills, okay? Have a car, you know, those things. So, the experience was terrifying, but once I did it, I said, “okay, that wasn’t too bad.”. And then the show aired, a few people saw it and they were like, “cool.”. And it really wasn’t that big a deal. And every single time we’ve been on a show, it has gotten better and better. And over time, again that’s been, Craig has been wanting to scream it to the world and be like, “I’m done lying. I’m done with the shame. I want to help.”. I was the one holding them back for– every year it got better and better. But now, I mean, it’s so freeing now, to be able to just be open and honest and feel really confident and powerful about, “yeah, this is what happened, and this is where you could go”. And I found that people in the community at the beginning, there were a few people that were judgmental, I will agree. But in the end, nothing happened. And even one of them that stopped talking to me for six months, a very good friend of mine, and just over time, she forgot about it, didn’t care and, you know, whatever. And it just, I realized that the more people got to know us, the more that they really respected what Craig was doing and what we were doing and actually found it– they actually were extremely, they found it very inspiring. And–

Powerful Eric: It is inspiring, it’s very inspiring. And I want to thank you again because, by doing this show, Porn Talk, a lot of my friends are going to find out about this through this show and so, I can relate to what you’re saying about that fear of like, how are people going to judge me? How are people going to react to all this? So, thank you.


Michelle Perra: Well, you’re welcome because what I found is the more we talk about it and I love talking about it now, because it’s my life, this is reality. The more we talk about it, the more people start coming to you with their own problems.


Michelle Perra: I don’t need to be rich. I don’t need to be going to Hawaii every other day, but I need to pay my bills, okay? Have a car, you know, those things. So, the experience was terrifying, but once I did it, I said, “okay, that wasn’t too bad.”. And then the show aired, a few people saw it and they were like, “cool.”. And it really wasn’t that big a deal. And every single time we’ve been on a show, it has gotten better and better. And over time, again that’s been, Craig has been wanting to scream it to the world and be like, “I’m done lying. I’m done with the shame. I want to help.”. I was the one holding them back for– every year it got better and better. But now, I mean, it’s so freeing now, to be able to just be open and honest and feel really confident and powerful about, “yeah, this is what happened, and this is where you could go”. And I found that people in the community at the beginning, there were a few people that were judgmental, I will agree. But in the end, nothing happened. And even one of them that stopped talking to me for six months, a very good friend of mine, and just over time, she forgot about it, didn’t care and, you know, whatever. And it just, I realized that the more people got to know us, the more that they really respected what Craig was doing and what we were doing and actually found it– they actually were extremely, they found it very inspiring. And–


Powerful Eric: It is inspiring, it’s very inspiring. And I want to thank you again because, by doing this show, Porn Talk, a lot of my friends are going to find out about this through this show and so, I can relate to what you’re saying about that fear of like, how are people going to judge me? How are people going to react to all this? So, thank you. PpppYeah. And also–


Michelle Perra: And that I found neat.

Powerful Eric: Right, and also, this is helping people that are, you know, alone with this and think that, “I’m the only person in the world going through this, I’m addicted to porn, addicted to compulsive sex, no one will understand, I’m a freak.”. They’re judging themselves. And you know, there’s a saying that says, “we are as sick as our secrets”, and by us talking about this now, hopefully this will empower others to reach out for help.


Michelle Perra: Well, it does because I did my blog, right? And then I went on the Anderson Cooper show, and then we decided to start a podcast, that the whole, our podcast started with us together on the podcast talking to couples, because helping men and women from the couple’s perspective was really important to us from the beginning. So, we had a podcast and the more we talked about it and people would then connect with us, they were like, “wow, I’m not alone. You guys know what I’m going through”. And it really, really was powerful. People still listen to those old episodes and they, they find it very helpful. So, I mean, it’s powerful to put yourself out there because there are so many people going through what you’re going through or what you went through. And, it really helps people say, “I don’t have to be ashamed. I don’t have to hide. I can get help and I can, own it.”. Because you have be able to own it, right?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, you do have to own it and, I like to talk about a study that was done by the University of Montreal in Canada. They attempted to do a study at the university on the men that were acting out the porn and the men that were not acting out the porn and they had to abandon the study because they couldn’t find, they couldn’t get a control group. They couldn’t get a group that was not acting out actively to porn. So, this is, that’s not to say that those all those guys are addicted or– but it’s just show that this is a huge problem.

Michelle Perra: Yeah. And it’s an issue we don’t talk about and you know, we don’t talk about it. It’s kind of like when, especially when I first started, when people would ask what we do, even when I was comfortable with it, I’d be like, “yeah, you know, we own an international life coaching company and you know, my husband’s– the niche is like”, and then my voice would go lower, “porn addiction”. What am I doing? Why would I do that? Again, I was the one that was a little weirder about being out in the complete open, not with people that I wasn’t weird with people that knew, you know, I had a bunch of friends that were super supportive. I wasn’t weird about that at all, but with everybody in the community and everybody in the world, you know, my voice would go lower when I would say it. And, I really had to consciously say, “you know what? I’m not going to do that.”. But that’s reacting off of other people being weird about it.


Powerful Eric: I mean, that’s why I named this show Porn Talk, I wanted to make it very clear, we’re going to talk about compulsive use of porn, compulsive sex, it’s porn talk.

Michelle Perra: Well, I mean, it’s a hot issue. It’s a problem that so many families and people are just struggling with. And again, like I said, I mean, the more and more people come and talk to me or it would be like, “I have somebody that needs your program”, you know, and it’s just like, it’s wonderful to be out there because then people can feel more comfortable starting to own up to their problems and they come to you and, I’ve just realized that there’s no reason to hide with this, because it’s such a big problem.

Powerful Eric: So, what would you say to the guys that are struggling with the compulsive use of porn and sex? On how this affects their partner, and we’re not trying to give anybody a guilt trip or anything like that, but just, how did it affect you as the partner of the sex and porn addict?


Michelle Perra: Well, I mean, in lots of ways that’s a very, it’s a very loaded question because there’s a lot. But, the hardest thing is the lying, right? So, the biggest thing is really, when do I believe what comes out of your mouth? When do I not believe what comes out of your mouth? You know, like I look out the window and the sky is blue, that’s what I see. But, really it was green this whole time. So, how do I know if what I’m seeing is the right color or not the right color. And that’s terrifying. And that’s the big, it’s the lying, that’s a big deal, and the partner just not knowing, when I can trust, when I can’t trust, and you know, you leave the house, I don’t know what you’re doing. And this, I mean, and it depends on the level of, you know, someone who’s a porn addict is a little different than somebody whose husband, well, you know, is buying a duplex for their significant, I mean–


Powerful Eric: Yeah, that’s a whole other level.


Michelle Perra: And he thought it was a good idea. He thought it was a brilliant solution. “I’m going to buy a duplex.”. And I like when he tells the story because he gets really upset, I laugh because to me, it shows how messed up he was. Like, you can’t not laugh at that.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, it’s so absurd.


Michelle Perra: It’s so absurd that it’s funny. Like, I’m not even going to be upset, I’m gone. But, when he tells it, it’s a lot harder for him because he remembers being in that really, really dark place. But the lying at the time, it’s just the lying, the lying is really hard. And men who have addictive behavior, tend to lack some empathy. You agree with that?


Powerful Eric: Yeah.


Michelle Perra: There’s a lack of empathy,

Powerful Eric: Empathy being, putting yourself in the other person’s shoes.


Michelle Perra: Right. So, instead of seeing me as being annoying, because I want you to get help, I need you to get help, I can’t take this. Let’s grow, let’s get help it grow and be better people, right? To have empathy, for where the partner is coming from, because empathy is a big thing. Empathy in the lies.


Powerful Eric: Great. So, what would you suggest to guys that are having challenges in their marriage or their primary relationship, to do or not do to repair the relationship?

Michelle Perra: Honestly, partners, they want to see you doing something about it. So, it’s the people that say, “well, I can just do it on my own”, and some can, but a lot of times you can’t, if you’ve tried over and over again, it is really hard. So, I’m getting into a program, and not just taking the easy way out, “oh, I’m just going to get a book.”.

Powerful Eric: If I may, I was talking to a sex therapist that was on Oprah and he said, well, “I’ve never worked with any addict that was able to recover on their own.”.

Michelle Perra: And it’s true now that the strength of 12-step is the community, right? The problem that I have with 12-step and that kind of stuff is, it kind of keeps you stuck in that, “hi, I’m Michelle, I’m an addict”, right? And we don’t want to keep focusing on the negatives on–


Powerful Eric: No.


Michelle Perra: You can go, you can speak to this very well.


Powerful Eric: Oh yeah, I was always into self-development stuff and big names like, Tony Robbins and things like that. And then, I go to the 12-step meetings and basically kind of learn the opposite instead of saying, you know, “I’m powerful Eric”, I’m saying, “hi, my name is Eric, and I’m a sexaholic”. And then we go on to describe the most, the worst behavior that we’ve done, that’s how the beginning of every meeting would start. And it was totally dis-empowering, and I agree with you.


Michelle Perra: And kind of traumatizing.


Powerful Eric: Yeah. It was traumatizing, and I agree with you. The strength of it, is the community for sure.


Michelle Perra: Absolutely.


Powerful Eric: But I was in and out of 12-step programs for about 20 years, did not work for me. And then I found the Mindful Habit system.


Michelle Perra: When you think about it, right? When you’re constantly like, I like to say it like this. If I tell you don’t think of the pink elephant, think of anything else besides the pink elephant, don’t think of the pink elephant. What are you going to think?


Powerful Eric: Of course. Pink Elephant.


Michelle Perra: And in your question that I totally veered from was, what should these men do? Find a program that helps you grow, helps you be a better person. Because really as we know, the addiction is the symptom.

Powerful Eric: Yes.

Michelle Perra: It’s not what’s really going on. So, when we focus on the symptom, you’re putting a band-aid on it, it’s kind of like, you know, it just, you’re putting a band-aid on it. You’re not dealing with the real problem, and so, my suggestion is what partners and women want to see, we want to see you being a better person. We want to see you taking care of yourself, when you as men are doing something to better you, working on “why am I doing this? Why am I, you know, not able to control myself? Why am I stuck in this pattern?”. And when we work on it, we become better people. Which is one of the things that Craig was passionate about creating this program.

Powerful Eric: That’s the perfect segue. Can you tell me how has all this strengthened your relationship with Craig? How has this made you better people?


Michelle Perra: Okay, that’s a good question. Really, it’s brought us to a completely different place. So, it takes the addictive behavior and kind of puts it on the side and said, I’m going to be a better person, that’s the goal. Now, and stopping the behavior happens as a result of that. Craig, being able to own his mistakes, stop hiding from them, us learning how to communicate, me taking responsibility, not responsibility for anything wrong or anything really wrong in the relationship, but I was bringing a dynamic to the relationship as well. That wasn’t fitting with Craig, even though I didn’t do anything, right? I didn’t do anything wrong. He did it all. He did everything, I did not. But the reality is, I was reacting in a way that was not helping, or it wasn’t working with the man who was pissing me off. So, I could just fight that battle all the time, and we did for, you know, I don’t know how many years that was, like, you know, I got married when I was, you know, 23 and there was a cycle that would always happen because I was reacting to him in a way that was just fueling him in a way. So, I had to take it upon myself to say, you know what, “I can only control myself. I can’t control him. I’m going to stop trying to rely on him and I’m going to grow myself”. And he did the same as well. And we just learned two be in a different place, communicate together.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, so can you–


Michelle Perra: I’m sorry, own our behavior individually.

Powerful Eric: Can you expand on that, so, you said you learned to communicate better, how did that come about or, how did you do that?


Michelle Perra: Well I, you know, we were just tired of that same cycle, right? So, like we’d get into a fight, and Craig can be vicious when he’s, you know, which a lot of people can, he can be vicious. So, then I would go in the bedroom and I would just start crying. And then he would, the same sort of pattern every single time. Then he would come in and I’d be like, “oh”, and he’d be like, “ah”. And then, we would have this communication, but it was based on this, him putting me in this one down position and then him coming in and being bigger than me and saving this, you know, and bringing me up. And then we would make nice-nice. And then we’d be okay for a while. But it was that same cycle. So, we were tired of that cycle. So, we had to learn a different way to communicate. We had to learn to communicate where both people had a perspective and neither one is wrong or right. It’s how they feel and learning to stop and listen and me learning, even though he is a complete ass, and Craig can– ugh. But I trigger him, my face triggers him, my voice triggers him. It’s like the projection of his mother that he’s put on me. It’s very challenging for me, but I’ve had to learn to step back and say, “okay, well I am– obviously this isn’t working, so I need to learn to own my part of the–“, even though I’m just acting and frustrated because he’s annoying, right? But that’s my perspective, and so learning to be on the same level and having empathy for the other person’s position and learning what makes each of us feel emotionally safe in a communication, in life and really, trying to respect that his needs are as valuable as mine and vice versa.


Powerful Eric: Yeah, well, tell us what resources are out there for the partner of the addict. You were talking about the partner program.


Michelle Perra: Yeah. So, we have created now, a partner program, which is a program for the partners of someone dealing with, you know, compulsive sexual behavior. And, it’s been really, really powerful. So, it’s an online program, just like the men’s program. But it’s strictly for the partners, and what’s neat about it is that, they walk through the Mindful Habit system, just like the men would, just like the addict would. And what’s neat about that is, well there’s two things in that. First of all, like we talked about, the addiction is really the symptom, right? Really in the end, it’s born out of our traumas, our fears, our insecurities, all that stuff, we develop bad habits, right?


Powerful Eric: Mine was fear. Yes.


Michelle Perra: Right, and insecurities, I’m sure. And it’s this place where we develop bad habits and negative and harmful and destructive ways of coping with our life. For you, it happened to be porn or for Craig, everything. But, and for a partner who was like, “well, I’m not an addict”. There are other bad habits that we have created, maybe our emotional reactions or responses, the way we deal with stress, we might not be, you know, acting out sexually like our partners were, but we are doing things that have created an extremely negative response because we’re not reacting. We find ourselves in this position and we’re traumatized. We can’t get out of bed, we’re like, our life is over and none of us should ever feel that our life is over for a man.


Powerful Eric: Right.


Michelle Perra: Nobody’s dying on my watch. There are no partner that is going to crumble and die on my watch. So, there’s an empowerment piece because if your man wants to get help, great. We have the Mindful Habit system. And what’s amazing is that you then go through the program together so, you can each be learning the tools and the techniques and the lessons at the same time. So, that’s how you learn to communicate from the same backbone, I guess, from the same perspective. And that can be powerful because when they do the exercises and they talk about it and they can communicate, they learn that communication, they learn all that stuff. So, that’s really powerful. But then at the same time, let’s say your partner doesn’t want to get help or doesn’t want the Mindful Habit system or whatever, it’s a place for you to get help from a place where we teach you to be empowered and not a victim, not traumatized.


Powerful Eric: Yes, absolutely.


Michelle Perra: You’re not codependent. You don’t have to stay traumatized, you’ve suffered trauma, you have been victimized, but you’re not a victim. And so for me, it’s just such a healthier place to be, and that’s what our program is all about. And what’s great about it is, there’s videos, there’s step by step, there’s worksheets and Homework and exercises and group coaching calls and a forum. It’s really a community, it’s been quite powerful, and women have really, really loved it and that’s been awesome.

Powerful Eric: Michelle, how do people find the program? What’s the website?

Michelle Perra: The website is the, and you can find under programs, I think, you can find the different programs that we have. Yeah.

Powerful Eric: Well, Michelle, I am just thrilled to have you on the show and again, really, like I said, I’ve never really heard your whole story and I really owe you a great deal of gratitude for starting your blog, starting the Mindful Habit system. Now, I’m a coach under your guys’ program. Thank you. Thank you for being on the show.

Michelle Perra: Well, thank you for having me and thank you for being an inspiration and being powerful. Powerful, Eric. I love it. It’s awesome to again, like you asked before, to have been a reason why you’re where you are today, and your family is together, and you have kids and it just, there’s nothing better. So.


Powerful Eric: Awesome. Well, Michelle, we’re closing the show and I always like to close with, I love Zig Ziglar. I don’t know if you’re familiar with them at all or not, but he’s deceased now, but he’s a great guy. He’s done a lot of awesome material and I like to close with this quote from Zig Ziglar. Zig says that you are designed for accomplishment, you are engineered for success and you are endowed with the seeds of greatness. Stay powerful.

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Develop Porn Character

Larry Cowsert. Speaker and Author of “Character”

Introduction: Welcome to Porn Talk with powerful Eric, end the porn habit, reclaim your power. Here’s your host, powerful Eric.

Powerful Eric: Hello, powerful people, welcome to Porn Talk, this is powerful, Eric. The purpose of this show is to help you end the porn habit and reclaim your power, but this is not just about breaking addictions, it’s about breaking belief systems. We are bound by self-imposed and societal chains, break the chains, get empowered now. Today we are going to talk about how to develop and discover the extraordinary character within you. Yes, you. I am so excited about today’s guest, Larry. Cowsert. The definition of a renaissance man is a very clever person who is good at many different things. Larry is truly a modern day renaissance man; Larry’s list of accomplishments is so vast that I don’t have time to list them all. He started his first year of college at age 17 studying music and drama, he became a father at 18, he now has five children and five grandchildren. In the eighties, Larry rode camels near the pyramids in Egypt and said prayers at the Wailing Wall in Jerusalem. In 1992 he started a successful, unique software company called New Star Collaborative Technology. In 1999 he was contracted by Honeywell Aerospace to develop medical diagnostic applications for long duration man space flight, which could possibly be used for the upcoming Mars missions. He is friends with astronauts and even met Jim Lovell from Apollo 13 Fame. In 2002 he started a recording studio called 12 Bar Productions that became wildly successful, hosting Grammy winners and platinum selling artist from New York, LA, and the Midwest. During all that, and up until today, he serves as a business consultant, coach and private counselor to many executives in companies. He has written over 100 business plans and even won an award for the best business plan of 2001. He is the author of the book, “Character: Lessons Learned from a Character about having Character”. Now, he is a writer, speaker and coach helping people discover and unleash their extraordinary character. Ladies and gentlemen, help me welcome Larry Cowsert.
Larry: Applause, gosh, I didn’t know I had all those attributes. Thank you Eric. I appreciate it.

Powerful Eric: You’re welcome and like, I said, I didn’t even list them all, those were just some highlights. Tell the listening audience a little bit more about yourself, where did you grow up?

Larry: I was born in a tiny little town on the Ohio River called Rosa Claire. They are in what is called the Shawnee National Forest and I was born there, born at home. An interesting little insight, my grandmother delivered me, at our home. That was my introduction to the family. We lived all over Southern Illinois, my mother and father pastored a church the day they got married and my father stayed in the ministry, in fact, still is at 88 years old. So, we moved around an awful lot and, in fact by the time I graduated high school at 17 years old, I think we had lived at that time, we had lived in, I think it was nine towns, fourteen houses. I don’t remember what all the statistics are, but we moved a great deal. So I, I started doing things in business and at a very early age, started realizing that I was doing a lot of reading and a lot of research and just had this incredible thirst for knowledge and it turned out that, I was able to translate that into other things as I grew up, got older and not necessarily wiser, but, I got older and more experienced and experience leads to wisdom.

Powerful Eric: Moving that much had to be challenging, how did you cope with that?

Larry: It was incredibly difficult. In retrospect, at the time, you know, as kids, water rolls off our back, you know, we think about things like that, but our perspective, when you’re 8, 10, 12 years old, your perspective is the weekend or next month. You know, Christmas is five years away, always, rather than just a few months. In those days it didn’t manifest itself within me, visually, subconsciously it had a real effect on me because it was difficult, as I got older and older, I’ve realized that it was not so much difficult to make friends, but I didn’t want to make friends because if I got very close to somebody and they became a very good friend, the odds are within six months to a year of that date, we’re going to be moving somewhere else and I had to start all over again. So, I reached a point where subconsciously I was saying, okay, I’m going to be nice, I’ll be cordial, but I really don’t want to make friends. And I remember the first time, the first very close friend I had was in the first grade. And I can remember him to this day, I even remember what he looks like. And that was Richard Brown and, Richard and I, were kindred spirits because I was born legally blind and when we were in all in the Illinois where my father got his training and hospital administration, there was one black family in that entire town and that was the Browns. Richard was my age, he was in my class in first grade and I was an outcast because if somebody threw a ball at me, you know, during recess they hit me in the head because I didn’t see it coming. And I was wearing these incredibly thick glasses and I was kind of a geek. I wanted to be like my dad, so I was going to first grade in a starched white shirt and a tie and of course that, you’re asking for a beat down, you know, I had, at the time I didn’t think about it, I wanted to be like my dad, but all the other kids are like, who do you think you are? But the only other kid in class who I was relating to was Richard Brown because he was an outcast. I mean this is 1956, okay. And so, here’s this young black boy and me, and we were inseparable, we were very close friends. I remember a couple of people from Mcleansboro, Illinois where we lived about three years after that. I don’t remember any of the other people in my class. I don’t remember any names of the towns, until 1962, when we moved to Benton, Kentucky. And, so from the first grade to the seventh grade, I can remember one name and because I just got to the point where I’m like, it’s too much trouble.

Powerful Eric: The guys that are listening to this now, their way of coping, is with sexual acting out, pornography, things like that. It’s been said, there’s a quote, “the opposite of addiction is not sobriety, the opposite of addiction is connection.” Now, Larry does not have challenges with addictions, but he’s an expert on character, and so what do you think about that? “The opposite of addiction is connection.”
Larry: Actually Eric, I would almost say that I created an addiction within myself. I was addicted to not creating friendships, I put myself in a position where I didn’t want to be hurt emotionally, I didn’t think about it at the time. And in fact, it was, I was far into my adulthood before I realized it and what really triggered it for me or opened my eyes to the thing was, in a conversation, I was having with some friends in messenger on Facebook. I was talking about the fact that I, you know, it was just a shame that I hadn’t made more friends. And some of the people that had friended me on Facebook were saying, “man, we want it to be your friend, but you just seemed so distant.”
Powerful Eric: Man, you know, the word that’s coming to me, two words are coming to me right now, being vulnerable and intimate. And I don’t mean intimate in a sexual sense, you know?

Larry: I understand. I know exactly what you mean.

Powerful Eric: Vulnerability and intimacy, and I know from the work that I do, a lot of people with abuse, that’s the wall they put up. Like they don’t want to be intimate with anybody, they don’t want to be vulnerable to a relationship.
Larry: There was a book that I read in 1970, it was probably one of the most profound communication books. The title of the book was, “How to have Intercourse without Getting Screwed”.

Powerful Eric: Oh, that’s priceless.

Larry: And we lose the, we don’t think about the fact, you know, somebody says intercourse and immediately our mind goes to the bedroom between the sheets. And the fact of the matter is any involvement is intercourse a conversation is, intercourse, working on your computer is intercourse, you are transferring data to and from. So, it’s an exchange. Intercourse is simply an exchange. That’s the other thing that, after reading that book, it also helped enlighten me a bit that during all those times, it wasn’t that people didn’t want to be my friend, I wasn’t being friendly. So, I was, it was my fault, it was purely within me. Like, anything that we do and that’s what I have discovered about so many people and in doing my business counseling, my opinion is that the addictions that we create are to substitute for something that’s lacking in our lives. And it’s not, well without putting too fine, that’s your area of expertise. But what I find in talking with these men and women who are talking about these problems, they have put themselves in a position not to accept the reality. They are single minded of purpose, you know, this was caused by them, if you watch the mainstream news or anything like that, they’re telling you, you know, you’re either this or this and you know, if you don’t agree with them, you’re all outright. And if, you know, and if you listen to a different in another station, and if you don’t agree with them, your socialists left. And that’s just not true and if we buy into those external forces, rather than looking inside ourselves and saying, “Hey, who am I really?” “What drives me?” “What makes me happy?” “What makes me content?” “What bothers me?” “How do I feel about this?” And, and now, now we’re getting back into that. I had a few of these, dozen or so, who started calling me their business therapist because, and I just got to that question, you know, “how do you feel about that?” That’s kind of the joke of being a psychologist, you know, and, “how that make you feel?” And, but that’s exactly what we get down to at the end of the evening, as I’m having these conversations with these people, or I’m letting them do the monologue and then if there’s input that I have, I give it. But the question always becomes, well, “why do you feel that way”? And when I asked that question, it forces an answer, it forces them to look inside themselves because now it’s about feelings. You know, they’re coming at me, we’ll here’s the logic of it. You know, this fact, okay, those are the facts that you’re dealing with, but how’s that make you feel?

Powerful Eric: Yeah, we are actually emotional, we make decisions actually based on our emotions, people think that we’re logical creatures, but actually we’re emotional creatures.

Larry: That’s exactly right. There are those of us who can look at things pragmatically because of the circumstances that we live in. Others look at it purely from an emotional position because of the circumstances they’ve lived in and so that’s that, all left alt right sort of– You’ve got those who “it’s no big deal” and then you’ve got those, “Oh my God, the world is going to come to an end in 12 years”. You’ve got those people on either side and it’s all because of how they perceive their life and the circumstances that they’ve had to live in.

Powerful Eric: And Larry, you clearly have crafted a great life and great character yourself. What suggestions do you have for someone who’s struggling in life, either with addiction, divorce, hardships, things like that?

Larry:  Well, this has just popped into my head, but as far as addiction, when I became an adult, this is when I’m 23, 24, 25 30, I’m working in the business world. There was a 180-degree polar shift that occurred and how I was doing things because suddenly in my twenties I wanted everybody to be my friend and I wanted to be everybody’s friend. So, I would take people at face value. I didn’t look beyond that moment in time to say I’m not so sure about this person. So, I made friends with a lot of people that I probably shouldn’t have. I–

Powerful Eric: People with shady character?

Larry: Shady character would be a real good way of putting it, ill repute. And what caused me to back away from that was it’s something that, my grandfather had told me years ago. And that is if you have more close personal friends, than you can count on one hand, then you don’t have any because you’re telling too much to too many. And the other thing that he would say is, “hey, look, if they’re talking to you about somebody else, they’re talking to somebody else about you”. So, I, and I let those rules fly out the window and I started, you know, oh, this guy is such a great guy, he’s a such a close personal friend. When did you meet him yesterday? And so, that was, you know, that was an issue that was, that shift that I went through and I had to readjust, you know, the pendulum swung the other direction because I was so desperate. So, my addiction at that point became grasping for friends. But what ultimately occurred, we had, I see all these people who have these great and wonderful attributes. They are good people and they’re doing good things, but they submarine themselves. You know, they, they’re doing it and not, not because they want to. I don’t think there’s, I don’t think there’s a person who says, I’m going to go to the boat tonight and lose every time dime.

Powerful Eric: Well, let me, let’s change gears here. How does one develop character, and can it be learned?

Larry: You can’t learn good character just by sitting down and reading a book, character. good character is with in every single per, unless you are a psychopath.

Powerful Eric:  Okay.

Larry:  Somewhere down inside a psychopath buried behind all of that garbage that creates that mental condition is good character.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Larry: Getting to it is you need one of those bombs they used in Iraq. It goes through 15 feet of concrete to get there because you’ve got to go through all that psychopathy, if that’s a word, but you’ve got to get way down deep inside there and then you’re only assuming that you can make it work because there’s so much baggage.

Powerful Eric: Boy, what you’re talking about there I can totally relate to because when I was deep in the addiction with porn, I felt like I was just buried in crap.

Larry: Yeah.

Powerful Eric:  And like the real me was just completely buried and I felt worthless and helpless and shameful and it was just, you know, the good parts of me were just completely buried.

Larry: And that is what happens to everybody to a greater or lesser degree. We, some of us because of our upbringing can be I as an example, I think racism is an addiction. I think it is an addiction and it’s an attack on character, on your good character. If you are a racist, it is a bad character trait. And there are character traits, we’ve all heard that term and we can all have good character traits and bad character traits. It’s like that old story about the Indian chief talking to his son and he says inside you are two wolves, there is the good wolf and the caring wolf. And then there is the evil wolf that will fight and kill, and the son asked, which one is stronger? And he said, it depends on which one you feed. And that is exactly what character is all about. We, if we are building up those quality character traits and using or even subduing or trying to eliminate the bad character traits, we will become a better character. The problem with so many, and I am, what I’m, what I am now trying to do is work with people to discover their good traits and their bad traits. If you don’t know what the bad traits are, if they truly are not brought to the surface to say, here are some of the like showing up late constantly, that’s a bad character trait. It’s a trait. It doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. It just means you don’t have enough respect for whoever it is you’re meeting with to be there on time, let alone early. So, it’s a bad character trait. The, so you have to identify what the good ones are, what the bad ones are, then you need to start working you, you spend 80% of the time building up those good ones.

Powerful Eric: Yes.

Larry: And 20% of the Times decreasing the banker.

Powerful Eric: Yes, and that’s why I’m doing the show is because frankly, most addiction programs out there focus on starving the bad wolf and not feeding the right wolf.

Larry: But here’s, here it is using that same analogy, here’s what I have come to realize. Starving the bad wolf just makes it angrier and causes it to fight harder. And it’s a human trait. If you are backed into a corner, it’s fights or flight that says a lot about who you are. If you get to the point that you’re, it’s fleeing, then all that’s doing is damaging your character even more, because now you perceive yourself as a coward. So, you’ve done even more damage by walking away or running away. I, so, I believe strongly that you, you feed the strong character as you build them up, you use the more, if you are using your good character traits more and more and more, there’s less time to use the bad character traits.

Powerful Eric: Yes. Is it ever too late to develop character?

Larry: No, absolutely not. I, in fact, I mentioned in the book, I talk about my grandfather going to a funeral because for those who haven’t read the book, and we’ll talk about the book, it may be a little later if Eric’s kind enough to bring it up. But, there’s one chapter in there where my grandfather goes to a funeral of a guy he hated in my grandmother was confused by the fact, and she was like, you hated this man. Why you going to his funeral? She’s said, he says, I want to make sure the son of a bitch is dead. Pardon? Pardon my French. But when he, the fact is when he got there, and that was a terrible character flaw for my grandfather. He, this man hurt him. He, he did him an injustice and it not, it didn’t just hurt him my grandfather. The problem for my grandfather was it hurts his family. It hurt my grandma, it hurt my aunts and my father. So, this guy had no use for the, my grandfather had no use for this man. But when he got there, and he saw this man’s family in the pain, they were in, it softened his heart. He realized at 58, 60 years old, whatever he was, wow, I’m not the only one that’s hurt. You know, they, I, they will never see him again. And his, it softened his heart and it changed his character about that. And he took a little different approach from that point on about how he thought about people.

Powerful Eric: That’s awesome and that is in your book Character?

Larry: Character.

Powerful Eric: So, let’s talk about that. What are some of the projects that you’re working on now these days?

Larry: Oh, well, obviously,” Character Lessons Learned From A Character About Having Character.” That’s, about things that I, and that’s on Amazon right now, on iTunes, and I books and a lot of bull–

Powerful Eric:  And I have both the physical copy, which if you can see here on YouTube, have got that and I’ve got the audible version. It’s a great, really a great–

Larry: Well, thank you. I really appreciate that. I, it was a lot of fun doing it. Because it brought back a lot of great memories and a lot of the lessons that I learned in that period of time, the, I’ve had a lot of demand, not just from the readers of the book, but from family members who have said, well, remember when he used to say, thus? So, there’s a book 2 coming out of all these things that he would also say, but I’m also doing, I’m coming out with a YouTube channel, or there’s another book called “Extraordinary Characters”, and it is interviews with people from World War II vets who were on the beach at Normandy to those who helped liberate the death camps, to those who were on the beaches of Iwo Jima and watched the flag go up. There are, people who survived those death camps that I am interviewing. I’m interviewing some astronauts, buddies. I’m interviewing. But these are people. It’s not just, these are not people who are extraordinary people per say, they are people that have the extraordinary character to have survived or to have overcome or to have lived through or to have experienced extraordinary things in a great or humbling or frightful circumstance. They’re not famous. They’re not household names. You know, we talk, we can talk about Elan Musk or we can talk about, you know, I met Jim Lovell and Jim because of the movie Apollo 13. The name Jim Lovell became a famous name. But that’s the fame that he got from a failure. By the way, let’s not forget that Apollo 13 was the most successful failure in aerospace history. They, but it was a, it was a group of brilliant men who caused them to be able to come back. So, there were a thousand extraordinary characters involved in bringing those men home. None of whom really are known by name.

Powerful Eric: There’s a little quote I like to say, “failure equals opportunity” on guys that are struggling with addiction and that in the, you know, they fall off the horse and we say, you know, failure equals opportunity. And that’s just what they did.

Larry: We need to go back with whether it’s porn, gambling, I, and I’m not taking away from porn because I know that’s a bit, that is a huge star. It’s one thing to go out to one of the casinos and see people sitting there playing blackjack or what. Porn is not something that’s a public display, It’s something that as we were talking about earlier, it’s in the dark. It’s in the quiet, you don’t want It is a, it is probably much more prevalent than we even realize. I mean there was a reason that 30% of the websites on the Internet are porn sites.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Larry: When you consider the billions of people that have web addresses and have email addresses and are on the Internet and members of Facebook and all that sort of stuff and there’s that much porn, somebody buying it or borrowing it or sharing it or whatever the case may be.

Powerful Eric: Yeah.

Larry: So, it is far worse than gambling. It is. Oh, and by term worse, I mean more ubiquitous, it is a much larger thing than probably drugs and alcohol and gambling combined. But it’s done in the quiet. It’s like that. It’s, you know, the guy who is out at a party and drinking and over drinks, is not the problem. In his, he is not experiencing a problem. He needs to control that. But the fact of the matter is the guy who is the real problem is the guy who’s sitting in a one room shared or you know, an apartment or something like that and he’s drinking a bottle of Jack Daniels quietly by himself. And that is what I would equate to the guy with the porn, with the laptop sitting in his bedroom. And so, those are frustrating things that they are all issues and none of them is, none of them deserved more or less attention. But what we have to do is be able to recognize the fact that it is a character flaw, and there’s nothing was in it I think. Well in fact, it, even Jimmy Carter, when he was running for president, did the interview in playboy and he said, I would be lying if I said I didn’t look at a beautiful woman. And you know, and a lot of people said, you know, I’m going to vote for that guy because at least he’s honest, you know, because that’s, you know, that’s, men were built for that.

Powerful Eric:  We are biologically hard wired.

Larry: Exactly.

Powerful Eric: Tell me, how does someone get on your YouTube show, Lunchtime with Larry?

Larry: Once a week I will be interviewing somebody, of extraordinary character. Not that they’re famous, but they’ve just done cool things or are cool people. So, to get on the show, contact me, my email address is Cowsert is spelled C.O. W. S, like in sunshine, E.R.T, like in Tango. But, My website is, I tried to make it easy for everybody. It’s going to be huge because it is going to start promoting my seminars, workshops and training sessions that are called extraordinary character. And it is, as you mentioned at the top of the show, how I can work with people to unleash that extraordinary character that is within them. We all have it. There is not a person out there who does not have extraordinary character within them. They just need to number one, recognize that it’s there, number two, nurture it, number three, stop feeding the bad character that’s in there, and then number four, rise to occasions that they never thought were possible.

Powerful Eric: Larry, I cannot thank you enough for coming here for this interview. You really are an extraordinary character. I’ll close with the quote from Zig Ziglar who says, “you are designed for accomplishment, engineered for success and endowed with a seat”. Stay powerful my friend.

Narrator: Thanks for listening. If you’re struggling with porn or sex addiction, then contact remember, you are powerful.

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